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Been there! It’s the scariest thought and feeling ever. I know you don’t want to do it. What can you do for self care?
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- 6y ago
I’ve had the same thought before! It’ll pass. I’m also going through suicide ocd and it’s so scary so I understand ?
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Unfortunately, it makes us question everything. If we have the thought, it must be true, right? Nope! In fact, I bet most of us who have harm OCD are pretty compassionate people who have had a lot of trauma!
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- 6y ago
Yes I had that too it really sucked I know the pain
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Lovestars ocd just sucks in general if you want to talk sometime let me know your not alone
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- 6y ago
Hi, I’m sorry u are going through this... I know how you feel because I also have harm ocd and it makes me feel like I’m going crazy !!! A few things that will help .. ERP Therapy look online there’s lots of info about intrusive thoughts, ERP Therapy and how you can help manage your ocd... I printed out free erp worksheets to help me with exposures while I wait for a therapist appointment.... and they have been helping... the thing about intrusive thought ocd is no matter how many times u try to tell yourself or remind yourself that “ u are a good person u wouldn’t do that” the worse the ocd gets because those reminders are compulsions... ERP Therapy is exposure therapy you will learn to let the crappy thoughts in and ride them out like a wave.. eventually your brain won’t mark those thoughts as a fear! Ppl with ocd tend to give more power to a thought or visual image then it needs... we then spiral and get trapped in a vicious cycle.. erp uses exposures to break that cycle... and lastly ocd will allows attack what is important to us and our values because it’s a bully, just know you aren’t a bad person it is 100% your ocd! But it’s treatable! Good luck!
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Thank you so much for the reply this really helped me to have some hope!
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I guess no one has ever had this problem :(
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Thank you for responding it’s just so terrible it really makes me feel like I’m a terrible person, i don’t want this anymore I want to feel better and then my mind sets off do you really want to get better?
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Also, you should definitely look up harm ocd/ intrusive thoughts on a reputable site this can help you understand just how common your thoughts are when it comes to ocd!! Talking to a therapist is always the best route, but I know that can take sometime.. in the meantime there’s so much info about harm ocd online that can be so helpful especially if you feel like you have no idea what’s happening to you! You can start to feel more at ease just by understanding how common intrusive thoughts are and what steps you can do next to manage them! All the best!
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I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
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- 13w ago
Like I'm not even scared I feel numb and ever since that night I've completely went down hill Idk what to do the feeling i felt this time genuily felt like i liked it and i didnt even have anxiety at that moment and now I'm panicking I really hope this is still OCD like I'm sorry if I'm still asking for reassurance but im really worried like it felt good in that moment I don't understand what's going on like I hope it was a false feeling and not something real.....like this has happened before but Idk 😭😭😭😭 I really don't know what to I don't want to turn into a p word I don't this I've been sleeping all day I still do compulsions a little to get rid of the thoughts but I've been getting sexual thoughts too and I don't want them but I feel like I do I don't understand I though I was getting better but I guess every time I get better everything gets worse..
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