Pocd Am I just a weird sicko or does anyone else get an unwanted thought every.single.time they see a kid even in the street, Facebook etc. feels like it will never change :(

I know I always feel like deep down, I’m some kind of weird sicko. And the worst part is I believe it. I just wish I could look and a kid and see a kid and move on. I hate OCD

i know it doesn’t make sense. but i feel like we just get so caught up into our heads. and we overthink things so much. it scares us. just remember you unwanted thoughts are not real and they dont define you. ocd is a pain in the ass. remember to breathe and to meditate

I feel you @isai. It’s always perplexing to me that the brain goes so haywire. @carrot a vulnerable self theme means areas where a person’s sense of self or identity can more easily be damaged or undermined. It’s not uncommon for pretty much every OCD sufferer to have had some dichotomous experiences in childhood, be it abuse, bullying, inconsistent parenting. Stuff that creates a conflict in your fundamental environments. This conflict becomes internalised and leads to a vulnerable self theme in key domains (sexuality, morality, scrupulosity). Doesn’t mean they have or do change, but you as a person or vulnerable to being influenced by others, or your own inner critic so to speak. We know there is no conflict but we feel one. And that often originated in childhood. So the increased need for control provides comfort even if it’s small magical beliefs. But an unstable environment means this childlike thinking hangs around more than it should, and it grows like the psychological cancer that it is. Until you hit life stressors like leaving home, starting college, your first job, major relationship breakup. Then the ‘ocd’ takes it’s mask off

I'm struggling from the same. Honestly though it's extremely debilitating.. all I guess is it's HOW you respond. With this theme it's controversial. The right kind of CBT is needed

No. Your brain is just very aware. I’m getting there now and I’m bringing the pictures on. I’m fucking sick to death of being bullied! Problem for now is this latest bout has made me anxious during sex so struggle for ages to get a proper hard on even if I either let or even encourage the paedophilic imagery to be there. You gotta do the same. You’ll never find yourself again until you turn on the dragon and find you for yourself-not from constant reassurance gathering here on this app. I’m gonna use it once a day and wean myself off. I need to believe in myself, based on absolutely no one else’s input.

Never forget that at the heart of OCD is a vulnerable self theme in key domains. That is what needs to be challenged. And the work needs to be done to meet that challenge.

What's a vulnerable self theme

I totally get this, while my medication has been helping and I feel better I still can feel spikes with certain things and it’s not always but sometimes when I see pictures of kids I’ll spike and sometimes I won’t but I realized I can’t let this hold me back. It’s been really hard to be intimate with my boyfriend but I’ve pushed through recently a few times because I refuse to let it ruin my intimacy. It makes it hard for me to enjoy things but I’m trying, I try to focus on him and the moment. It’s also like it’s become like anything sexually. Like even adults being sexual triggers me? I’m just like what the hell there’s nothing wrong with THIS I think my brain just gets scared and wants to avoid anything sexual now.