Seeing a psychiatrist for the first time on the 30th and now that it's getting closer to the day the more nervous I am. I 100% want help. I need help. I feel like my mind has pulled me back from so much in my life whether it's being around my family, friends and just getting the motivation to do anything I love to do because I feel like I don't deserve love or happiness. My parents know everything that's going on with me thanks to the constant reassurance I need to get by which now turned into regret because I hate that I brought them into this when they don't even believe I could possibly have OCD. I would much rather it be all in my head rather than mean something about me or be real. I don't want it to be real. I'm afraid all the time of my thoughts and feelings I feel like I'm going to take it out on myself because I really do hate myself so much. And it's funny because if it was anyone else in the world I would do whatever it took for them to know how much they matter and that it's not their fault but I can't help but feel like it's all my fault. That I did this to myself. I've struggled with depression and anxiety for a long time I just want my life back. I want to be properly diagnosed but I'm probably going to hold back some details until I know for sure the psychiatrist is understanding of ocd and the symptoms of every version of it. My heart goes out to any struggling this time of year or even this year at all. Let's go into 2021 with much positivity and love. Let's get through this together 🙏🏻

GregJ

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

You are so strong for battling OCD and reaching out for help. I remember when I first started going to a psychiatrist. I would recommend not holding anything back. The more info they give you the better they can tailor a treatment plan for you. A psychiatrist should definitely understand OCD. Also remember if the first medication does not work there are more. It took me a few times to find one that works for me. Good luck! I’ll pray for you!

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

I will keep that in mind. Thank you so so much 🙏🏻

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Thank you very much I appreciate it

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Disclaimer:I have never tried to hurt myself but I have had thoughts but I would not hurt myself. It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Stay safe 💚

Kyle

Date posted: 4y

Hi there! I was so scared to go to my first appointment discussing my OCD. I kept it secret for so long I didn’t know how to explain it. When looking for a provider - make sure they specialize in OCD. I know meds can help some people - but ERP therapy is the gold standard form of treatment for OCD. It is the most effective treatment and most proven way to get better. I know many people will combine medication and therapy. But seeing an ERP specialist is the most important thing when overcoming your OCD. Also - here is a link for questions to ask when finding the right provider for you. https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/how-to-find-the-right-therapist/

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