- Username
- Magzzz
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Please don’t hurt yourself. You are loved by so many people. Your friends and family love you and care about you a lot. They would be devastated if something happened to you as they would wonder what more they could have done to help you. Have you tried showing your parents websites on what ocd is. You will get better soon it will just take time. We can get through this together and we are all here for you.
I don't know how much longer I can take it. I feel like such a burden to everyone. I tried to tell them it could be OCD but they just get frustrated and mad at me and yell at me. Thank you for your kindness I appreciate it
@Staystrong❤ I’m sorry to hear that your parents are not listening to your cry’s of help. Your welcome. Take care and try to do the things that make you happy. If you have the thought to hurt yourself please go to the Ed, call the suicide hotline or speak to a professional. We all care about you and we wouldn’t want anything happen to you.
@hanajade I will try. I don't want to die. I just want the pain to go away. Thank you
@Staystrong❤ I totally understand what you mean.
Please call this number and get help. You deserve to be here and your feelings are very real. 800.273.8255
It'll get better. Believe me. It is hard I know but you are strong girl. Harming yourself is not a solution. Believe in yourself. You are beautiful and smart human being. You can handle it!
I'm going to do my best to get. Thank you so much.
@Staystrong❤ *Better
please don’t hurt yourself. as someone who has attempted suicide over this i can tell you that an experience like that is traumatizing and not worth it. if you failed at it, it puts you at an even harder level of recovering. succeeding at suicide will make everyone around you miserable for the rest of their lives. so please i urge you to start imerssing yourself in ERP. it’s so difficult at first but you’ll slowly start seeing the light of day by doing it
I won't. I'm so sorry. I don't want to die I just want the pain to go away but I've realized that it would be a permanent solution to a temporary problem and I don't want to hurt anyone I love. My family is already going through so much already. I'm going to try to get better and help myself. Thank you for your kindness 😇
you’ve got this♥️, and im really so sorry you feel this way
It's ok 😊
Not having support is difficult. Besides this app, what other resources do you use?
I don't really have anything else
@Staystrong❤ Have you ever listened to the OCD Stories podcast?
@Ben84 No is it helpful?
@Staystrong❤ Yup! How about Chrissie Hodges You Tube videos? On Instagram, Kimberly Quinlan, Obsessivelyeverafter, and Ocdbaltimore are good starters ☺.
@Ben84 I've watched some of her videos she's awesome! I will look into those thank you 😄
@Staystrong❤ You're welcome ☺. Not having therapy is a tougher road for sure, but not a hopeless one.
@Ben84 It's rough but I'm hoping this is all temporary
TW// SUICIDE im gonna be really honest. i am not doing good. this is the worst ocd theme i have ever had. it feels SO real to me. i look at my self in the mirror and mourn the happy girl i used to be before december of 2019 when my ocd first hit. the fact that i will never be the same scares me and haunts me more than anyone can understand. everyday gets harder and harder no matter how much progress i make. i cant afford therapy right now but i need it so badly. i am genuinely in so much pain. i feel so guilty, and ashamed, and sad all the time. i cant focus on school work or anything anymore. i have had thoughts about suicide because i just want some relief. it hurts so much. i love my boyfriend beyond belief. it makes me so angry that ocd would attach to and manipulate something so pure and beautiful to me.
TW/ I don't know what to do anymore 😔 Struggling with real event/false memory ocd is so hard. Last weekend, I was planning on committing suicide but I couldn't tell my siblings what was wrong cuz I feel like they wouldn't understand. I feel so underserved and unwanted sometimes and it would be better if I leave this earth. I would compare myself to people who done harmful things to other people, but deep down inside I'm none of these people AT ALL. Tbh, I will be surprised if I make out alive by the end of next year. I struggle with self-harm as well and there are times where I really I had to fight the urge to self-harm. This has been so horrible because I failed all my classes this semester and I'm not sure if I'm going to be back to school next semester. I just feel like a failure. I don't even remember being fully happy. At this point I just want to leave and never come back. I know my friends and family would be sad when I committ suicide, but I think they would live a better life when I'm not in it.
I can't get medication or therepy and I can't take this anymore. I've been a straight man my entire life, always wanted a wife and this says otherwise. The thing worse than the thoughts and disgusting images is the groinal response. I can't take this anymore. Six months of this shit and a garbage year in general. Covid, my girlfriend cheating and leaving, laid off at work despite working hard, total isolation, then this. I had ocd during childhood and youth now it's back. This has said many things over the years but the things it's said past six months are, -Ive always been trans but never knew -Im want to be trans -Im a pédo -Im a râpist - I'm a traitor to my country -Id rather fight for the axis than the allies -Our veterans are scumbags -I want to beat women -I want to load a shotgun and shoot my family -I like incest -I want to fuck animals -im going to hell - I don't believe in my Catholic faith - The one that's been the worst, I'm gay I don't want to be or do those things. I don't. I've thought of myself as a decent man and I loved who I was before this. I don't want to live anymore. I've looked for reasons to keep going yet I find nothing. The whole "You have so much to live for!" has only given me little hope and strength in the early stages of this. It does nothing for me anymore. With the groinal response it's like I've turned gay. HOCD It's attacked friends, people I look up to, family. So many people. I just want to curl up and die. I just want to fucking die
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