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Please don’t hurt yourself. You are loved by so many people. Your friends and family love you and care about you a lot. They would be devastated if something happened to you as they would wonder what more they could have done to help you. Have you tried showing your parents websites on what ocd is. You will get better soon it will just take time. We can get through this together and we are all here for you.
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I don't know how much longer I can take it. I feel like such a burden to everyone. I tried to tell them it could be OCD but they just get frustrated and mad at me and yell at me. Thank you for your kindness I appreciate it
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@Staystrong❤ I’m sorry to hear that your parents are not listening to your cry’s of help. Your welcome. Take care and try to do the things that make you happy. If you have the thought to hurt yourself please go to the Ed, call the suicide hotline or speak to a professional. We all care about you and we wouldn’t want anything happen to you.
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@hanajade I will try. I don't want to die. I just want the pain to go away. Thank you
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@Staystrong❤ I totally understand what you mean.
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Please call this number and get help. You deserve to be here and your feelings are very real. 800.273.8255
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It'll get better. Believe me. It is hard I know but you are strong girl. Harming yourself is not a solution. Believe in yourself. You are beautiful and smart human being. You can handle it!
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I'm going to do my best to get. Thank you so much.
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@Staystrong❤ *Better
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please don’t hurt yourself. as someone who has attempted suicide over this i can tell you that an experience like that is traumatizing and not worth it. if you failed at it, it puts you at an even harder level of recovering. succeeding at suicide will make everyone around you miserable for the rest of their lives. so please i urge you to start imerssing yourself in ERP. it’s so difficult at first but you’ll slowly start seeing the light of day by doing it
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I won't. I'm so sorry. I don't want to die I just want the pain to go away but I've realized that it would be a permanent solution to a temporary problem and I don't want to hurt anyone I love. My family is already going through so much already. I'm going to try to get better and help myself. Thank you for your kindness 😇
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you’ve got this♥️, and im really so sorry you feel this way
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It's ok 😊
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Not having support is difficult. Besides this app, what other resources do you use?
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I don't really have anything else
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@Staystrong❤ Have you ever listened to the OCD Stories podcast?
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@Ben84 No is it helpful?
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@Staystrong❤ Yup! How about Chrissie Hodges You Tube videos? On Instagram, Kimberly Quinlan, Obsessivelyeverafter, and Ocdbaltimore are good starters ☺.
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@Ben84 I've watched some of her videos she's awesome! I will look into those thank you 😄
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@Staystrong❤ You're welcome ☺. Not having therapy is a tougher road for sure, but not a hopeless one.
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@Ben84 It's rough but I'm hoping this is all temporary
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It’s like my brain is doing everything in its power to convince myself and also justify an attraction to teenagers. I hate myself. I don’t want to be this person, but what if I don’t have a choice. How do I get these thoughts out of my head permanently. I feel like my life will never be the same if they don’t leave forever. I can’t tell what is a real desire and what OCD is trying to convince me is a real desire. I can’t do this every day for the rest of my life. I don’t want to hurt anyone, or I don’t think I do but how do I even tell anymore. This might not even be OCD at this point, I can’t separate my thoughts from OCD thoughts I think because I’ve had OCD for so long so it all just feels like me. Maybe it is me. TMI but I haven’t pleasured myself in like a week because my libido is so low now, I don’t want to do it with these thoughts.
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I want to get thought this weird horrible period, it has been horrible. I am doubting everything. I’m not diagnosed but when I look at my past I’ve always been horribly anxious and worrying about health, death and basically everything while suffering from major a lot of insecurities stemming from bullying and lately a lack of intimacy with my partner, Every time I think I’m on the way out, or see some light at the end of the tunnel my mind always pulls me back in. It’s torture. I’ve always been insecure about how I look and I find myself comparing myself at other males and it’s made my self esteem on the floor. I have a girlfriend and prior to this we had a future planned and talked about kids (we’re still young, but it felt so real), this all began to bubble when we stopped being intimate and the loss of my job. I don’t know anymore how to move on, every day feels like a chore. The intrusive thoughts telling me I’m in denial, constantly thinking about men I’ve felt insecure about their looks compared to mine wishing I looked like them plaguing my mind. The false attractions, prior to this i was comfortable in acknowledging good looking men. However now my mind takes this as evidence, every single thing in my past seems like some form of evidence. Not having male friends, the comparisons, being questioned about my sexuality from siblings. I’m sorry if this is reassurance, I am just needing to get some things of my chest. Every time I think about my first real attraction or girls I found pretty/attractive or I liked my mind is like your in denial and then I feel horrible about thinking those thoughts as I have my girlfriend. I miss just being with my girlfriend and not having these thoughts and feeling horrible. I feel like a fraud and a horrible partner. I’ve tried to accept maybe, maybe not, but something always comes back. These 4 months have been terrible. I want to sleep without horrible dreams, I want to eat. I want to feel like myself again. Thank you to anyone who reads this. Hope you’re strong too.
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I was scrolling on insta and I saw a post of a kid, I felt a sense of attraction, idk if it was false or not. I hope it was, I got worried and the kid kept popping up in my head, I kept trying to stop it because I can’t stand not doing anything and feeling attracted, I don’t wanna be attracted to kids, im fucking tired of having to deal with all of this every day. I can’t tell if it is real or false attraction, all of this is so annoying, I can’t even listen to music properly without feelings of attraction showing up. I’m not able to tell if it’s false attraction or not anymore at all, it feels way to real to know, I keep hoping that it’s all false, and I hope that I have pocd not actual pedophilia because I was never disgnosed, I was also exposed to porn at a young age, and I’m worried it causes pedophilia. Please help me with these attraction feelings I can’t tell if they’re real or not anymore. I can’t even tell if I’m distressed, panicked, disgusted, or shamed. I don’t feel any of those feelings anymore, idk why, idk how to deal with this stuff anymore, I don’t even know if I have ocd or not, I’ve only ever gotten one short diagnoses that said I have ocd but I lied on 2 questions about feeling arousal which I do, idk why, and the other about liking the thoughts, which I said I didn’t, but in reality I don’t know if I do or not. Also only certain kids trigger the attraction feeling, it makes me worried I’m a pedo because it’s only certain kids that cause it, kind of like a “type” (edited)
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