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I’m sorry you’re dealing with this right now. I’m a Christian too. I know guilt can be a hard thing to get through. But as hard as it can be, if you’ve repented and asked God to forgive you then you’re forgiven and washed clean. It may be hard to overcome feeling guilty but you can take heart that you’ve been forgiven❤️
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I have repented but the guilt and mistake I have made makes me feel like the worst person in the world because I've changed and I would never be the same. Thank you 😊
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@Staystrong❤ You’re welcome❤️. Remember you didn’t understand at the time how bad it was and like you said you’ve changed since then.
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@Catlady Yes. I would never do it again knowing what I know now. I was young and uneducated about it I guess. I hope I'm not just making excuses but I know I have changed for the better
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Thank you so much 😊
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I’m struggling with the same thing. I’m a Christian as well and this is so hard. I wish I had advice for you.
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Just knowing I'm not alone helps. Praying for you. We can get through this 😊
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I remember getting this so bad when I was younger. I didnt even know I had ocd so it made it worse. I would have a compulsion of telling my mom everything as awkward as it was. I felt that unless I told her I would keep feeling guilt when really its God that forgives u. I found that I usually went through guilt trips during school breaks too. Then it would go away. I havent had those guilt trips in a while. I think it's the ocd not letting us let go or making us overreact lol.
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Yeah I think that's what it is too. I haven't been diagnosed yet but I'm 99.9 percent sure that's what's going on with me and it's very scary not knowing what's real and what isn't. I have that problem too where if I don't confess every little thing I've done it messes me up. But both of my parents told me to let it all go but it still eats me up inside. I know God forgives me I've repented my sins and mistakes time and time again but forgiving myself is so hard because I don't feel like I deserve forgiveness. It's a tough battle I just hope I can get through it. God bless and I wish you all the best 😄
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I too feel guilt with my mistakes, but it's at the very least making me change the things I wanna do. I'm choosing to live my life when abstinence at the moment, which is not having anything to do with sexual activity, especially with people. I remember trying it one last time with a friend and even though she didn't feel bad about it and was okay with it I ended up feeling guilty and it threw me back to my past even I did those things a lot back in my teenage years. Back then I didn't understand the consequences just like you didn't! And that's okay. This is how we learn things, this is how we get better in life, this is what it takes to make changes for ourselves. Just talking about it makes me feel better honestly
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I didn't understand the consequences and I feel terrible for it. I wish I could just go back and change what I did and smack myself and to let me know that it's wrong. But change can be scary and a good thing. Forgiving myself is really hard. I don't know if I ever can but maybe I should try to at least. I'm 21 and still a virgin so I get what you mean. But I definitely learned from my mistakes and I know that I will never be the girl I once was. Talking about it does help. I wish you all the best 😊
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@Staystrong❤ Yeah I get these exact same thoughts too. I wish I could go back in time and prevent the thoughts from even happening honestly. But they did happen and all I want is for them to never happen again. To be honest I'm scared of taking part in sexual behavior now. I'm 19 and never did it or even had a true relationship but when I was younger I viewed it much differently back then and it's all I could ever be hooked on. Sometimes I hate myself for that but I didn't know better at the time, even though some would say I should have. Idk.. What I do know is that I learned from my mistakes and I don't want to do what I did in the past again. I wish you nothing but the best too!!
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Hi everyone, I’m new here, and I wanted to share my experience. I’ve been struggling for over a year now on obsessing over a mistake. And the rumination of the mistake I made has been overwhelming and exhausting in those two years. I feel like such a horrible person. At the time, I didn’t realize what I was doing would affect me so much. When I realized it was wrong, I just said I’ll never do it again, and I moved on. But then months later, I was reminded of what I did, and I felt like I did the worst thing in the world, and that my life will never be normal again. And ever since then, it’s been a constant thought. And it’s exhausting. I have been able to open up to my family and a close friend about it and their reactions were so nonchalant compared to what my brain has been telling me. They say it wasn’t even that bad, and that I shouldn’t be beating myself up. I tell them how badly I feel and they just act like it was nothing. I thought that would help, but my brain continues to tell me how horrible of a person I am and I obsess over this one mistake I made two years ago. I’ve learned from it, I’ve moved on, I’ve opened up about it, I’ve gotten reassurance, but yet it still eats at me. It’s constant some days. Where all I wanna do is lay down in a corner and never leave. I feel like my life will never be normal again and I’ll never experience happiness again. Whenever I smile or feel any type of joy my brain tells me to stop and reminds me that I’m a bad person and I don’t deserve to be happy. Even though everyone tells me what I did wasn’t even that bad. And that it doesn’t make me who I am. But guess it’s not enough and I’m really running out of options.
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17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
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I know I shouldn’t and I’m trying not to ask for reassurance but how do I deal with this when I made real event mistakes in childhood? I’ve opened up to my cousin about this who’s an adult and believes that kids can be influenced at a young age and mimic things that they see and friends and my therapist. They all see the good in me and my stupid childhood mistakes but the guilt is very strong and even though I’ve opened up It’s telling me to open up more and more and I don’t know what else it wants from me.
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