- Username
- k. b.
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Everyone's experience of OCD is very different. Just because one of your friends has a more 'traditional' type, such as counting and checking it doesn't mean the type you're suffering with is not OCD. Of course we cannot diagnose you, but I do think it sounds like you're definitely experiencing OCD. The best thing to do is to speak to your parents and try to get in touch with a therapist for some CBT. If you're embarrassed you don't have to go into depth about the content of your thoughts, but the fact you're finding it so distressing is a sign that this is OCD. Keep your chin up, accept the uncertainty, and speak to someone xxxxx
Although this sounds like it very well could be OCD, you should book an appointment with a psychiatrist to confirm that the symptoms you are having are related to OCD. Just because you’ve heard that OCD is more common for counting and hand washing, there are many different subtypes with mental compulsions as well. It is unique to the individual, and I do advise you see someone about this.
From the description, you do have obsessions, despite in a form different from the others. It depends on how much these obsessions interfere with your life.
These sexual fear themes are really, really common for OCD (this is how my OCD presents itself when it’s rearing its head—and when it first started happening, I thought I was going nuts and didn’t believe I had OCD because I’d only ever heard of it as cleaning or checking rituals). If you want to look into it more, try looking into Pure O OCD. Like everyone suggested though, you should go to a therapist or psychiatrist to get diagnosed, but I suggest going to one that specializes in OCD so that you can be as open as possible about your thoughts—they’ve heard it all many times before. Unfortunately with the sexual fears theme, there are a lot of therapists out there unfamiliar with OCD who can make you feel worse because they don’t understand. The International OCD Foundation is a really good resource for finding help: https://iocdf.org/. Hang in there! (Also, if you are offered medication, know that medication can help a lot with OCD, even sexual ocd, and it’s really common to combine medication with CBT. It took me a long time to accept that too—so if you feel you need that extra relief/extra help, don’t buy into the stigma against medication).
I completely get how you're feeling. I constantly feel like I'm just being a hypochondriac, looking for the symptoms so that I have something. It's so difficult to figure out whether the doubt is OCD or whether it's just a more realistic side of me telling me to stop being dramatic. Definitely agree that it's worth trying to see someone (more than a GP, because they can make you feel even more like a hypochondriac in my opinion) and hopefully get a better understanding of what's going on. I know with me I think I'd find it easier if I could just put a label to whatevers going on inside my head.
I’ve reached a breaking point and people seem to be noticing. A week ago somebody had moved something at work on my desk and it bothered me so much it sent me into a breakdown. Like I’ve always had ocd and the more I think about it I feel like I’ve always had ROCD because growing up I’d have such strong feelings for boys and then as soon as I was about to date them, cut them off because in my head I was scared they would have to settle. Like I’d purposely find something I don’t like about them and then get scared I’d have to spend my life with them. I was 15, why would I be marrying them??? in my head it made sense though. Every connection I had with a boy was alway ruined with these thoughts. I’d be out on a date and then see another cute boy and then be like wow do I really want to go any further with the guy I’m on a date with if there are so many other guys out there??? How do I know they’re the one?? I didn’t even know ROCD was a thing but it makes sense that I’ve had it all my life right?? I always passed it off as being really picky but now it just seems like ROCD. And then my family really honing in on my relationships and asking when I’d get a boyfriend really fucked with me. In my head I’d be like “I’ll get one when I find the right one” but to them I always had a feeling they thought I was just gay. Like I’d get so defensive like hello I’m just picky!!! Then everyone at work started asking and the more they’d ask the more I’d start to worry. I’d be more cautious of the way I’d dress and things I’d do and I’m starting to think that all that started to build up and now I have HOCD. Does that seem like a possibility to anyone? because now the intrusive thoughts are just “what if you’re not picky and you’re just gay?” but then I think back to all the times and all the feelings I’ve had for so many guys that got ruined because of my fears of commitment. Could it have been ROCD all along?
I’m new to this app and just wanted to share my story. As a young girl I definitely had compulsions. My mom always told me she would take me to a psychiatrist (I would cry when people sat on my bed). Anyways, as I got older I definitely grew out of a lot of things. I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD but I have GAD. I know I definitely have OCD because I have done a lot of research. Recently I have really, really been struggling with HOCD. I’ve never experienced this before, and that’s why it’s making it more scary. I’m a young adult woman and have been in a very serious relationship with a male for many years. I love him so much. I am also very athletic and not very girly. I always loved the fact that I was a guys gal, but lately it has made me super insecure. A lot of people at school assume I’m bisexual because I’m super pro LGBTQ rights and idk? Idk why I give off that “vibe”. It never bothered me, I always thought it was funny, and I have no issue with being gay, but I’m definitely not?! During this quarantine my guy friends have said I have way way more guy friends than girl friends, someone asked my teammate if I was bisexual, and I have never had an orgasm from my boyfriend. It started really getting in my head and I keep being like “am I gay and that’s why I don’t orgasm”. This seems so pathetic and writing this actually helps and makes me realize there is no way I like women. But anyways THE THOUGHTS DO NOT STOP. I keep worrying that I do not know myself, and maybe I don’t love my bf, and maybe other people see something I don’t. Anyways, how can I help myself? I am noticing I’m reassuring and checking and starting compulsions
Random blah-blah: I have GAD, and I think I have OCD too. I don't say that suffer from ocd since I'm not diagnosed. My ex-therapist suggested me to look up for bipolar disorder. The problem is, after half an year, I still don't think I am bipolar. Did my research inside my brain, as well as on the internet. The thing is, I am obssesing over my mental health. OCD was the last disorder that I checked, since I thought it's impossible for me to have it. I am anxious about this one. I am scared. I want to know if I have ocd, and since yesterday, that s all I am doing. Looking up on the internet to find an answer. I am scared if I book a call, the therapist will say: but you have GAD, not OCD. And this will be so bad because I... I honestly can t imagine why it would be so bad. Just that I ve lived in a lie for 2 days. I think my ocd is most obvious in my relationship with my bf. And I feel so bad because he keeps saying that everything he does - is never enough. It s complicated. I just want him to never doubt himself, his actions and our love.
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