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Please don’t hurt yourself. You are loved by so many people. Your friends and family love you and care about you a lot. They would be devastated if something happened to you as they would wonder what more they could have done to help you. Have you tried showing your parents websites on what ocd is. You will get better soon it will just take time. We can get through this together and we are all here for you.
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I don't know how much longer I can take it. I feel like such a burden to everyone. I tried to tell them it could be OCD but they just get frustrated and mad at me and yell at me. Thank you for your kindness I appreciate it
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@Staystrong❤ I’m sorry to hear that your parents are not listening to your cry’s of help. Your welcome. Take care and try to do the things that make you happy. If you have the thought to hurt yourself please go to the Ed, call the suicide hotline or speak to a professional. We all care about you and we wouldn’t want anything happen to you.
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@hanajade I will try. I don't want to die. I just want the pain to go away. Thank you
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@Staystrong❤ I totally understand what you mean.
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Please call this number and get help. You deserve to be here and your feelings are very real. 800.273.8255
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It'll get better. Believe me. It is hard I know but you are strong girl. Harming yourself is not a solution. Believe in yourself. You are beautiful and smart human being. You can handle it!
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I'm going to do my best to get. Thank you so much.
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@Staystrong❤ *Better
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please don’t hurt yourself. as someone who has attempted suicide over this i can tell you that an experience like that is traumatizing and not worth it. if you failed at it, it puts you at an even harder level of recovering. succeeding at suicide will make everyone around you miserable for the rest of their lives. so please i urge you to start imerssing yourself in ERP. it’s so difficult at first but you’ll slowly start seeing the light of day by doing it
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I won't. I'm so sorry. I don't want to die I just want the pain to go away but I've realized that it would be a permanent solution to a temporary problem and I don't want to hurt anyone I love. My family is already going through so much already. I'm going to try to get better and help myself. Thank you for your kindness 😇
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you’ve got this♥️, and im really so sorry you feel this way
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It's ok 😊
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Not having support is difficult. Besides this app, what other resources do you use?
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I don't really have anything else
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@Staystrong❤ Have you ever listened to the OCD Stories podcast?
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@Ben84 No is it helpful?
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@Staystrong❤ Yup! How about Chrissie Hodges You Tube videos? On Instagram, Kimberly Quinlan, Obsessivelyeverafter, and Ocdbaltimore are good starters ☺.
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@Ben84 I've watched some of her videos she's awesome! I will look into those thank you 😄
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@Staystrong❤ You're welcome ☺. Not having therapy is a tougher road for sure, but not a hopeless one.
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@Ben84 It's rough but I'm hoping this is all temporary
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TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me
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Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Im so scared of not being able to control my feelings, im scared I can't resist S and its giving me anxiety and making me cry. Sometimes when i think of those sexual scenarios with S or I get those thoughts my mind tells me to smile because i like it because I find it funny. It makes me doubt myself all over again. Like I'm always like I need to test if I'd feel aroused to intimate scenarios with S, lately im trying to fight this urge to test and test but my mind is like "just do it this once so you can be sure. I can never watch anything romantic or sexual or whatever because my mind would be like "you and S" or sometimes I'm just enjoying time with my bf and im like " yes we can just have a sneaky cheating thing thats ok" and it makes me want to figure it out to find an answer a solution because idk it just does like I need to find the meaning of it if it means the truth and all. Im worried im just an awful person and these thoughts just ruin my quality of life . Today i had a crisis where i ended up doinf swlf harm, I'm so scared of finding someone that's not my boyfriend desirable or sexual appealing or whatever it is, I also have bodily reactions when I try to imagine and test my reaction to scenarios. Now i keep groing everytime and I dont know why but i have this sensation and I dont want to havebit especially when its something S related. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this? Is this ROCD? What should i do?
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since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.
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