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Dude you do realize your body reactions are also part of OCD. I know what you’re talking about I went through this. Listen maybe you do find the girl attractive and that’s fine. But OCD is trying to take advantage of that to drive you crazy. Take this from someone who’s been in your situation. Ignore those thoughts and stop letting them bother you. The fact that you’re describing how disgusting those thoughts are. Shows that they really do bother you. When you have the thought about the girl just admit that you find her attractive and literally just say so what. Whatever is going through your mind you have to be indifferent towards it.
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I don't believe it makes you some gross predator. You were attracted to her 2 years ago and it was appropriate then. It's still okay. It would be concerning if you were 40 and attracted to a minor, but you're not. There are just 4 years between you. Perfectly natural and anxiety-induced. Perhaps this arousal is something to work on with ERP? And perhaps your disappearing libido is a related response to your fears regarding attraction. I took a psychopathologies coirse om college (BA in psych degree) and the professors was a practicing psychiatrist. He gave am example one day about the brain and body's somatic responses to trauma and intense anxiety. He spoke of a man who was complaining of right wrist and hand pain that doctors couldn't determine a cause for. Through therapy, they were able to discover that his hand pain was a somatic response to his intense feelings of anxiety and shame over 'touching himself' (to word it gently) when it violated his religious beliefs. Additionally, after a traumatic incident in my life involving sexual assault, my libido vanished, too. My therapist and I believe that it's a somatic response to the emotion I was feeling at the time. Things like that can happen, but there are also other possible causes. I'm not a doctor or expert, so take my words with a grain of salt.
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Trust me you’re life is not over. I really feel like I’m taking to my old self right now. If you listen to my advice you will most certainly be fine. I had all types of intrusive thoughts. Like pedophilia, homosexuality, incest, pornography, religion, and etc. The day I decided to not care about my thoughts and not be bothered by them. Was the beginning of my recovery from OCD.
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Your problem is that you keep ruminating on what happened in the past. We all are humans and make mistakes. You’re focusing all your energy on what you did wrong. Rather than concentrating on how you can become better. So the question is how do you get better. Well the irony is you don’t do anything. Don’t give your negative thoughts the time of day. And do not ever fear your thoughts. You have to have the self confidence and believe that you will not become a pedophile. Based on what you written I can even infer myself that you will not be a pedophile. You seem very conscious of your actions and sound like a decent human being. Trust me I know what you’re going through. I was a mess for the last 8 years of my life. I was always worried about the future because of what I did in my past. The reason I got better is that I stopped being so fixated on the future. And lastly you have to learn to not care about your pedophilia thoughts. Every time you get that thought remind yourself that you will not be a pedophile and move on with your day. I really hope this helps you and wish you the best of luck.
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You’re going to be just fine . It’s just OCD
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When I was 17, I dated a guy who was 20. He was an adult dating a minor and nothing ever happened, legally speaking, to him about it. You and this girl both went to the same school, so the age difference isn't severe. It's perfectly okay for a teen to be attracted to another teen. That doesn't make you a pedophile. You'd be a pedophile of you were 40 and attracted to 14 year olds. So to answer your question, yes that is normal. I know that won't help much with the OCD driving force here, but I thought I'd share, nonetheless.
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Thanks so much for the replies. I really appreciate all your help! You're probably right about my body reacting to her and OCD driving me crazy. I do think she is attractive, but I also think she's to young to have sex with. So I don't want that. I chatted a lot with her when I was 17/18, and sometimes it was just fun talking to her. In some aspects of life she was mature for her age. But in other aspects she was not. So I'm glad it didn't ended up to a relationship. I already told you that I once called her pretty and some other things. I drank too much and said some stupid shit (The worst thing was her calling pretty), it was not anything more than that. Could I get in trouble for saying that to a minor? It was more than 2 years ago, but I'm still scared she's may go to the police. I don't want to be seen as a pedophile, because I'm really not..
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A verbal compliment is not a crime. You cannot get in trouble for saying she is pretty. Worse things are said to girls her age. When I was her age, I'd have been elated if the most forward thing I'd heard was that I'm pretty. By comparison to some other people, you were kind. When I was her age, there wasn't a single day at school that another student didn't try to grope me or catcall at me. The worst was the graphic description of a guy's "rape fantasy." I'm still disturbed by it over 10 years later. I know you think you violated this girl in some way emotionally, but you definitely did not by calling her pretty. You've kept your hands to yourself and respected her space. You've done nothing illegal.
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@cbradbets Thank you very much. You really helped me out. Is it also normal if I don't feel anything anymore when it comes to girls my age? I only notice a good looking guy (because of my HOCD) and a cute girl (like 14 - 18). I feel freaking nothing anymore to girls my age
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Thanks for all your responses. The thing that is making me most upset is that I don't have a libido anymore. Since HOCD started 3 years ago my libido was not there anymore. I never fantasized about children (that shit is just disgusting) and I dont ever want to do that shit. But the thing what is worrying me is that my body does react to the 16 y/o girl who I mentioned. She is just very pretty and has a nice curvy body, but it just feels wrong and I don't want it. I have had a lot of anxiety about this, and the feeling of being aroused by her is worsening. Can this be caused by the fear that is behind my attraction to her? I really hope it does, otherwise my life is over..
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(She is now 16, when I was 18 she was 14)
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So one day a couple months ago I saw some posts on threads pop up on instagram and they said I’m 17 and horny and 18 and horny or I think I even remember see a 16 year old one. I’m 20 and I remembered that when those popped up I clicked on them and I don’t know if I did it out of true attraction or out of the urge to make my anxiety go away. I feel like often times if I see something that says any number under 18 even if it has nothing to do with age it could be talking about season 17 of a tv show my mind immediately goes what?? 17??? And then I click on it to make my anxiety go away. So when I remembered all of this I downloaded the threads app because I wanted to see if I could get reassurance and see if I could rekindle how I felt in these moments. When I opened the app all I saw was posts like that but everyone claimed to be 18. The only problem is none of the girls looked 18 they looked like 14-16 so I started to panic I and worry that because I clicked on the threads in the past it popped up more and I was a pedophile for that. All of the accounts all pretty much had only fans links so at that point I was like well they have to be 18 then but now I’m worried that maybe it’s a scammer and they are using underage pictures of girls and putting them on onlyfans. Which I know is out of my control but I just feel like a Pedo and like I did something wrong. Does anyone have any advice? Or have any similar situations/ similarities with this?
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when I was 15 soon to turn 16, I met this girl in a IG group chat made by our mutual friends. We started talking and eventually we started flirting and talking sexual towards each other, though eventually we stopped talking because she was being really weird. A couple months later In July of 2024 my friend found out that she was actually 13 and that she lied to me about her age. It's been 10 months since l've found out and I still feel so disgusted in myself. I had my suspicions at the time but I let them go since she said she was 16 turning 17. I was completely oblivious trusting someone I only knew online especially since i've never seen their face either. i'm struggling on what to do since i've been suffering with POCD since I was 15. Till this day I still feel weird and disgusted in myself because of that. But it feels ironic since i'm sexualizing someone that's 2 years younger than me and I waited to confirm she was around my age range to sexualize her. I feel so weird and guilty about it idk what to do
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- 12w
Not long ago when I was 14 almost 15, I felt attracted to this 12 year old. I even m@struvated to her… people said a 15 feeling attraction to a 12 is predatorial. Now I’m wondering if she was younger than that. Please help me. I don’t wanna be a p@do.
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