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I'd say just enjoy it! But you can also make a memo for your future outbursts, and say that it will pass and you will feel normal like you feel right now again eventually. Or write down rules to remember, skills to use, things like that, so when you feel bad next time you can trust in something you wrote with a clear mind.
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I love this! I will definitely write some inspiring messages for myself to reflect on. Preemptive planning for my future self! Thanks for the suggestion!
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I haven’t had any symptoms for awhile. I wish I would’ve started this earlier, but I’m taking a lot of time to work on my relationship with myself instead of focusing on relationships with others. I do yoga every single day, bike for 30 minutes, meditate, take baths if I’m feeling it, and I’ve gotten myself on a strict bedtime of 10 pm on weeknights so that I can get 8 hours. I think sleep has been the most significant help because not having enough sleep makes yoga, meditation, working out, and eating healthy harder. I didn’t realize that doing all of this would be so helpful until I did it. It makes me feel much more at peace with the possibility of symptoms coming back because I remember just to shift my focus to my breath and it helps me remember my thoughts are just thoughts.
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I'm so happy to hear you have been free of symptoms for some time! I spend so much time focusing on my relationships with others when I'm in the thick of it (ROCD is one of my main themes) that these methods of self love you're describing don't even cross my mind. I have tried all of these activities to varying success over the past year but haven't stuck with them. Establishing a healthy routine like you are suggesting would help ensure I can stick with my self love even when I feel consumed by ruminations. Thank you so much for the suggestions!
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This is very common with many OCD themes. I heard someone compare it to a wash cycle in a washing machine, you’re down for a while and really in the depths of it, and then you fly upwards and it’s like your heads above water and everything’s clear and then BOOM, you’re back down under. These may feel great, but it’s important to remember that you’re not tackling the issue at hand... you’re just letting the cycle perpetuate. Try and get hold of an ERP therapist, or if that’s definitely not an option - trying the self-administer option on this app after doing research on ERP is your gateway to recovery. Sending you my best wishes!
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I have heard that analogy as well, it perfectly describes the cycle of OCD. I did 3 sessions with a therapy through NOCD, and on the 3rd session my therapist informed me she would no longer be working with NOCD. I was in-between wash cycles at the time and feeling pretty good about my progress so I chose to take what I had learned from her and proceed without further sessions with a new therapist. I have since been laid off due to COVID and having complications with my unemployment so money is very tight. Once I have income again I plan to start with another therapist and do some exposures. It feels great now to have this clarity and surety of self but I know all too well how temporary it can be. In the meantime I will look into the self administer option through the app. Thank you for your words and keeping me on track!
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Best wishes to you as well!
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@DreamEvolution I’m sorry you’ve been messed around so much... I really hope the money situation improves! Having to break the bank to escape what’s going on inside your head is definitely... something. If you do enough research on ERP and are aware of the risks that you’re facing, self-administration can be equally as beneficial as working with a therapist, and plus you have had the initial ground-work set. Knowing that your time between ‘wash cycles’ (lol) is finite can be pretty crushing. The wash cycle doesn’t have to be a way of existing, you can escape it with ample amount of ERP, this has been proven by many recoverers. You don’t have to live your life waiting for the next punch in the stomach! Sending you my best, best wishes! I hope you beat this beast soon!
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@Ellie (Just realised I said best wishes twice... the more the better I guess lol 🤷🏻♀️)
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@Ellie I really appreciate it! My girlfriend is working so we have some stability in income. I did quite a lot of research into ERP before signing up for my first sessions with NOCD. I have also read some of the book Brain Lock as suggested by my therapist and written extensive notes from the parts that I have read so by this stage I'd say I have a solid grasp of OCD, how it works, and what needs to be done to combat it. Yet while all this info is great it does me little good when I'm in the throes of another wash cycle. That's why utilizing this time of clarity for more than just enjoyment seems so important! I love you analogy of waiting for the next punch in the stomach. Thank you again for pointing me towards recovery from this point of understanding I find myself at. It's nice to be aware of the cycles of OCD and how it affects me. It would be even more nice to eventually beat this thing! There can never be too many best wishes! Best, best wishes to you on your journey! And more best wishes to everyone out there struggling who stumbled upon this thread!
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- 18w
I’ve been stuck in this cycle for the last month or two and am not sure how to get out of it. Basically, I will work on ignoring the thoughts and not responding or engaging plus limiting/completely eliminating compulsions. After a week or two of constant work, the amount of intrusive thoughts in a day goes down. The anxiety each thought causes also goes down with some, but not all, thoughts passing without notice like they would for a normal person. The thoughts that do stick cause anxiety and make me want to ruminate or do other compulsions but I make sure to limit them. After a bit, I’m in a pretty good head space. This is usually when it goes down hill. I’ll start to question if I even have ocd because some of the thoughts (once again not all) pass without notice. The difficulty resisting compulsions goes down and so does the anxiety, only increasing the questioning. I spend a while questioning if I’ve ever had ocd in the first place and then something sets me off or the questioning itself becomes a trigger and I get stuck back into the same ocd cycle with constant rumination, anxiety, and other compulsions. This lasts for a week or two before I know I need to stop and try and work hard to get back to ignoring the thoughts. And the cycle just restarts over and over again. Does anyone have any tips to stop this from happening? It’s really harming my recovery as every few weeks I dive back into the same negative place I was.
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Hey everyone, just wanted to post an honest update on where I’m at in my HOCD recovery. Right now, I'm stuck in what feels like a 24/7 spike — nonstop thoughts, intrusive sensations, identity doubts, and hyperfocus. The worst part? It feels real. Like I’ve “lost,” like I’ve accepted it, like I am gay. The thoughts don't feel like anxiety anymore — they feel like truth. I’ve been trying to do ERP, but the spike has been so constant I don’t even have to “do exposures” — the thoughts, feelings, and sensations are just there all day long. It’s like living inside an exposure. And it’s exhausting. BUT — here’s what I’ve been doing (and what I’m sticking to now): I say once: “These thoughts and feelings are welcome to stay for as long as they want.” I let the doubt, the feelings, the hyperfocus exist. I don’t check, test, or analyze — even when it screams at me. I live my life anyway — folding clothes, watching TV, eating, walking — with the storm in my head. Even when it feels 100% real. Even when I’m fully focused on it. I’ve stopped trying to feel better. I’m letting it all burn — and just not fixing it. It doesn’t feel good. It doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t feel like progress.
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(Long read) hello everyone. i was out of the country for about 3-4 months and traveling. my ocd was not that bad at all and I was able to handle it even if it came up. on my way back home, it immediately started. i have learned how to handle it better, but i am more sad and just “awaiting” for something bad to happen. for example, i have sexual themed ocd. pocd and family related stuff, and also my ocd targeted my pets for about a year and it manifested into compulsions that disturbed me and made me not want to be around my cats. now that i am around my cats, i feel like “what if i harm them or do something bad?” or “what if you do those weird compulsions that happened before?” , when i look back on the compulsions that happened, it doesn’t feel like me and it was clearly driven by ocd, but it makes me worry i am just a sick person. i know myself and i know im not, but i had such a weird childhood and then ocd from 15 years old and up. so when these weird compulsions had happened , whether it was for the pet ocd theme or pocd or the family ocd, it feels like some sort of proof. anyways, i feel a bit for content with myself but i know how real ocd can feel and i just remember feeling so hopeless and suici da l, i just don’t want to go through that again. i take a more spiritual route of life and healing, and i wonder if anyone has some deep spiritual warmups or practices i could do to maybe open up my mind more? maybe to realize this is all in the mind? but also to not fight it… Not fight it meaning not let it take over my life. i racked up so much debt in therapy and i truly think i can get through this alone i just need a bit of help. but i dunno. any advice would help! thanks everyone ☀️
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