Need someone to talk! I struggle from OCD alot. And i keep remembering the past mistakes i have done. I keep thinking about how i will face certain people in life again. I fear about getting anxious in front of them. And they are my old friends. What to do?

Hey friend sorry that happened to you, alcohol can make us do and say weird things, I’ve been there before and have seen friends go through it before, sadly sometimes a person who is very drunk gets violent and aggressive and sometimes you have to use force to get them to calm down, there’s limits of course but if those friends haven’t reached out to you to check up and see how you feel then it means they’re not really your friends, I remember waking up with a hangover feeling guilty and shame but then it would all become better once I call my friends and talk about what happened, you shouldn’t feel like a coward, face your fears and either contact those people again to apologize for screaming and drinking too much or don’t contact them and just forgive them for slapping you and move on, nothing can be done about the Pat except forget it, you have so much more to do and one night does not define you

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So about 2 years ago I was drinking with friends and i got blackout drunk. I threw a plate of rice down and one of my friends slapped me. I was unable to find because i was super drunk. I started yelling over him and all the group of friends came and he slapped me again infront of them. I fell down and again got up and started yelling and he again slapped me in front of everything. All of them were just watching. Then i really got blackout but was functional and don’t remember what i rest of the night. My friends told me that one more guy slapped me because I was not stopping yelling. Now i am in different province because I got better job and have not met those people from that night. So my OCD makes me think that i run from that place, it makes me feel guilt and like coward. Sometimes I wish for revenge from that guy. It makes me question that were they really my friends? I keep thinking about that night. And my friends must have told every other friend of mine they know that i got beaten up. But i was really really blackout drunk. How can i stop thinking about that night and let it go. My OCD says how will i face that group of friends again. I feel shame, guilt and like a coward. I am sick of it. I think about it every day from 2 years. What should I do?