What good does God do by screwing up people’s lives?? 🤔 I think I should die because I have ocd. I’m honestly done with it and I’m done being God’s fuckin punching bag.

I’m so done with it. I just want to have a normal life, like most people I know.

@Anonymous There is nothing than can separate us from God's love (Romans 8:38-39) I don't fully understand God's goodness either but I do unerstand that he sent his son to die for me and that He says nothing can separate us from His love. Knowing that nothing can separate me from His love is all I have to hold onto sometimes with OCD. Sin can be forgiven. I don't know what you did but God forgave Paul (who was literally murdering Chrisitians) and He was an awesome disciple for Christ. I too have struggled in my OCD with God thinking Why? Why me? Why now? Why this? But I have come to learn that God did not just zap me with OCD. These things happen because of the fallen world I believe. God wants us to lean on Him in these times. If I didn't have OCD I would have never been able to share my faith with others with OCD and support them in their OCD journeys so in a weird way I am thankful for it. I have also learned to let God take the reigns of my life and the guilt and shame because I have no other choice sometimes. If you have any more questions or want any more verses I'm here, if you just want to rant or explain more about your OCD story, I will listen. You are not alone 🌟

@Anonymous That was amazing what you shared....your a true Christian.

@Anonymous God bless you. I am a believer as well and I remember the first day when everything went down hill. The intrusive thought came in like a swarm of bees and I convinced myself I was hearing voices. If it wasn’t for Gods grace and mercy I wouldn’t have made it that day. Mom my called me out of nowhere and she tell something was wrong. I tried to hide it but my Mom knew something was wrong. God is so good and to this day I still struggle a lot with my mental health but it’s also help me to lean on God.❤️

The truth is I don't need to know what you did. God forgives all sin if we ask and believe in Jesus. We can't earn our way to heaven, Jesus payed for our sins. It may be you did something wrong or it may be your OCD messing with you as well, I don't know, either way God has grace for you: I know that. Also is your therapist trained in OCD? Perhaps you could ask her to do an ERP for this or to help you with these fears

@Anonymous I appreciate it.....I know I am being selfish but I have been battling OCD for a long time and tried my hardest to never cross a boundary but it's like I got complacent and thought I had more control over my OCD and something weird happened......my story isn't like a kid that didn't realize what they were doing......well I didn't realize the possible outcome I was a full adult...I am not even a young adult I am probably one of the older people on here. Maybe I am being proud but when your older there is a difference and I just can't accept what happened and I know I am being proud......I always say the Lords prayer in the morning and I knew I had sexual OCD issues and it was important for me not to act on them....I have been in OCD counseling before and something happened....it was a really awkward thing and I was nervous that I felt something in my groin...I had a coat and a flannel shirt there between me and the cat but something still kind of happened........I actually can see Gods grace for those that were teenagers and younger as it's different in a way if you did something weird when you were young. especially if your under 12....your right you can't earn Gods grace but there is just some things that shouldn't if your fully grown adult...I'm over 35...even older.....Real Event OCD is just brutal.

@Anonymous even though I was complacent I knew I needed medication...my OCD got worse over the pandemic.

@Anonymous I am so sorry you are in so much pain about this. I have experienced real event as well and it is brutal. Sorry I didn't respond sooner I fell asleep and forgot to reply. I don't know exactly what you have done or anything but I do know that God can forgive anyone of anything. I know there can still be shame and guilt with that I have felt it for my own mistakes but He didn't send his son saying he would die for only certain people or certain sins but ALL sins. I definitely would try an OCD therapist especially if you can find a Christian one. I have found my OCD therapist so helpful.

@Anonymous And I am sorry you were denied meds. My OCD got to its worst over the pandemic too and I felt like I was going insane