How do I know when it’s time to call a crisis line? Or seek help? Has anybody actually been hospitalized for OCD? I’ve been crying everyday and I can’t stop worrying about everything and looking up stuff online and reading for hours a day about everything I think about. When I read things that confirm my suspicions I freak out and start shaking a little or jerking. But if I read things that confirm that I’m going to be okay, I start thinking of every single reason why it’s not going to be okay, and how could you ever think it’s going to be okay. I am not managing my life very well. I feel guilty about everything. I keep telling myself that I don’t deserve happiness and I don’t deserve food or nice things and I feel incredibly guilty every time I do something for myself like make food and I convince myself that it means I am the worst person and eating food when others can’t or don’t have food. And then I get sick and nauseous and anxious. I constantly have worries about my health and I’m constantly reading stuff online. I think I have schizophrenia sometimes cause of the voices I hear something when I’m stressed. So I spend so much time on forums looking for people who have disorder and comparing my experiences to theirs and then I keep thinking I’m faking symptoms for attention and can just stop doing things but then I do them again and I hate it. I am having a ton of false memories about what is real. I feel like the world is floaty and unreal. I just want this to stop.

I have harm ocd and depression and went to the hospital bc it felt so real. I was told by an ocd expert that someone with harm ocd is more unlikely to act on their thoughts then someone who has no mental problem. Going to the hospital just made my harm ocd worse bc they are constantly asking you there if you have a plan etc and bc my harm ocd felt so real it really felt like I had one.

You should get help when you feel like your symptoms are getting worse and if you can’t deal with your ocd anymore. I totally understand what you are going through. It’s important to look after your mental well-being and to eat lots of food. Sometimes I hear things too that my family can’t hear and I think that am going crazy or I have schizophrenia. Asking for help would be the first step to start the process of recovery. We can get through this together and we are all here for you. You are more than welcome to message me privately if you want.

Hey, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Talking to a professional is a great start and I’d really recommend talking to someone on a crisis line when you are feeling unwell - they can give you helpful CBT strategies to manage anxiety momentarily and also help you calm down from panic attacks. When I feel really guilty and horrible and awful, I find that talking to someone and just getting confidential help is great, so please don’t hesitate to reach out for help when you need it!

Hey, I’ve felt the same way many many times, stuck in a constant loop of anxiety and compulsions and reading and watching videos from the moment I wake up to when It’s time to go to sleep. my biggest fear is schizophrenia and I’m constantly thinking weird things and just being anxious :( I hope things get better for you and I highly recommend a therapist! Getting a therapist who specializes in OCD is the best thing I’ve ever done for my mental health!

I’m sorry that this is happening to you. To answer your question I have call a crisis line and seek help. Seeking help truly was the biggest thing I could have done! I was at the bottom. I wasn’t eating, similar to your current situation. I didn’t understand what was happening and really frustrated me. So please consider getting help. It changed for good my situation.

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