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I have harm ocd and depression and went to the hospital bc it felt so real. I was told by an ocd expert that someone with harm ocd is more unlikely to act on their thoughts then someone who has no mental problem. Going to the hospital just made my harm ocd worse bc they are constantly asking you there if you have a plan etc and bc my harm ocd felt so real it really felt like I had one.
Oh no! I can see how that would be so disorienting. I’m sorry you experienced that.
You should get help when you feel like your symptoms are getting worse and if you can’t deal with your ocd anymore. I totally understand what you are going through. It’s important to look after your mental well-being and to eat lots of food. Sometimes I hear things too that my family can’t hear and I think that am going crazy or I have schizophrenia. Asking for help would be the first step to start the process of recovery. We can get through this together and we are all here for you. You are more than welcome to message me privately if you want.
Hey, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Talking to a professional is a great start and I’d really recommend talking to someone on a crisis line when you are feeling unwell - they can give you helpful CBT strategies to manage anxiety momentarily and also help you calm down from panic attacks. When I feel really guilty and horrible and awful, I find that talking to someone and just getting confidential help is great, so please don’t hesitate to reach out for help when you need it!
Hey, I’ve felt the same way many many times, stuck in a constant loop of anxiety and compulsions and reading and watching videos from the moment I wake up to when It’s time to go to sleep. my biggest fear is schizophrenia and I’m constantly thinking weird things and just being anxious :( I hope things get better for you and I highly recommend a therapist! Getting a therapist who specializes in OCD is the best thing I’ve ever done for my mental health!
I’m sorry that this is happening to you. To answer your question I have call a crisis line and seek help. Seeking help truly was the biggest thing I could have done! I was at the bottom. I wasn’t eating, similar to your current situation. I didn’t understand what was happening and really frustrated me. So please consider getting help. It changed for good my situation.
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hi! I really need someone to help out right now. I would appreciate it so much. Thanks:) I know this is kind of long, but please help me out and read it. please help confirm for me that the symptoms im experiencing are just extreme existential OCD, depersonalization, and anxiety. it would make me feel a lot better. 7-8 months ago a traumatic event led me to experience severe depersonalization. ive had OCD for as long as i can remember basically, but it’s become a lot worse from this. i am a very big overthinker, so i tend to over analyze a lot of the things going on around me, my perception of everything, my thoughts, etc. it’s gotten so bad because of the depersonalization that i at times really can’t function anymore. one day, all i’ll be able to think about is the irrational fear that i somehow am going to die and there’s something terribly wrong with my brain, like cancer or something. then the next, i’ll be freaking out, worrying that im gonna go crazy. like this is some kind of early onset schizophrenia. i start doing research and i start obsessing over each and every thought i have, everything i see, etc. then i’ll be paranoid about my family, worrying that none of them are real and they’re imposters or something. i know it’s irrational. i recognize that and don’t genuinely believe it. but the fact that this thought worries me concerns me even more because it leads me to believe im going crazy. i am having existential crises regularly. like, all the time. it’s actually ridiculous. i’ll be reading a book and i start contemplating the English language and how it came to be, and then language altogether, and then how humans were able to create and understand language, and then how they were able to sound it out, how sound exists altogether, and so on. lol. like what the hell? a few days ago i was looking out of my bedroom window, and all the sudden had the intrusive thought come into my head, “what if this is just a simulation and what you see outside of your window is merely a two dimensional image?” and then i almost had a full on panic attack. anyways, those are some examples. i’m so worried. i feel like i have no control over what freaks me out anymore. i feel like i have no control of my brain altogether. i don’t want to go crazy. i don’t want to feel like im stuck in a dream anymore. im so scared. somebody please help me. i live my life in fear, worrying about everything i perceive. im exhausted. i can’t tell anyone because i don’t want them to worry, or think that im going crazy. that’ll only reinforce my fears.
Hi everyone! This is me writing this while having an intense OCD attack and seriously I don’t know how to handle it. At this point I cry almost every day, I’ve lost my appetite, and I don’t know what to do anymore. This summer I’ve seen a movie where one of the characters had schizophrenia and did what my intrusive thoughts were about, which is harming others. I panicked immediately and did what I wish I didn’t, but I didn’t know back then it was a compulsion: I googled the symptoms. I felt relief at first, but then I started asking myself what if I have those symptoms? What if my thoughts will become voices and I’ll believe them? (This is still one of my biggest fears) Ever since then it’s a never ending cycle, everything I see and hear I question if it’s real or only me hearing/seeing it. I overanalyse my body sensations like when my ears ring, or I feel a tightness around my head etc. I went to see a therapist to start treatment, and he told me I have nothing to worry about, cause it’s unlikely I’ll develop it. I felt at ease, and for a few weeks I felt so much better, cause that talk with the therapist went well and I finally got the diagnosis which is OCD. But then, I was scrolling on Instagram, and I saw a video and ever since then it’s getting bad again. It gotten so bad that my mind “plays” random phrases/music/words in my head, and it’s sometimes in my internal voice, sometimes it’s in others’ and it’s so scary cause I’m just going on with my day and they’re just there. Also for example I hear my mom cleaning the dishes and as she puts them away they make a sound and I hear a word in it, but it makes no sense yet I panic over it cause it was a word? I feel like I don’t even have own thoughts anymore, other than those and the ‘What if this means…?’ thoughts which cause me so much anxiety I feel like I’ll explode. The reason I’m writing this is that maybe someone who went through the same thing can help me, and give me some tips how to stop ruminating and mentally+physically checking (my emotions, my facial expressions, body sensations etc.)? I’m currently going to a group therapy which is seem to help, but I feel like I need to see a therapist alone where she/he can help me with my exact problem? Maybe it’s seeking reassurance and that’s a compulsion cause what if this isn’t OCD but still I don’t know what to do. Thank you!
How bad do you have to be because I would say I am severely struggling right now, to the point where everything is a clue to me. Im borderline dealing with psychosis I believe and I’m terrified. Has anyone actually been an inpatient before? Was it helpful?
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