artsygirl
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 4y
Grace_McLGrace_McL
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- 4y
I’m completely scared of anything to do with it heck I cringe when I read the word, I understand somewhat. Try to remember it isint an order it is ocd it is an intrusive thought that isn’t true.
HebiHebi
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- 4y
Thank you so much, we got this❤️
Maban Maban
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- 4y
I have been slowly reading articles, just exposing myself and not avoiding it. I’m actually watching a documentary about a writer (who dies by suicide) and I have been trying my best not to do any compulsions! I’m sitting here and sitting through the anxiety. Also, if there is anything that triggers you - knives, belts, pills - just making sure you try and use those things in exposure!
artsygirlartsygirl
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- 4y
When you say reading articles , would this be checking or is this something your therapist told you to do ? Curious about this. It seems like very few people have this and it’s been really hard to deal with.
Grace_McLGrace_McL
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- 4y
Mine is about other peoples mental state if that makes any sort of sense, I think about my friends with severe depression and then I think about knives and how one moment they were ok and then the next they were self harming so now I avoid things like that I won’t watch and I can’t bear to listen to anything my friends talk about that involves it like the other day they were talking about the show 13 reasons why and I started crying.
artsygirlartsygirl
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- 4y
This does make sense although it isn’t what I have. You obviously really love the people you care about. Definitely begin working with a therapist on this so you don’t avoid and let it spiral.
artsygirlartsygirl
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 4y
Also, my therapist said that it doesn’t have to be “what if” statements but they can also come in form of commands too- that’s ocd trying to scare you.
lovelove
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- 4y
I also have suicidal ocd and idk how to approach erp, I was thinking about maybe watching a movie with it in it but I’m too scared. I’m having a hard time coping with the thoughts tn :(
artsygirlartsygirl
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- 4y
I’d definitely work with a therapist. I’m starting extremely small and wrote the word suicide on a notecard and have been carrying it in my pocket. It actually gives me a lot of anxiety. I’m hoping this helps bc this is so very difficult to live with.
kodabear1024kodabear1024
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- 3y
@artsygirl - that was my first step of ERP straight from Dr. Phillipson's office in NYC. TRIGGER: So I did the note card, had the word su;;;;; on it, looked at it 9-12 times daily for a week and then it didn't do much for me, then I moved up the hierarchy ladder, Aaron Harvey's story from Made of Millions and how he wanted to commit sui'''' BECAUSE of his OCD/HARM-O, Until he found out what is actually was. Now I'm on my next stage... which is the hardest of them all.
HebiHebi
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- 4y
I wanted to ask you something...I have suicidal OCD too, I can't afford a therapist, but I know what I have to do in order to be ok. One of my triggers was to pronounce or to hear the word: "suicide" (idk if any of you can relate), I feel like if I say the word itself I will definitely kill myself (like, in an obligatory way, where I can't chose whether to act or not, since, it is an "order"), If I only hear it then I feel like having an urge to kill myself (but not in an obligatory way). So you can imagine what my ERP would probably be, to pronounce the word "suicide" and to listen many time the word itself, and I decided to act on, on my own. I was out of my balcony and I was talking with a friend of mine of depression, suicidal ideation and so on, and when I was about to pronounce the word "suicide" i felt a lot of anxiety, but I decided to ignore it, and to pronounce it the same, but as I did I got so triggerd, that my OCD would change form: instead of coming at me as a question "what if?" As always, now it would come at me as an order, and that's order is to kill myself. OCD took my trigger as a form to come with. Idk what to do, could you possibly help me by giving some advice? Thank you
artsygirlartsygirl
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- 4y
Ambra, I absolutely understand what you are going through. My suicidal ocd used to say “why don’t you kill yourself” but lately has morphed into “kill yourself.” I was so upset and the anxiety was causing such distress. I decided I HAD to do something even small to help because it was making me so depressed I thought this may get to the point that I want to do something. So, I wrote the word suicide on a notecard and it’s in my pocket. It gives me a lot of anxiety but sometimes I forget it’s there. It’s a beginning exposure you can do with almost any word.
HebiHebi
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- 4y
@artsygirl Thank you so much for your precious help, really appreciated ❤️
kodabear1024kodabear1024
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- 3y
@artsygirl - "I decided I HAD to do something even small to help because it was making me so depressed I thought this may get to the point that I want to do something." < so that was a great trigger.
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