I am going to carry a pocket knife with me. at this point I don't know I am a pedo or a pocd but I am not going to trust me anymore. I am going to carry a pocket knife so by any chance If I ever had any uncontrollable urge (which I never had), and there was a chance of me harming a child, I would just cut my hand or injure myself so that the urge would be take over by the Pain of the injury

Tbh I wish I could afford a therapist . But If these extreme measures help me to atleast move my day I think It is worth it

@nohope123 It’s not worth it. It’s may make you feel better temporarily but in the long run your making your ocd so much worse.

@nohope123 i promise it won't help. maybe for a second you'll feel safer but it just puts a false narrative in your head that you should protect yourself. you have to sit with the uncertainty that these thoughts bring, that will make them less strong and take their power away

@nohope123 The therapy on this app is affordable and worth it 100%. It only costs me 50 dollars for every 1 hour session and $25 for the 30 minute ones (since I pay out of pocket and not through insurance) If you can afford this please book a call!

@Isabella Ya but this is not available outside us and uk

@nohope123 I’m sorry. Here are some resources for self treatment and symptom management. https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/expert-opinion-self-directed-erp/ https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLRoIPZFFgHFj0Mk-qgDNYMOaDyjuaWP4Z https://youtu.be/7P9kvXIa7-0 I recommend using these techniques to help manage your symptoms. Don’t try any intense exposures before you are able to see a therapist. Hope this helps and good luck!

@Isabella Thankyou somuch I appreciate it

@nohope123 They aren’t actually helping you. They’re actually making your ocd worse over time. They help in the moment, temporarily, while simultaneously reinforcing your obsessions. Check out Beyond Borders CBT, they offer ocd treatment in a lot of countries: https://beyondborderscbt.com/ You can also look into online courses as an alternative: - CBT School: https://www.cbtschool.com/ - OCD and Anxiety Online: https://www.ocdandanxietyonline.com/ And you can get a workbook: - The Mindfulness Workbook for OCD: https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/the-mindfulness-workbook-for-ocd-a-guide-to-overcoming-obsessions-and-compulsions-using-mindfulness-and-cognitive-behavioral-therapy_jon-hershfield/9725959/ - The ACT Workbook for OCD: https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/the-mindfulness-and-acceptance-workbook-for-ocd-integrating-acceptance-and-commitment-therapy-and-exposure-and-response-prevention-to-live-well-with-obsessive-compulsive-disorder_marisa-t-mazza/23000486/

sorry i worded that bad, i didn't mean that you'd agree with your thoughts in the sense that you're a pedophile, but just that you would pay more attention to them which makes them worse in the long run.