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There’s a difference between struggling with uncertainty all of your life and having a sudden influx of intrusive thoughts. I’m a lesbian and although I dealt with uncertainty/anxiety about my sexuality, it wasn’t because I wasn’t sure if I was gay or not. I knew from a very early age. Just like most gay people do. Accept the fact that you may be a lesbian in the future. Allow yourself to feel all the bad things that come with that and then go on with your day. The thoughts will be less scary after you let them be there without resistance
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Thank you for sharing this was super insightful
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You’re not alone! It was triggering, just because I have soo much anxiety about lying to my boyfriend and not knowing and sometimes feeling like I am a lesbian because of all the thoughts! Even when he said he knew something was different, ocd said “you did too! That’s why you never wanted anyone to think you were a lesbian because you got aroused by lesbian sex via porn and so on” but I decided not to go further into figuring it out and living with the uncertainty! Try not to compare, it’s a tricky compulsion that we all fall into sometimes!
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@Ope Omg same!
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This was so triggering for me! I wanted to look up his story to find differences from mine and provide reassurance by comparing. I pretty much did neither! But my heart is still in my throat haha. I’m going to look at this news, say “that’s a possibility “ and make myself a good meal haha
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That’s perfect!
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good job!!! Unintentional erp !
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I literally came on here looking to see if anyone else was triggered by this cos it made me so scared. We must not look for reassurance and how he ‘knew something was different when he was six’ as that is a compulsion, finding differences between that and yourself as reassurance. I’m struggling with it but you have to think yeah this happens, it could happen to me, it also could not and try and leave it. Easier said than done, trust me I know.
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Exactly!!
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yes, exactly! ty
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I was so triggered by this today as well! I ended up feeling so anxious that I used the interview as ERP and watched it several times until my anxiety went down. You are definitely not alone! ❤️
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It got me this morning. First thing I saw when I got on Facebook. Love that journey for him but not for me. Hocd sucks. Because I'll get lost in thoughts and it seems so real but once I snap back to reality I don't want to be with a woman like that at all then I start to freak out. It didn't that with pocd for about a year.
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yep, I feel you 100%. It sucks so much. I’m so sorry 😓 you aren’t alone!!!!
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Thanks!
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i had recently been triggered to have so-ocd. its been on my mind non-stop. (i am a heterosexual female) and my mind has been all over the place questioning if i have been in denial the entire time. ive always had people tell me they sort of got that vibe it it never really affected me until my own mother had her suspicions. so i would constantly get triggered un public around the same gender, while knowing my true sexuality. ive always been attracted to men but as of recently ive been having super bad anxiety to where i cannot eat or sleep and feel weak all the time. it was like that for a week or so. now im in the calm where i have been trying accept the uncertainty but it still isnt fair as im getting triggered. im a little worried because it feels like i have been lying to my parents the entire time although ive never had the desire to be with the same gender. and i keep getting intrusive thoguhts that make me feel anxious and uncomfortable. its all starting to affect my friendships as im constantly getting triggered with the intrusive thoguhts. i feel a little less anxious compared to how i was a couple days ago. im really scared on why im having these thoughts now when i have been having romantic feelings for a guy the past year or so. ive also been struggling with false attraction and loss attraction to men. it makes me feel uncertain of my life the entire time
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Hello everyone, I just wanted to share a part of my journey that I’m struggling with right now. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd and while this is not my first subtype, ROCD and so ocd have definitely been the ones I’ve been struggling with the most. For context I have a boyfriend who I love very much and am terrified of loosing. That’s probably what ocd latched onto. The so-ocd especially is tricky because I’ve come to acknowledge that I am bisexual. Don’t worry I didn’t “discover” this through ocd, I’ve always known and it’s been in the back of my mind way before ocd, I had just never really directly acknowledged it because romantically I just always leaned towards men. The thing my ocd latched onto is “what if you are actually a lesbian and don’t know it yet and will have to leave your partner or are lying to your partner or end up leading him on” The thing is, I don’t have much experience with women except kissing my female best friend once, which didn’t feel special or made me have romantic feelings for her. I’ve always seeked men more actively than women and didn’t feel like I was gonna miss out if I get into a serious relationship with a man before having had more experience. I just know that I can be sexually attracted to women as well. But now that I’m in this beautiful relationship I’m terrified of getting it wrong or having missed something about myself or being scared that I’m actually a lesbian and have been lying to myself all along. I’m not seeking reassurance, just wanting to share and maybe someone else is going through something similar? If so I’d be so grateful to know I’m not alone. I love my boyfriend dearly and i really hope we will work out in the long run.
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Hey guys, this last week has been pretty rough for me mentally for some reason. Today in particular I’m having a pretty bad episode. For some reason about 30 minutes ago, I randomly started remembering watching the Step Up movies growing up. I remember seeing Channing Tatum in that movie and think he’s attractive, along with some other men I think. Then I started to wonder if that means that I’m into men, because I somewhat remember getting a negative feeling about it from that young age. I looked up on Google if it’s possible to not realize your gay, and the ai thing said yes and started talking about something called latent homosexuality. It also so said that some people start sleeping with a particular before ever actually discovering their sexuality. This makes me want to take a panted homosexual test, or something. Lately I’ve also been wanting to dive into my past with my therapist to try to see where my “ocd” stems from (if I even have it) or if I’m truly gay and have just be conditioned to be straight. I’ve been spiralling guys and I need was honesty and wisdom. Can anybody help me ?
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