Magzzz

Date posted: 4y ago

I did something a long time ago that I didn't realize was so bad at the time until a long time later, one night I was about to go to sleep and I remembered doing that thing. It was something I did willingly but it didn't cross my mind at the time at all that what i was doing was so wrong and I didn't know it was that bad if that makes sense. I feel so terrible the guilt is eating me up. I don't know what to do. I would never ever make that same choice or mistake again but its really upsetting me... I'm a Christian and I try to pray about it I even talked to my parents about it they told me to let it go but why is it so hard to?

Catlady

Date posted: 4y ago

I’m sorry you’re dealing with this right now. I’m a Christian too. I know guilt can be a hard thing to get through. But as hard as it can be, if you’ve repented and asked God to forgive you then you’re forgiven and washed clean. It may be hard to overcome feeling guilty but you can take heart that you’ve been forgiven❤️

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y ago

I have repented but the guilt and mistake I have made makes me feel like the worst person in the world because I've changed and I would never be the same. Thank you 😊

Catlady

Date posted: 4y ago

@Staystrong❤ You’re welcome❤️. Remember you didn’t understand at the time how bad it was and like you said you’ve changed since then.

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y ago

@Catlady Yes. I would never do it again knowing what I know now. I was young and uneducated about it I guess. I hope I'm not just making excuses but I know I have changed for the better

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Date posted: 4y ago

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Magzzz

Date posted: 4y ago

Thank you so much 😊

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

I’m struggling with the same thing. I’m a Christian as well and this is so hard. I wish I had advice for you.

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y ago

Just knowing I'm not alone helps. Praying for you. We can get through this 😊

M H

Date posted: 4y ago

I remember getting this so bad when I was younger. I didnt even know I had ocd so it made it worse. I would have a compulsion of telling my mom everything as awkward as it was. I felt that unless I told her I would keep feeling guilt when really its God that forgives u. I found that I usually went through guilt trips during school breaks too. Then it would go away. I havent had those guilt trips in a while. I think it's the ocd not letting us let go or making us overreact lol.

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y ago

Yeah I think that's what it is too. I haven't been diagnosed yet but I'm 99.9 percent sure that's what's going on with me and it's very scary not knowing what's real and what isn't. I have that problem too where if I don't confess every little thing I've done it messes me up. But both of my parents told me to let it all go but it still eats me up inside. I know God forgives me I've repented my sins and mistakes time and time again but forgiving myself is so hard because I don't feel like I deserve forgiveness. It's a tough battle I just hope I can get through it. God bless and I wish you all the best 😄

BigGyro09

Date posted: 4y ago

I too feel guilt with my mistakes, but it's at the very least making me change the things I wanna do. I'm choosing to live my life when abstinence at the moment, which is not having anything to do with sexual activity, especially with people. I remember trying it one last time with a friend and even though she didn't feel bad about it and was okay with it I ended up feeling guilty and it threw me back to my past even I did those things a lot back in my teenage years. Back then I didn't understand the consequences just like you didn't! And that's okay. This is how we learn things, this is how we get better in life, this is what it takes to make changes for ourselves. Just talking about it makes me feel better honestly

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y ago

I didn't understand the consequences and I feel terrible for it. I wish I could just go back and change what I did and smack myself and to let me know that it's wrong. But change can be scary and a good thing. Forgiving myself is really hard. I don't know if I ever can but maybe I should try to at least. I'm 21 and still a virgin so I get what you mean. But I definitely learned from my mistakes and I know that I will never be the girl I once was. Talking about it does help. I wish you all the best 😊

BigGyro09

Date posted: 4y ago

@Staystrong❤ Yeah I get these exact same thoughts too. I wish I could go back in time and prevent the thoughts from even happening honestly. But they did happen and all I want is for them to never happen again. To be honest I'm scared of taking part in sexual behavior now. I'm 19 and never did it or even had a true relationship but when I was younger I viewed it much differently back then and it's all I could ever be hooked on. Sometimes I hate myself for that but I didn't know better at the time, even though some would say I should have. Idk.. What I do know is that I learned from my mistakes and I don't want to do what I did in the past again. I wish you nothing but the best too!!

Unknown1738

Date posted: 23w ago

Horrible person OCD

I’ve said and done so many hurtful things growing up, especially in elementary and middle school. I was very passive aggressive and mean for a majority of my life, and I’ve hurt peoples feelings. I’m no longer like that now, but every single thing I’ve ever done wrong replays in my head constantly, from the moment I wake up to the second I go to sleep. I know I deserve to feel the chronic guilt and shame, so I feel even more guilty pitying myself. It’s eating me alive, I’m so scared. I know people must hate me, and they have every right to. feel like I don’t deserve to have moments of happiness because I’ve taken that ability away from someone before. I’m not diagnosed, but this has been going on for years and I’m scared to talk to anyone about it because I fear they would look at me differently knowing I’ve hurt someone’s feelings. I feel like a monster. It’s ruining my life and I don’t know what to do.

LizOCD3

Date posted: 16w ago

i made some past mistakes that i obsess over

I have made multiple mistakes in my past that lead me to believe im a bad person. thinking about them often sends me into a panic attack. i cant help but feel i need to be punished. i hate this feeling, what should i do?

Anonymous

Date posted: 12w ago

Still not feeling okay

Last year I used and app to talk about my POCD and people called me a pedo and told me to kill myself. It has been months and I had even forgotten about it, but I talked about my mom yesterday and I feel a sense of doom now. Like, I could have lived my life normally, but this happened. I feel overhelmed, and don't know exactly what to do, cuz when I stop to think about it, it is something awful, but I spend months just not caring, I don't know what to do, it was not even close to the worst thing that has ever happened to me, but it still feels terrible, it keeps echoing in my mind, and It won't go away, and yes I know it is OCD, I just want to let It go. And I lied somethings to my mom cuz if I told the whole truth she would be even more heartbroken (I just didn't say what app it was and I said it was recently, and not months ago) And I feel bad, but now I can't go back, but if I told her the whole truth, she would've just broke down. Basically she thinks it was yesterday and in another app, and I told her I just commented on something. But I feel so bad! I don't want to tell the truth to her, but also, I don't know...

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