Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

Hi I’m Ammiee and I don’t have a diagnosis of OCD but in December randomly started having thoughts of killing my son 😣 then recently it’s been I could stab my neighbours and I’m not feeling any anxiety with the thoughts anymore is that normal? Ones with my son I wouldn’t go around any sharp objects not even the bathroom because of razors etc now I can be led in bed and get the thoughts about my neighbours and get the urge to act the thoughts out but Iv never hurt anyone in my life intentionally HELP please

coucou

Date posted: 4y ago

hey! so first off, the fact that you're distressed over these thoughts is a clear sign that you would never go through with them/that they aren't your true intentions. everyone gets intrusive thoughts, intrusive thoughts about harm are some of the most common. don't try and "figure out" why you're having these thoughts, because that will lead them to become more frequent and darker. intrusive thoughts don't necessarily mean OCD, they're also very common with anxiety. also just because you have them doesn't mean you have a mental illness, but if the thoughts become deabilitating towards your everyday life (ex: avoiding certain things because of it) then i would suggest seeing a therapist (one that specializes in ocd) :) there's also some great books to buy (brain lock , books on mindfulness) that can help you to understand intrusive thoughts and ocd more! it's just important to remember that you are not your thoughts!!

coucou

Date posted: 4y ago

also i'm not sure how old your son is, but post partum ocd / intrusive thoughts are common!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

Thank you it has debilitated me for months on end I just started to feel better than it’s got to me today I just randomly get them and they don’t go away until I stopped crying 😣

coucou

Date posted: 4y ago

@Anonymous know that you're not alone! so many people deal with this. try to not beat yourself up over the thoughts, we aren't our thoughts and we can't control them! just because we think a thought doesn't mean it's more likely to happen. also, sitting with the anxiety and uncertainty that these thoughts give is the best way for them to eventually get better (they will come again once you get better because everyone gets intrusive thoughts - but once you get them once you've developed a new relationship with them, you'll realize they don't need a reaction and you'll let them just flow. because they're just thoughts).

coucou

Date posted: 4y ago

oh also when you don't have anxiety over a thought that means nothing!! that's actually good lol. intrusive thoughts want you to pay attention to them so that you can go down a rabbit hole of "what if these make me a bad person" etc. people without anxiety or ocd that get intrusive thoughts, they don't get anxiety over them but instead just brush them off. the thought isn't what's the problem it's the overreaction to it (ex: thinking you're a bad person for having them, wondering what they mean about you).

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

I don’t get anxiety with it as much or at all most of the time but I constantly wonder why I’m not having anxiety and if I’m gonna act on it and I’m not finding it as disturbing etc feel normal and if I acted on it I wouldn’t feel consequences but I ruminate consequences like prison etc

coucou

Date posted: 4y ago

@Anonymous yup that's how ocd or anxiety will trap u in the cycle! the thing is that there's no way to be certain about anything, so there's no reason to ruminate or mental check by thinking "i wouldn't do this" "i'm not a bad person" etc. it's hard but once you notice yourself ruminating or mental checking it's best to stop! :)

coucou

Date posted: 4y ago

@coucou and worrying about not getting anxiety is the back door spike! there's tons of articles on it

coucou

Date posted: 4y ago

@coucou https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/ (this is an article about ruminating)

coucou

Date posted: 4y ago

@coucou http://www.ashleyannestedtlcsw.com/blog/49brp9t86das7a5jjxcg6ewdzg4mtw (an article on the back door spike - being anxious about not being anxious about thoughts)

thesecondwolf

Date posted: 4y ago

It is normal imo. OCD has the tendency to make you believe things that aren't real, which results in your body reacting to the belief.

whatadooo

Date posted: 4y ago

A therapist is soooo important to getting better. Get a therapist. You don't have to explain or justify to anyone why you want a therapist. This is a country to where if you're willing to pay for a service, you'll get it

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

I live in the UK it’s 12 month wait for therapy

whatadooo

Date posted: 4y ago

@Anonymous wow that's shitty I'm sorry. Alot of u. s services are virtual right now, maybe you could pay a online therapist from the US?

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

@whatadooo I got an assessment Wednesday with a therapist from here

Jesse Miller

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y ago

I get harm thoughts toward myself. It is such a horrible feeling and it feels so real. What you have to remember is that thoughts are not actions. It is scary when they happen and scary that we could feel this sensation to actually want to do something, but it doesn’t mean it is going to happen in real life. I think sometimes “oh I’m not anxious, so it has to mean that it’s real”. But I think our brains play tricks on us to make it feel like it could be real.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

Yes definitely Iv never had any past history of criminal stuff or anything only been since I was put on medication after medication for few months i had them in December and now I come off my meds wanting to do this on my own it’s getting crappy again

Jesse Miller

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y ago

@Anonymous I would speak to your doctor about the meds! Did you go off your meds completely by yourself?

BeeCee87

Date posted: 21w ago

Intrusive thoughts Help.

I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.

Anonymous

Date posted: 11w ago

Questions

There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.

AnonymousAisha

Date posted: 10w ago

Ocd thoughts as a newbie

Hi I am Aisha and I am not sure if I have ocd or not but I struggle with thoughts which I don't even know if they r intrusive or if I am thinking about them and they are usually about my family or friends. This time it was about my mom more specifically a sexual thought about my mom and my mind was thinking that this is what I want and when I was analyzing the thought I wasn't sure about my intention which made me feel really bad

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