I am afraid to get married and have children that might have the same OCD I am having righ now.

I’ve been scared of that too. I have one son and when I like to remind myself that if he does have ocd or any kind of anxiety, at least I am intimately familiar with the symptoms and can help guide him through it, get help early, and so on. He won’t have to suffer for years on end before somebody thinks to take him to a doctor. Any kid is going to have their struggles, but if he inherits mine, at least he’ll have a mum who gets it and is there for him no matter what.

I’m the same as well. I don’t want to get married and have kids due to my ocd.

Our minds are storytelling machines. Sometimes, those stories it tells are about the future. It wonders how someone might react in a conversation we’re going to have. Maybe it visualizes that trip to the grocery store later on. And sometimes, like what you’re doing here, it tries to make projections about the future. In a strange way, if you can look at it as such, this projecting is an act of self-love. It’s your mind saying, hey, take it easy here because there might be danger! We have to be safe! The feeling of fear has something to teach us at times. Sometimes those lessons are useful and sometimes not. Truth is, you can’t possibly know how the future will play out. You just try and make choices with the best information you have at the time, but it’s no guarantee. If having a spouse and children is something you believe necessary to fulfill you, are you really going to let the possibility, however remote, that something painful might happen prevent you from doing that? Do you want to be in old age saying, wow, I’m glad I played it safe and never had that family I wanted?