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Of course. The worst is when you feel in your mind like you are actually enjoying the intrusive thoughts/checking. Just hang in there. We will get through this.
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Similar things have happened to me bro. It sucks. It feels like your life is slipping away, like you are losing your identity and should just give in sometimes. Hopefully we both get through this.
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Yes, and the testing.
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You are not alone.
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One of the most useful points of understanding that has helped me is that you do not need to carry out the compulsions or the testing. It actually makes things worse, as I am sure it did for you. Whenever you get an urge to do something or check, sit with the anxiety and recognize that part of the ERP is not checking and not needing an answer right away (as if the testing will actually provide any answers).
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My HOCD is getting to me as well man. ERP is a real big challenge for us. Can you help me out with my situation as well? It’s about a Celebrity. My HOCD is making me feel like I have a crush on a celebrity because I imagine him in different movies (not romantic ones) and whisper his name under my breath. My friends also asked if I would fuck the celebrity (in a joking way) and I said of course not but my HOCD is like “would you want to fuck him” or “you know you want it”. NO I FUCKING DONT. I JUST WANT TO BR STRAIGHT WITH A WIFE AND TWO KIDS, AND YET THIS HOCD KEEPS FUCKING WITH ME.
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Like the anal sensations?
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It becomes unbearable sometimes with the urges and compulsions. Like if I don’t do them time just stands still and they’ll just come back once I’m alone again
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I feel you man. Trust me. Understand that you have power over how you respond. You cannot control the thoughts, but your life will not collapse if you fail to check or act on the “urges”.
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Like I said, I am going through similar things and, while I am still in the thick of it all, you are not alone. There are other people going through similar things with HOCD (I hope).
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You’re right. Thank you man. It sucks I hate it so much but it feels better to know that someone else is going through the same thing
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Thank you man I appreciate you talking to me
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Anytime
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I’ve been masturbating to women 2-3 times in the last 6 years. And my HOCD is telling me that I’ve been covering up the fact I’m gay by masturbating to women constantly. But I know I’ve been attracted to women, and I’ve had multiple crushes on women
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Same man. Try not to worry about it too much. I know that is easier said than done. The checking will just make it worse. Stay away from PMO for a while and try to just live your life. By putting so much energy into this obsessive thought cycle, it is just going to make things feel more and more like reality. The anxiety might even go away and leave you with false attractions and the whole menagerie of uncomfortable sensations. The more you try to analyze, the worse it gets.
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@nGfloat My HOCD is making me feel like I’m enjoying the thoughts too, which fucking saddens me. Everytime I watch a video with a dude in it, my mind just goes “cute” or “hot” and it feels like I want it when I don’t. Kill me please.
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@SOOCD Hey bro, I know how it feels, trust me. Still going through it hard making me think I genuinely enjoy some of the stuff when, in retrospect, it distresses me to high heavens. I am going to try not to provide any reassurance, as that is not the way forward. This is not an existential threat. The thoughts cannot actually hurt you (only your response, and the compulsions can). Live life because you, as all humans on this planet, deserve to.
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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How long should I do ERP, so that my brain gets used to it, not to say tired?! I've been working for about three months, but everything still seems vivid in my head, there are even vulgar words in detail... since the sexual topic is both a groinal and a feeling that I want to touch myself. It's mostly related to faces and genitals, so how exactly can that go, if it's emphasized that sex pictures in themselves give that feeling, whoever is in them?
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Just gonna vent, this never happened to me before during my 20 years alive. Whether it is POCD or not, I have truly lost my sense of self and my innocence. Why of all things did this have to happen. Ive been experiencing more strong groinal responses and mixed feelings of arousal regarding specific thoughts. Its so odd, cause last month none of this happened, it was mainly just anxiety and mental breakdowns. Never did I think I would experience physical sensations as well. Acting on compulsions as well left me feeling absolute confusion, Ive stopped doing that but now I get the urge here and there, and Ive learned to sit with the discomfort. All this leaves me with more questions on whether I will truly get through this or not, or if people will understand my situation. On certain days I feel fine, on other days its sheer terror. I blame myself mainly for this all, It is scary as these images, causing both arousal and terror, only result in me feeling like a shell of my former self
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