Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

I did something a long time ago that I didn't realize was so bad at the time until a long time later, one night I was about to go to sleep and I remembered doing that thing. It was something I did willingly but it didn't cross my mind at the time at all that what i was doing was so wrong and I didn't know it was that bad if that makes sense. I feel so terrible the guilt is eating me up. I don't know what to do. I would never ever make that same choice or mistake again but its really upsetting me... I'm a Christian and I try to pray about it I even talked to my parents about it they told me to let it go but why is it so hard to?

Catlady

Date posted: 4y

I’m sorry you’re dealing with this right now. I’m a Christian too. I know guilt can be a hard thing to get through. But as hard as it can be, if you’ve repented and asked God to forgive you then you’re forgiven and washed clean. It may be hard to overcome feeling guilty but you can take heart that you’ve been forgiven❤️

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

I have repented but the guilt and mistake I have made makes me feel like the worst person in the world because I've changed and I would never be the same. Thank you 😊

Catlady

Date posted: 4y

@Staystrong❤ You’re welcome❤️. Remember you didn’t understand at the time how bad it was and like you said you’ve changed since then.

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@Catlady Yes. I would never do it again knowing what I know now. I was young and uneducated about it I guess. I hope I'm not just making excuses but I know I have changed for the better

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Date posted: 4y

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Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much 😊

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I’m struggling with the same thing. I’m a Christian as well and this is so hard. I wish I had advice for you.

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Just knowing I'm not alone helps. Praying for you. We can get through this 😊

M H

Date posted: 4y

I remember getting this so bad when I was younger. I didnt even know I had ocd so it made it worse. I would have a compulsion of telling my mom everything as awkward as it was. I felt that unless I told her I would keep feeling guilt when really its God that forgives u. I found that I usually went through guilt trips during school breaks too. Then it would go away. I havent had those guilt trips in a while. I think it's the ocd not letting us let go or making us overreact lol.

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Yeah I think that's what it is too. I haven't been diagnosed yet but I'm 99.9 percent sure that's what's going on with me and it's very scary not knowing what's real and what isn't. I have that problem too where if I don't confess every little thing I've done it messes me up. But both of my parents told me to let it all go but it still eats me up inside. I know God forgives me I've repented my sins and mistakes time and time again but forgiving myself is so hard because I don't feel like I deserve forgiveness. It's a tough battle I just hope I can get through it. God bless and I wish you all the best 😄

BigGyro09

Date posted: 4y

I too feel guilt with my mistakes, but it's at the very least making me change the things I wanna do. I'm choosing to live my life when abstinence at the moment, which is not having anything to do with sexual activity, especially with people. I remember trying it one last time with a friend and even though she didn't feel bad about it and was okay with it I ended up feeling guilty and it threw me back to my past even I did those things a lot back in my teenage years. Back then I didn't understand the consequences just like you didn't! And that's okay. This is how we learn things, this is how we get better in life, this is what it takes to make changes for ourselves. Just talking about it makes me feel better honestly

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

I didn't understand the consequences and I feel terrible for it. I wish I could just go back and change what I did and smack myself and to let me know that it's wrong. But change can be scary and a good thing. Forgiving myself is really hard. I don't know if I ever can but maybe I should try to at least. I'm 21 and still a virgin so I get what you mean. But I definitely learned from my mistakes and I know that I will never be the girl I once was. Talking about it does help. I wish you all the best 😊

BigGyro09

Date posted: 4y

@Staystrong❤ Yeah I get these exact same thoughts too. I wish I could go back in time and prevent the thoughts from even happening honestly. But they did happen and all I want is for them to never happen again. To be honest I'm scared of taking part in sexual behavior now. I'm 19 and never did it or even had a true relationship but when I was younger I viewed it much differently back then and it's all I could ever be hooked on. Sometimes I hate myself for that but I didn't know better at the time, even though some would say I should have. Idk.. What I do know is that I learned from my mistakes and I don't want to do what I did in the past again. I wish you nothing but the best too!!

J🧸

Date posted: 23w

Please help.

I’ve posted something vulnerable here before and I’m trying to ride out the wave of reassurance where it’s getting at me and I’m scared of sitting still with nobody to talk to about this at the moment I genuinely think it would be easier if I wasn’t around. I view my friends as pure compared to me and I’m the most impurest. I feel like this would do a favour to stop being here I don’t know what to do, I really don’t know. I’m literally alone in this and I’m getting tired. How do you deal with stupid choices that you made as a child? I’m trying to be understanding of past mistakes but it’s gut wrenching to try and accept to say and admit you did it knowing you’ll spend the rest of your life with that guilt..is there another perspective to this..???

Tulip1234

Date posted: 21w

Lost

Last night when I was laying in bed, I was just thinking about my religion. I’m a Christian and for some reason, I said a bad word in my mind about God I’m not gonna type the word on here. I can barely even say it. I just don’t understand why I thought that And I prayed for forgiveness sometimes I feel guilty. Sometimes I don’t. I don’t understand why I said that I know it’s not true. I know I don’t mean it, but what if I did what if God is going to punish me now for that thought I know we’re human and we make mistakes but I just can’t forgive myself for this. I haven’t been able to think about anything else. I’ve been miserable since this happened. I’m just so done and I don’t know what else I can do.

Mitu_001

Date posted: 19w

I cant move on

TW: Trauma , ab*se( I dont want to trigger anyone,I hope I won't) I just cant move on from a horrible mistake.When I was 16 a kid told me another kid hurt them.It was very bad.It was an abuse..and I didnt do anything.And honestly I am scared, Idk what to do right now.I want to apologise because I didnt help them..to apologise to their parents, tell them, but I am scared they will blame me( ik,I am a foul) .I am ashamed because I am scared.I could have helped the kid and I didnt.And the fact that the kid trusted me and I didnt help them is killing me.I am so sorry.I want to apologise , do something now,but it might be too late and I dont want to trigger or scare the kid.And since then I got the same ,horrible , repetitive thoughts when I see the kid: what happened, how I didn't help, how terrible it must been, especially because they trusted me.I cant stop these thoughts.Is a cycle.I am thinking that I am complice because I didn't help and that I am a criminal and should be punished.I will go to a therapist soon and Idk how to start telling them about these thoughts.I wish I can go back in time...

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