Anonymous
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coucou coucou
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hey! so first off, the fact that you're distressed over these thoughts is a clear sign that you would never go through with them/that they aren't your true intentions. everyone gets intrusive thoughts, intrusive thoughts about harm are some of the most common. don't try and "figure out" why you're having these thoughts, because that will lead them to become more frequent and darker. intrusive thoughts don't necessarily mean OCD, they're also very common with anxiety. also just because you have them doesn't mean you have a mental illness, but if the thoughts become deabilitating towards your everyday life (ex: avoiding certain things because of it) then i would suggest seeing a therapist (one that specializes in ocd) :) there's also some great books to buy (brain lock , books on mindfulness) that can help you to understand intrusive thoughts and ocd more! it's just important to remember that you are not your thoughts!!
coucou coucou
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also i'm not sure how old your son is, but post partum ocd / intrusive thoughts are common!
AnonymousAnonymous
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Thank you it has debilitated me for months on end I just started to feel better than it’s got to me today I just randomly get them and they don’t go away until I stopped crying 😣
coucou coucou
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@Anonymous know that you're not alone! so many people deal with this. try to not beat yourself up over the thoughts, we aren't our thoughts and we can't control them! just because we think a thought doesn't mean it's more likely to happen. also, sitting with the anxiety and uncertainty that these thoughts give is the best way for them to eventually get better (they will come again once you get better because everyone gets intrusive thoughts - but once you get them once you've developed a new relationship with them, you'll realize they don't need a reaction and you'll let them just flow. because they're just thoughts).
coucou coucou
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oh also when you don't have anxiety over a thought that means nothing!! that's actually good lol. intrusive thoughts want you to pay attention to them so that you can go down a rabbit hole of "what if these make me a bad person" etc. people without anxiety or ocd that get intrusive thoughts, they don't get anxiety over them but instead just brush them off. the thought isn't what's the problem it's the overreaction to it (ex: thinking you're a bad person for having them, wondering what they mean about you).
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 4y
I don’t get anxiety with it as much or at all most of the time but I constantly wonder why I’m not having anxiety and if I’m gonna act on it and I’m not finding it as disturbing etc feel normal and if I acted on it I wouldn’t feel consequences but I ruminate consequences like prison etc
coucou coucou
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@Anonymous yup that's how ocd or anxiety will trap u in the cycle! the thing is that there's no way to be certain about anything, so there's no reason to ruminate or mental check by thinking "i wouldn't do this" "i'm not a bad person" etc. it's hard but once you notice yourself ruminating or mental checking it's best to stop! :)
coucou coucou
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@coucou and worrying about not getting anxiety is the back door spike! there's tons of articles on it
coucou coucou
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@coucou https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/ (this is an article about ruminating)
coucou coucou
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@coucou http://www.ashleyannestedtlcsw.com/blog/49brp9t86das7a5jjxcg6ewdzg4mtw (an article on the back door spike - being anxious about not being anxious about thoughts)
thesecondwolfthesecondwolf
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- 4y
It is normal imo. OCD has the tendency to make you believe things that aren't real, which results in your body reacting to the belief.
whatadooowhatadooo
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A therapist is soooo important to getting better. Get a therapist. You don't have to explain or justify to anyone why you want a therapist. This is a country to where if you're willing to pay for a service, you'll get it
AnonymousAnonymous
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I live in the UK it’s 12 month wait for therapy
whatadooowhatadooo
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@Anonymous wow that's shitty I'm sorry. Alot of u. s services are virtual right now, maybe you could pay a online therapist from the US?
AnonymousAnonymous
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@whatadooo I got an assessment Wednesday with a therapist from here
Jesse MillerJesse Miller
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- 4y
I get harm thoughts toward myself. It is such a horrible feeling and it feels so real. What you have to remember is that thoughts are not actions. It is scary when they happen and scary that we could feel this sensation to actually want to do something, but it doesn’t mean it is going to happen in real life. I think sometimes “oh I’m not anxious, so it has to mean that it’s real”. But I think our brains play tricks on us to make it feel like it could be real.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 4y
Yes definitely Iv never had any past history of criminal stuff or anything only been since I was put on medication after medication for few months i had them in December and now I come off my meds wanting to do this on my own it’s getting crappy again
Jesse MillerJesse Miller
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 4y
@Anonymous I would speak to your doctor about the meds! Did you go off your meds completely by yourself?
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- 17w
don’t know what’s happening to me
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