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- 6y
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- 6y
Yes oh my god I thought I was the only one... I can't do anything without feeling like I'm being watched. Can't even get up at night to go to the bathroom without thinking about some insane scenario where someone snuck into my room while I was gone for like a minute. I have to have a night light on and have to check under my bed and in the closet almost every night to make sure I'm safe (in my mind). It's a constant struggle especially with going out and being around other people, especially men as you said. With all the news and media spreading these violent and sick stories you can't help but think that you'll be next :/ I'm always worried about being assaulted or kidnapped etc and it affects my trust in other people and who I'm surrounded by. I feel crazy, that there's no way to prevent it happening to me at least once in life since it seems so common.
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- 6y
my body is constantly tense and on edge and i’m always exhausted from it tired i wish i could make it stop but nothing ever makes it go away i can never get rid of the feeling. i never go out at night or try to go anywhere alone and if i do it’s basically like i can’t even enjoy myself or have a nice time bc my mind is racing the entire time w thoughts of like yep this is the time it just is really exhausting and it sucks especially that no one IRL actually can understand this
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- 6y
I faced similar thoughts after a period of harm ocd, these are kind of the flip side of „What-if I hurt others“... quite common for OCD sufferers and to be treated with therapy...my therapist explained me that all OCD thoughts are rubbish and mean nothing but to scare us...face and accept them as OCD thoughts and try not reacting or giving them any meaning. NO matter what the theme is...
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- 6y
yes exactly i am the same way at night especially i am very on edge and panicky and it’s like my mind is constantly flighting with itself like i think of it like one half of my brain is like oh it’s over ur done or whatever other bs it makes up and the other half is like god stop it’s not real yknow? like i feel crazy cause i’m so aware that it’s so insanely unlikely that anything would happen in my own home especially after every night i check over and over again to make sure i’m safe... and i have no idea what caused this but it’s been like this for as long as i can remember every night when go to bed or am alone at home or alone anywhere at night i feel vulnerable especially when i sleep alone and it’s drainibg
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- 6y
yes exactly ohmygid
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- 6y
thank y’all for getting me wow this is nice to know other people do this
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- 6y
Are y’all in treatment?
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- 6y
no! i’m on zoloft but it really only helped with my depression.. have any of you had success with any other meds?
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- Date posted
- 23w
I'm at my college and don't feel like being here. I didn't even want to come here. I woke up with anxiety bc i feel like i need to solve this. I had a bad stomach ache when i arrived to school and still havent even eaten breakfast yet bc i feel like i have to solve this. Im just so worried bc i have harm thoughts daily. If i could i would remove this! I dont want to think anymore. Its just, how do I know i dont have real urges when I'm feeling a negative emotion like anger or disappointment or annoyance? Im worried EVERY time i feel a negative emotion. Yesterday I was playing video games with my neice (we are close in age range) and she made us lose. She started blaming me and I guess i felt a little annoyed, it really wasnt my fault (dumb mini argument it was more playful since we started laughing but it was a bit annoying). Anyway i got a harm thought while feeling annoyed of me getting off the couch and lunging at her to attack. I immediately look at my bodily reaction and I tense up to stay as still as possible. My stomach was hurting and i wanted to leave as fast as possible. I stood up and turned off the game and said i was tired while making sure to stay back from her (and i had my hands away and stiff) but i felt so uneasy. I laid I bed and felt sad and heavy. And i kept getting thoughts that said "íts only a matter of time before you can't take it anymore". I started to reassurance seek using ai to ask if i was about to or if they are real urges or thoughts i mean until i eventually fell asleep in the middle of the compulsion. Im just so worried, what if I act out impulsevly one day? I dont want to! But what if when feeling a negative emotion, i suddenly dont care and do something? I really dont want to! I dont even want to feel negative emotions anymore since they trigger the thoughts and I dont want to think about any of that. As a result i tend to avoid my family as much as possible bc they are annoying sometimes. I just wish i was all alone sometimes so i wont get any more thoughts and so everyone can be safe. I usually just stay in bed under my blankets all day long to avoid my family and pets. I am constantly uncomfortable. I miss when i would never think any of this. Living life has become very scary for me now. 😞
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- 21w
sorry this is super long i just wanna know if anyone else has been thru something similar bc i feel super alone 🩷 i have super bad contamination ocd. it was bad already but my house was like my safe space until a few months ago someone brought something into my house that i considered ‘contaminated’. and so then i felt like that part of the house was contaminated, then it spread to everything outside my room (since family is moving around touching stuff) and then somehow i got convinced everything in my room except my bed is contaminated and i need to wash my hands after touching it. in my mind its like the contamination just infinitely spreads to things after the tiniest bit of touch. idek what im afraid of anymore or even what the original thing was but i can’t let it go. when i have to wash off contamination i have to wash at least 4 times or until it feels right, or sometimes take rlly long showers and wipe down all my stuff. i even throw away food and clothes or just whole items sometimes because they feel so contaminated i don’t want them in my space. i can’t be super near people or have anyone touch me, and i also can’t bring anything new into my room since it had to go through the entry of my house which feels contaminated. i feel like all i do is lay in bed and then wash my hands and do compulsions so i can go eat or do other stuff around the house. also i never go out because i’m bc people outside make me feel dirty, and i hate thinking about how many people have touched stuff in stores or in public and stuff. so im just in my room worrying all day. i feel so trapped and the contamination/avoiding it is all i think about anymore i barely have time for anything else and im never present when i talk to people because im worrying about if i accidentally got contaminated. im starting erp next week and knowing that im going to have to expose myself to things is really freaking me out. does anyone else have this kind of ocd ? im exhaustedddd 🥲🥲💔
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- 20w
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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