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Been there! It’s the scariest thought and feeling ever. I know you don’t want to do it. What can you do for self care?
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- 6y ago
I’ve had the same thought before! It’ll pass. I’m also going through suicide ocd and it’s so scary so I understand ?
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- 6y ago
Unfortunately, it makes us question everything. If we have the thought, it must be true, right? Nope! In fact, I bet most of us who have harm OCD are pretty compassionate people who have had a lot of trauma!
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- 6y ago
Yes I had that too it really sucked I know the pain
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Lovestars ocd just sucks in general if you want to talk sometime let me know your not alone
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Hi, I’m sorry u are going through this... I know how you feel because I also have harm ocd and it makes me feel like I’m going crazy !!! A few things that will help .. ERP Therapy look online there’s lots of info about intrusive thoughts, ERP Therapy and how you can help manage your ocd... I printed out free erp worksheets to help me with exposures while I wait for a therapist appointment.... and they have been helping... the thing about intrusive thought ocd is no matter how many times u try to tell yourself or remind yourself that “ u are a good person u wouldn’t do that” the worse the ocd gets because those reminders are compulsions... ERP Therapy is exposure therapy you will learn to let the crappy thoughts in and ride them out like a wave.. eventually your brain won’t mark those thoughts as a fear! Ppl with ocd tend to give more power to a thought or visual image then it needs... we then spiral and get trapped in a vicious cycle.. erp uses exposures to break that cycle... and lastly ocd will allows attack what is important to us and our values because it’s a bully, just know you aren’t a bad person it is 100% your ocd! But it’s treatable! Good luck!
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- 6y ago
Thank you so much for the reply this really helped me to have some hope!
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I guess no one has ever had this problem :(
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Thank you for responding it’s just so terrible it really makes me feel like I’m a terrible person, i don’t want this anymore I want to feel better and then my mind sets off do you really want to get better?
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Also, you should definitely look up harm ocd/ intrusive thoughts on a reputable site this can help you understand just how common your thoughts are when it comes to ocd!! Talking to a therapist is always the best route, but I know that can take sometime.. in the meantime there’s so much info about harm ocd online that can be so helpful especially if you feel like you have no idea what’s happening to you! You can start to feel more at ease just by understanding how common intrusive thoughts are and what steps you can do next to manage them! All the best!
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- 19w ago
I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
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I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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- 9w ago
some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
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