Saw a post on tumblr this morning about a 15 year old boy helping a little girl learn how to skateboard, and my initial reaction was "awww, that's so sweet" but then I got a weird feeling in my stomach and wondered "do you think that the 15 year old boy is attractive for being kind to the little girl?" (Don't ask me how that even makes sense idk) And I know it's probably because I'm worried about being attracted to anybody teenaged or younger but I can't help but analyze my feelings. Like was my weird feeling in my stomach unease? Arousal? I have no idea. I'm uncomfortable now but trying to focus on breathing and watching gilmore girls

It was just anxiety about the post girl! that is why you had a bad feeling in your stomach. this is how ERP works, just next time try not to analyze your feelings :) it will only give the ocd more power to ruminate on your thoughts. If you were attracted to said person, you would know and not have to check and be super anxious about it. Just like when I see Chris hemsworth I know I’m attracted to him Hahah i don’t have to check ? even tho I’m happily married and would never do anything about it anyway so checking wouldn’t do any good to start with!

Sometimes something similar happens to me. I find something nice and light hearted and my thought process comes up with ways of ruining the moment by either ruining the thing or questioning how I even reacted to it. It's in some way self sabotage, bc makes it hard to enjoy things. It's not you, it's your thought process trying to trying to find things wrong in completely normal scenarios over anxiety. It's like your subconcious is waiting to jump at any moment to try and associate things,but the thing is this associations are completely irrational and unbased if you think of them objectively. Physical signs also, are supet relative bc the mind controls it and the same symptom can be related to varios types of emotions. You're doing the right thing by not letting it take over. You know who you are. ♡ Those are just wild owner-less thoughts going through your head, alongside many others. Do you recommend Gilmore Girls? I have heard a little bit of it!

Thank you for your replies guys, I always appreciate comments on my posts because they help a lot. And @Baba, yes I love Gilmore Girls! I started watching it a couple months ago and I am on the last season now. It's a very funny and wholesome show in my opinion and I would definitely recommend it!

Also @hales the thing about "you would know if you were attracted" is I always overthink and go well maybe I am attracted and I get anxious because I know that's wrong or something, you know? I always find a way to twist it around unfortunately

That happens to me too

Sorry girl. I’ve thought that too before :( it’s just the ocd