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- 6y
Been there! It’s the scariest thought and feeling ever. I know you don’t want to do it. What can you do for self care?
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- 6y
I’ve had the same thought before! It’ll pass. I’m also going through suicide ocd and it’s so scary so I understand ?
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- 6y
Unfortunately, it makes us question everything. If we have the thought, it must be true, right? Nope! In fact, I bet most of us who have harm OCD are pretty compassionate people who have had a lot of trauma!
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- 6y
Yes I had that too it really sucked I know the pain
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- 6y
Lovestars ocd just sucks in general if you want to talk sometime let me know your not alone
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- 6y
Hi, I’m sorry u are going through this... I know how you feel because I also have harm ocd and it makes me feel like I’m going crazy !!! A few things that will help .. ERP Therapy look online there’s lots of info about intrusive thoughts, ERP Therapy and how you can help manage your ocd... I printed out free erp worksheets to help me with exposures while I wait for a therapist appointment.... and they have been helping... the thing about intrusive thought ocd is no matter how many times u try to tell yourself or remind yourself that “ u are a good person u wouldn’t do that” the worse the ocd gets because those reminders are compulsions... ERP Therapy is exposure therapy you will learn to let the crappy thoughts in and ride them out like a wave.. eventually your brain won’t mark those thoughts as a fear! Ppl with ocd tend to give more power to a thought or visual image then it needs... we then spiral and get trapped in a vicious cycle.. erp uses exposures to break that cycle... and lastly ocd will allows attack what is important to us and our values because it’s a bully, just know you aren’t a bad person it is 100% your ocd! But it’s treatable! Good luck!
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- 6y
Thank you so much for the reply this really helped me to have some hope!
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- 6y
I guess no one has ever had this problem :(
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- 6y
Thank you for responding it’s just so terrible it really makes me feel like I’m a terrible person, i don’t want this anymore I want to feel better and then my mind sets off do you really want to get better?
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- 6y
Also, you should definitely look up harm ocd/ intrusive thoughts on a reputable site this can help you understand just how common your thoughts are when it comes to ocd!! Talking to a therapist is always the best route, but I know that can take sometime.. in the meantime there’s so much info about harm ocd online that can be so helpful especially if you feel like you have no idea what’s happening to you! You can start to feel more at ease just by understanding how common intrusive thoughts are and what steps you can do next to manage them! All the best!
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- 19w
I cant get over this thought that is messing my recovery up so much. it was “if you dont act on your thoughts this will never go away” which led to thoughts like if i even wanted to get better, if i even want my life back, if i even WANTED this to go away, etc. im scared. im confused. is this normal? am i gonna have to act on this stuff now? im mainly concerned about my family. i dont wanna hurt them. this disease is horrible. this subtype is horrible. i love my family. why would i want to hurt them? im so afraid this is it for me. i try to do what everyone tells me. ignore the thought, let it sit, sit with the uncertainty/discomfort but the anxiety doesn’t go away. this thought keeps coming back with a vengeance. i thought i was making great progress but im back where i was. i ruminate about this 24/7 and i dont know how to stop. we tried sitting on the couch together last night and it felt like i was RESISTING hurting them. im in constant awareness that i can act on these anytime and it hinders my daily life and work so much. everytime i talk to anyone in my family i feel things like i shouldnt be talking to them if im gonna hurt them and i dont deserve to be around them. i feel like i dont deserve to be alive, i dont deserve to be happy, and i dont deserve to be comfortable. i feel like a psycho whos never gonna get to live life with a husband and family. i feel like i don’t deserve my sweet boyfriend. i dont want my thoughts to latch onto him. this is my mind when i wake up, when i try to go about my day, and when i go to sleep. it feels like it just wont dissipate regardless of what i do. the cycle never ends. its been 4 MONTHS. what the fuck do i do anymore
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- 19w
Sometimes it feels like I’m chasing pleasure with my intrusive thoughts. Like I just keep thinking them over and over, or even making them worse, because maybe deep down I *want* them. And that’s honestly scary. It feels like I’m trying to prove I’m a bad person or even a p*dophile just to see if I feel disturbed enough for it to count as “real distress.” But sometimes, I don’t even feel that bad. Sometimes it’s just… nothing. Because if I don’t feel guilty or sick enough, doesn’t that mean I like it? That I want to keep thinking about it? Sometimes it feels like I like it. And that’s when I spiral the hardest. But lately, I’m starting to think maybe I’m not actually chasing pleasure. Maybe I’m just chasing certainty. This desperate need to feel bad enough to prove to myself I’m a good person. And when I don’t feel that level of distress, I panic. I do compulsions, just trying to force that feeling. But it never feels “right.” It never feels enough. And I get stuck in this loop of testing, checking, pretending to be okay with these awful thoughts just to see how I’ll react. It’s confusing. It’s exhausting. And it makes me question everything about myself. But I think I don’t actually want these thoughts. Maybe I just want to know, with 100% certainty, that I don’t. If you’re stuck in the same cycle, I see you. You’re not alone. You’re not your thoughts. You’re just trying to make sense of something that doesn’t make sense. And that’s okay.
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- Date posted
- 11w
I’m really depressed and lately life has been really really bad. Everyday, it’s like something horrible happens and my mind tries to make me forget it. My family life isn’t that great and everything is super tough for me. It’s like when I get better I go like a million steps back. I ended up doing something bad today:ended up becoming aggressive to myself and caused some ouchies) it hurt a lot and right now I’m really stressed and have been for a while. My mental well being has been extremely bad these days. I have obsessive compulsive disorder but for me it’s decently strong so it’s hard to contain, Complex-trauma, depression, and possibly ADHD. It’s an awful mix. My life is a living hell everyday. I’m not sure how much longer I can keep lying to myself to Myself that I’m getting better when in reality I’m in so much pain, it’s like I’m barely doing anything at all. Please, help, I’ve been acting not like myself. I want to live, even though it’s extremely difficult too and I rather much not be here, but people are counting on me and I don’t want to fail them. How can I convince myself to stay a little longer when I am fully burnt out from trying to get better? I’m in so much pain. I don’t know how to even deal with it. I’m so lost, I might lose it more, and I’m scared for myself. I feel like I don’t even deserve help. I’m so mentally unwell I can’t even think correctly. I hate everything and just want to sleep forever and ever. I’m so numb to it all. I don’t feel anything anymore.
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