- Username
- ginaa
- Date posted
- 4y ago
You can’t just say that if she has been into men for a long time then all of a sudden she isn’t because of these thoughts the she isn’t, I’m not trying to be rude but that could’ve really triggered her. You can’t just be entitled to her sexuality like that it’s not fair on her
That's fair, I should've worded that better and I sincerely apologize, especially upon seeing your comment above- I'm sorry! I didn't mean to trigger anyone;;
And I’m saying this aswell because I struggle with it badly and that has really triggered me, it’s like saying that this isn’t a real thing
Ah I really apologize for triggering you;; I didn't mean to suggest that in general it isn't a thing! It's perfectly valid to have OCD over such a thing! I just feel like her case is a bit different
Yeah I’m not sure about saying I’m lgbt. My first ocd diagnosis was sexual orientation ocd. I always identified as straight and then started to get ocd obsessions about being lesbian. It’s gotten to the point where I can’t tell the difference between reality and ocd. So it could very well be ocd. I’m not sure and by the likes it seems that a lot of people feel the same confusion. I will have to figure it out eventually. I could not be interested in men because of my depression my libido is low. Who knows. Mental health issues are very confusing. They make things so complicated.
Feeling the same thing but the opposite now freedomproject. If it is any consolation, this intense confusion is very common with soocd sufferers. I know I am certainly confused. We could be gay (or the unpreferred orientation whatever that is). I know that is a little bit of a trigger, but accepting that uncertainty is the only way forward. I also feel like I have completely lost my attraction for women (even though I know that isn’t true for reasons I will not mention here for civility’s sake) and it feels like I am attracted to men sometimes even though it is very distressing to think about it and does not sit right at all. Try to stop analyzing so much. It only makes it worse.
It’s okay I’m just so insecure atm about it I’m like confused at the same time
I’m just going to add- the fact that you’re trying to “figure it out” sounds OCD to me. You’re “checking” how you feel, asking questions, etc. If you’ve dealt with that theme before, it isn’t uncommon for it to return. Maybe you’re a lesbian maybe you aren’t. Hell maybe you want to marry a lizard. You don’t have to figure it out.
Same here
But I know it’s not my truth
Hello, OCD lesbian here! To be perfectly honest, I didn't even know orientation ocd was a thing until I joined this app today and saw the category, and it freaked me out for a minute because I was like 'oh god, is my lesbianism just my OCD??' No. No, it is not, lmao. I don't like men, and my OCD gives me weird feelings about that sometimes, but my OCD is not the cause of my attraction to women. You say you're not into men, and haven't been for a long time. That's it! You're LGBT! And you may have some OCD as well!
Please someone help me. I feel like I’m in denial. I feel like I don’t have ocd. It’s too real. The intrusive thoughts aren’t as frequent, I don’t have anxiety or do compulsions. I’m not even against the thoughts anymore. I can’t explain how real it feels. It can’t be ocd and the thing is I just don’t want to like girls. That’s it. I just don’t want to. But that sounds like I’m resisting my sexuality and it feels like this too. I’m sorry to everyone on this app but I don’t think I’m like u anymore. If things like internalised homophobia and comphet didn’t exist then I’d know I was straight but they do so now I think I’m just that. I don’t want to marry a girl or have sex with one or anything. I want to be straight and just fucking live my life. I’ve never had a boyfriend and I haven’t had a crush on a boy for years even though my ‘ocd’ started in the summer. I’ve had loads of male celebrity crushes that I’ve felt like I’ve loved and I don’t understand how those could’ve been fake but they must have been. Compulsions don’t comfort me I just watch tv to distract myself and that’s it. I can’t do this shit anymore. I don’t want to like girls but I have to be either bi or lesbian. Please I just want to be straight I don’t get it.
Hi just for reference, I’m a girl, I’m almost 17 and I’ve been boy crazy for pretty much all my life. I- I don’t even know what to think anymore, I identify as straight and enjoy thinking about men sexually and emotionally, but I can also masterbate to women weirdly enough? I’ve been diagnosed with pure ocd and I have no desire to have any sexual or emotional relationships with women in real life, and I’ve had hocd for over a year now, but I can masterbate to weird things sometimes and I know I’m not supposed to but I compulsively search things up very often and from what I’ve found most people would say that it would mean that I’m bi. The idea of being bi or gay has made me hyperventilate and cry god knows how many times, at this point I wouldn’t even be angry if I was bi or gay but I know that I’m not. My head keeps telling me that since I can masterbate to gay thoughts or lesbian thoughts sometimes that it means that I’m not straight even though I have no desire to do anything even remotely close to that in real life. This is one of my worst themes of ocd so far as compared to other people who have hocd they don’t get turned on or finish thinking about these things and I do but I don’t identify as bi or gay. I just, I don’t know what to do anymore? I was hoping someone on here goes through the same thing? And I’d really rather not hear that it’s just me denying it, I have a few people I talk to and occasionally when I bring it up they just say I’m in denial so I really don’t know what to do anymore.
So my hocd started over 2 years ago (I’m 20 yrs old now), when I was having a conversation with one of my friends and the thought popped into the back of my head what if the reason I don’t have a crush on any guys at my high school is because I’m a lesbian. Since then my sexuality has been on my mind 24/7 I didn’t know this was ocd until about a year ago but i’m only seeking treatment now. The hocd ramped up when I felt super aroused watching a movie with topless women, something that had never happened when watching men. Thing is I genuinely think I’m gay now, I’ve had this for so long that at first the thoughts disgusted me and caused me anxiety but now they don’t anymore. I saw so many tiktok videos about “pipelines” of certain interests gay people have that triggered me and read the comphet masterdoc which made me cry when I read it because I related to so much of it. When I was a child I was never boy crazy, I never really crushed on boys in my class (to be fair there were only 7) however I do remember writing a love note to a boy in first grade and having an immense celebrity crush on a disney channel star. I remember to certain things I did as a child that lead me to think I am gay and they keep replaying over and over in my head. Thing is over the past year I’ve had crushes on 3 guys I’ve met through dating apps. The last one I actually hung out with and I had my first kiss/makeout session 2 months ago. After that my hocd calmed down I enjoyed kissing him it felt euphoric the whole drive home just replaying our dates in my head. But now I can’t get the thought out of my head what if I didn’t like it enough? I didn’t get butterflies when we kissed (i do when I think back about it though) and didnt feel super aroused like that time I watched that movie. I feel nothing when I look at pictures and videos of men but with women I started getting this warm feeling in my chest which stressed me out even more. Idk what I am anymore and it is driving me insane. Does anyone relate?
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