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It was just anxiety about the post girl! that is why you had a bad feeling in your stomach. this is how ERP works, just next time try not to analyze your feelings :) it will only give the ocd more power to ruminate on your thoughts. If you were attracted to said person, you would know and not have to check and be super anxious about it. Just like when I see Chris hemsworth I know I’m attracted to him Hahah i don’t have to check ? even tho I’m happily married and would never do anything about it anyway so checking wouldn’t do any good to start with!
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Sometimes something similar happens to me. I find something nice and light hearted and my thought process comes up with ways of ruining the moment by either ruining the thing or questioning how I even reacted to it. It's in some way self sabotage, bc makes it hard to enjoy things. It's not you, it's your thought process trying to trying to find things wrong in completely normal scenarios over anxiety. It's like your subconcious is waiting to jump at any moment to try and associate things,but the thing is this associations are completely irrational and unbased if you think of them objectively. Physical signs also, are supet relative bc the mind controls it and the same symptom can be related to varios types of emotions. You're doing the right thing by not letting it take over. You know who you are. ♡ Those are just wild owner-less thoughts going through your head, alongside many others. Do you recommend Gilmore Girls? I have heard a little bit of it!
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Thank you for your replies guys, I always appreciate comments on my posts because they help a lot. And @Baba, yes I love Gilmore Girls! I started watching it a couple months ago and I am on the last season now. It's a very funny and wholesome show in my opinion and I would definitely recommend it!
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Also @hales the thing about "you would know if you were attracted" is I always overthink and go well maybe I am attracted and I get anxious because I know that's wrong or something, you know? I always find a way to twist it around unfortunately
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- 6y
That happens to me too
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Sorry girl. I’ve thought that too before :( it’s just the ocd
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- 24w
I’ve been dealing with a lot of anxiety and uncertainty I think I’m really struggling right now. I was in my alone time (self pleasure) and obviously like whenever you’re doing your thing you might have fantasies or whatever and that’s what came into my mind in the moment and then all of a sudden I get a flashback from a scene from pretty little liars came into my mind where Emily kisses Ali on the neck. In pilot actor who played Allison was 12 years old, which the pilot was the first episode I believe but in the rest of the season of season one she was 13 and that flashback was in season one as well after the pilot and I’m really worried that I might have self pleasure to myself to that scene even though I knew all this time that she was 13 in that scene and I don’t feel comfortable because I’m 16 and even though like it’s not too much of an age gap it’s still polished me and I’m scared to death right now, but I didn’t panic immediately because I think I somewhat kinda knew in the moment that I probably didn’t do anything bad but I am not 100% sure and then the more I thought about it, I started to panic even more and now I’m panicking even more now and I feel like a really big pedo, and I keep searching and googling and trying to check for her age to see how old she was in that scene and I’m pretty sure she was 13 but I promise I wasn’t intentionally thinking oh yeah I’m gonna self pressure myself to this scene regardlessof her age. No, I’m just afraid I probably did without even like realizing or registering the thought in my mind, but then at the same time I kind of feel like maybe I was just coexisting with a thought and now I’m scared I’m really scared guys.
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- 21w
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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- 16w
I have no idea anymore. I guess this all started with me worrying about whether I was gay, then whether I was a P, then worried about being just attracted to teenagers. After that I started freaking out about not feeling “grown up” enough. Like “I’m an adult wtf is wrong with me for seeing someone who is probably younger and thinking they’re physically attractive. Then I started overthinking not finding older adults (like 30 or 40) very attractive. Like ofc I’m probably not gonna find them attractive, they’re not anywhere close my age. Maybe the desires are half real. Maybe as a 21 yr old young adult I do find older teenagers (16+) somewhat physically attractive. I still think it’d be weird to date one. Maybe that’s the normal reaction I’m supposed to have. If not, please let me know. I just don’t wanna do anything illegal one day and I’m super scared I will. I can’t tell if the fear is my just being afraid of the law though, in which case I might actually just be a bad person. I hate that my brain is just rationalizing thoughts now. I feel like I can’t do the ERP thing of “just accept that the thoughts are there but don’t engage.” Like what? How can I just think a thought that might be so integral to my identity and just ignore it? If it’s all true and I don’t like people my age anymore then I have to know and plan around that, that could change my entire life. I’m rambling, my b.
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