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I’m sorry you’re dealing with this right now. I’m a Christian too. I know guilt can be a hard thing to get through. But as hard as it can be, if you’ve repented and asked God to forgive you then you’re forgiven and washed clean. It may be hard to overcome feeling guilty but you can take heart that you’ve been forgiven❤️
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I have repented but the guilt and mistake I have made makes me feel like the worst person in the world because I've changed and I would never be the same. Thank you 😊
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@Staystrong❤ You’re welcome❤️. Remember you didn’t understand at the time how bad it was and like you said you’ve changed since then.
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@Catlady Yes. I would never do it again knowing what I know now. I was young and uneducated about it I guess. I hope I'm not just making excuses but I know I have changed for the better
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Thank you so much 😊
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I’m struggling with the same thing. I’m a Christian as well and this is so hard. I wish I had advice for you.
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Just knowing I'm not alone helps. Praying for you. We can get through this 😊
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I remember getting this so bad when I was younger. I didnt even know I had ocd so it made it worse. I would have a compulsion of telling my mom everything as awkward as it was. I felt that unless I told her I would keep feeling guilt when really its God that forgives u. I found that I usually went through guilt trips during school breaks too. Then it would go away. I havent had those guilt trips in a while. I think it's the ocd not letting us let go or making us overreact lol.
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Yeah I think that's what it is too. I haven't been diagnosed yet but I'm 99.9 percent sure that's what's going on with me and it's very scary not knowing what's real and what isn't. I have that problem too where if I don't confess every little thing I've done it messes me up. But both of my parents told me to let it all go but it still eats me up inside. I know God forgives me I've repented my sins and mistakes time and time again but forgiving myself is so hard because I don't feel like I deserve forgiveness. It's a tough battle I just hope I can get through it. God bless and I wish you all the best 😄
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I too feel guilt with my mistakes, but it's at the very least making me change the things I wanna do. I'm choosing to live my life when abstinence at the moment, which is not having anything to do with sexual activity, especially with people. I remember trying it one last time with a friend and even though she didn't feel bad about it and was okay with it I ended up feeling guilty and it threw me back to my past even I did those things a lot back in my teenage years. Back then I didn't understand the consequences just like you didn't! And that's okay. This is how we learn things, this is how we get better in life, this is what it takes to make changes for ourselves. Just talking about it makes me feel better honestly
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I didn't understand the consequences and I feel terrible for it. I wish I could just go back and change what I did and smack myself and to let me know that it's wrong. But change can be scary and a good thing. Forgiving myself is really hard. I don't know if I ever can but maybe I should try to at least. I'm 21 and still a virgin so I get what you mean. But I definitely learned from my mistakes and I know that I will never be the girl I once was. Talking about it does help. I wish you all the best 😊
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@Staystrong❤ Yeah I get these exact same thoughts too. I wish I could go back in time and prevent the thoughts from even happening honestly. But they did happen and all I want is for them to never happen again. To be honest I'm scared of taking part in sexual behavior now. I'm 19 and never did it or even had a true relationship but when I was younger I viewed it much differently back then and it's all I could ever be hooked on. Sometimes I hate myself for that but I didn't know better at the time, even though some would say I should have. Idk.. What I do know is that I learned from my mistakes and I don't want to do what I did in the past again. I wish you nothing but the best too!!
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When is a mistake too big to forgive. I looked at content that I really shouldn’t have (🌽)but I didn’t understand it was wrong at that time and with no parents supervision online . It happened in my teen like 14/15 and I’m so guilty. What makes it worse is that a small artist did something really similar and got cancelled and called disgusting . It is disgusting but I truly didn’t know how disgusting it is and if did I would’ve never done it . And it was worth cancelling her . But I did too so .
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This might be a bit disturbing but it’s been weighing on my mind. From all the posts I’ve made, I’ve talked about how I was influenced at a young age and saw things I shouldn’t have seen. A lot of it. I can’t remember much because it’s blurry and all muddy and in different timelines. Sometimes I genuinely don’t understand why I would do such a thing or how I could and I would constantly overanalyse things from the past. These things lead me to do things to myself out of trying to understand and curiosity and mimicking actions like kissing others in preschool. I made stupid mistakes I can’t take back and it weighs on me a lot. I don’t and can’t remember so much honestly but when I was at the age of 8, I inappropriately touched someone and it wasn’t out of harm but to understand why. What I did was wrong and the whole context of the situation is messed up but I knew to a certain degree it was wrong ( I spoke to this to my therapist who was very understanding and told me these things happen a lot when kids are young ) I remember at the time I felt guilt and realised I wanted to be a good person. I thought I was dammed for what I did and there was no coming back for me but I remember apologising to them and never doing it again. I had to keep this with me for so many years and it broke me a lot. I matured and realised my actions, spent time crying, thinking that maybe I shouldn’t be here, and was filled with a lot of shame and guilt with nobody to be there or know about this. I didn’t tell anyone because I was scared. I was scared to also be badly punished but eventually as time passed, the person passed away and nobody knew about the story. This year I began opening up and for the first time I opened up to people about this because I wasn’t doing good mentally and spent days—months ruminating, panicking, and thinking I was a monster for everything. I never thought I would but it was with people I trust who loved and accepted me. I told them the situation and how I felt. I told my therapist briefly and she told me we could continue this convo the next time and that I didn’t have to tell her everything but… It didn’t make sense to me. I felt like I needed to confess everything or else I was a fraud. I do definitely care about their justice ( justice overall ) for what happened to them regardless of them not being here and I’m beyond sorry that something like this happened to them because of my stupidity when I was younger. I try my best to be understanding and compassionate to myself but sometimes it’s all filled with hatred and shame and guilt but I’m trying. People say confessing makes things worst. I feel like this is something that needs to be confessed but Ive already admitted my actions, regrets and told others about this but yet it’s still there . I’m not an angel but I do know, these stupid past mistakes have made me more empathetic to people and not wanting things like this to happen to anyone. As I’ve grown I’ve realised how these things can distort your view of reality at a young age because now as I’m older, I understand so much more than my younger self would. Sometimes I don’t know what to say. I don’t know why I did certain things and people at my age were probably more matured and smarter than me. A lot of things happen in different timelines but I’ve matured so much and I understand my mistakes and the impact. I feel safe to talk about this to my therapist or here but to my family and others.. I don’t know what to say. I’ve made so many stupid mistakes and feel like I need to confess everything. I didn’t want to ever talk about this to anyone because I didn’t want to make things worst for people. This happened so many years back and I just didn’t want to bring the past into the present. I know that I have no right to really suggest this because that person was a victim. I don’t know what I should do. Confess? Or let it be in the past? I mean my therapist and close friends know about this.
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I’ve posted something vulnerable here before and I’m trying to ride out the wave of reassurance where it’s getting at me and I’m scared of sitting still with nobody to talk to about this at the moment I genuinely think it would be easier if I wasn’t around. I view my friends as pure compared to me and I’m the most impurest. I feel like this would do a favour to stop being here I don’t know what to do, I really don’t know. I’m literally alone in this and I’m getting tired. How do you deal with stupid choices that you made as a child? I’m trying to be understanding of past mistakes but it’s gut wrenching to try and accept to say and admit you did it knowing you’ll spend the rest of your life with that guilt..is there another perspective to this..???
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