I am having trouble with erp. I feel like nothing in my head makes sense and my mind like can’t function or remember why I get triggered. I have good days and really bad days there’s no in between I go from 0 to 100. I get anal sensations and have acted on them and hate that I did. I have told myself that the anal sensations doesn’t mean I’m gay and I know I love women and always have. My mind always feels foggy

Of course. The worst is when you feel in your mind like you are actually enjoying the intrusive thoughts/checking. Just hang in there. We will get through this.

Similar things have happened to me bro. It sucks. It feels like your life is slipping away, like you are losing your identity and should just give in sometimes. Hopefully we both get through this.

Yes, and the testing.

You are not alone.

One of the most useful points of understanding that has helped me is that you do not need to carry out the compulsions or the testing. It actually makes things worse, as I am sure it did for you. Whenever you get an urge to do something or check, sit with the anxiety and recognize that part of the ERP is not checking and not needing an answer right away (as if the testing will actually provide any answers).

My HOCD is getting to me as well man. ERP is a real big challenge for us. Can you help me out with my situation as well? It’s about a Celebrity. My HOCD is making me feel like I have a crush on a celebrity because I imagine him in different movies (not romantic ones) and whisper his name under my breath. My friends also asked if I would fuck the celebrity (in a joking way) and I said of course not but my HOCD is like “would you want to fuck him” or “you know you want it”. NO I FUCKING DONT. I JUST WANT TO BR STRAIGHT WITH A WIFE AND TWO KIDS, AND YET THIS HOCD KEEPS FUCKING WITH ME.

Like the anal sensations?

It becomes unbearable sometimes with the urges and compulsions. Like if I don’t do them time just stands still and they’ll just come back once I’m alone again

I feel you man. Trust me. Understand that you have power over how you respond. You cannot control the thoughts, but your life will not collapse if you fail to check or act on the “urges”.

Like I said, I am going through similar things and, while I am still in the thick of it all, you are not alone. There are other people going through similar things with HOCD (I hope).

You’re right. Thank you man. It sucks I hate it so much but it feels better to know that someone else is going through the same thing

Thank you man I appreciate you talking to me

Anytime

I’ve been masturbating to women 2-3 times in the last 6 years. And my HOCD is telling me that I’ve been covering up the fact I’m gay by masturbating to women constantly. But I know I’ve been attracted to women, and I’ve had multiple crushes on women