Feeling pretty bad right now, had a thought what if I drive purposefully in to oncoming traffic. And then it was like I was almost telling myself to do it! I hate this so much I hate me! I can’t see me getting past this. I’m sorry this post is scary, it terrifies me. I keep trying to tell myself you don’t want to hurt someone or yourself! But when I say that to myself I can’t even trust myself I feel like I doubt myself. I question do these thoughts scare me? Are they unwanted? I’m suffering so much please help. I’m trying to keep it together, I really am. Holding back tears on the daily.

Been there! It’s the scariest thought and feeling ever. I know you don’t want to do it. What can you do for self care?

I’ve had the same thought before! It’ll pass. I’m also going through suicide ocd and it’s so scary so I understand ?

Unfortunately, it makes us question everything. If we have the thought, it must be true, right? Nope! In fact, I bet most of us who have harm OCD are pretty compassionate people who have had a lot of trauma!

Yes I had that too it really sucked I know the pain

Lovestars ocd just sucks in general if you want to talk sometime let me know your not alone

Hi, I’m sorry u are going through this... I know how you feel because I also have harm ocd and it makes me feel like I’m going crazy !!! A few things that will help .. ERP Therapy look online there’s lots of info about intrusive thoughts, ERP Therapy and how you can help manage your ocd... I printed out free erp worksheets to help me with exposures while I wait for a therapist appointment.... and they have been helping... the thing about intrusive thought ocd is no matter how many times u try to tell yourself or remind yourself that “ u are a good person u wouldn’t do that” the worse the ocd gets because those reminders are compulsions... ERP Therapy is exposure therapy you will learn to let the crappy thoughts in and ride them out like a wave.. eventually your brain won’t mark those thoughts as a fear! Ppl with ocd tend to give more power to a thought or visual image then it needs... we then spiral and get trapped in a vicious cycle.. erp uses exposures to break that cycle... and lastly ocd will allows attack what is important to us and our values because it’s a bully, just know you aren’t a bad person it is 100% your ocd! But it’s treatable! Good luck!

Thank you so much for the reply this really helped me to have some hope!

I guess no one has ever had this problem :(

Thank you for responding it’s just so terrible it really makes me feel like I’m a terrible person, i don’t want this anymore I want to feel better and then my mind sets off do you really want to get better?

Also, you should definitely look up harm ocd/ intrusive thoughts on a reputable site this can help you understand just how common your thoughts are when it comes to ocd!! Talking to a therapist is always the best route, but I know that can take sometime.. in the meantime there’s so much info about harm ocd online that can be so helpful especially if you feel like you have no idea what’s happening to you! You can start to feel more at ease just by understanding how common intrusive thoughts are and what steps you can do next to manage them! All the best!