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- 4y ago
- Date posted
- 4y ago
i relate to this. it’s the worst feeling in the world
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- 4y ago
I can relate, of course. OCD isn't like 'oh yeah I worry but I know that it's not true so ok))' OCD makes you feel like crap bc how realistic it is Try to educate your gf on Awaken Into Love, there are videos for partners. I know she may not feel good but all that crying shows that she doesn't fully understand where your hesitancy is coming from and she's taking it personally, when she shouldn't.
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- 4y ago
How do I convince myself it's OCD, I have such a hard time believing I have it
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- 4y ago
You'll never be convinced because OCD doubts everything. You expect to be like 'now I certainly know this is OCD so I will no longer worry'. But if only people were cured when they got to know their diagnosis.... Sadly no...
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- 4y ago
She doesn't make it easier for you two unfortunately so talk to her. It'll be a lot better if you try to live happily with her without focusing so much attention on OCD. It's hard but you have a lot more moments together which you'll truly enjoy.
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- 4y ago
i used to feel this exact same way, it was painful for the both of us. i felt extremely guilty and she kept trying to understand my situation and how this was all in my head but naturally me doubting my feelings for her and debating breaking up is gonna hurt her. i wpuld go on and on and ask mysel questions to figure out if i actually still loved her or not. i obsessed over it and whenever i thought something like “she’s not even that pretty” “i didn’t get butterflies in my stomach this time” “she called me beautiful and it didn’t feel good” the guilt got to me and was forced to tell her every single time. and i was just hurting her. in the end, i broke up with her bc as hesitant and painful as it was, i knew that truthfully i was clearly way too mentally unstable to be in a relationship. this can be called relationship ocd. do some research on it i’m sure you’ll relate to most of the stuff. i ended up just pushing myself away from her until i thought i was stable enough to really understand my feelings. but for a good while i completely avoided relationships in fear of gojng through that entire process again. it took me maybe a little more than half a year to really feel better about the situation. and it was hard to get over but i managed after taking time for myself and figuring stuff out with my therapist. just try and find what’s best for you. focus on yourself. as selfish as this might sohnd, unless u ignore her and work on yourself, everything might stay the same as it is right now.
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- 17w ago
im having a unusually hard flare up for two months. ive never had it this bad before (ive had this on and off for many years - thank god not constantly.) lately, i keep having these images in my head and scenarios in my head of me "coming out" in the future and ending my relationship with my amazing fiance who i love dearly. he knows everything but i still feel like i am constantly lying to him, my family, and friends. i need to know that this is something the SO-OCD can do to you? the weird thing is, is that i have never been attracted to woman. i do admire their beauty and wish to LOOK like them or have a specific feature they have, but i dont have any urges to like be with them yet i am dealing with this really bad flare up. My brain keeps telling me that since i have never tried it, i would never know, and i am just getting really distressed from it. i just want to be happy again and it seems impossible. I am convinced i am only person that is using SO-OCD as an excuse. Any guidance or advice, or anything really, will help. i just feel alone and scared and sad all the time.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 16w ago
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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- 12w ago
These thought make me doubt my self so much it makes me think that the thoughts are real and it’s not my ocd I just want to be my old self I didn’t think about anything I can’t looks at the same gender because then my brain tells me I like them. But I just don’t want to lose my girlfriend I love her so much she’s the one who cures my ocd when am with her I don’t think about anything
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