i'm scared I don't have OCD, I used to be 50/50 about it but now I just keep doubting I do. The reason i'm scared is because I can't feel anything for my girlfriend anymore, sometimes I do and want to love up on her but other times I just feel unnatracted to her and don't feel anything for her. This is taking a tole on the both of us, she cries alot because she knows what i'm going through but it's also hurting her. I also sometimes (not very often) think about breaking up with her or being with someone else and it scares me because I want to love her and only her and only be with her. I'm afraid I should break up with her but I really don't want to. Whenever she compliments me I get uncomfortable, sometimes whenever she says I love you I hesitate to say it because I feel kind of guilty and I can't really feel anything. She picks up on all of these things which makes it even harder to really hide. i know I shouldn't hide it but she's the crying type and I upset her too much already with all of this. Someone please tell me they can relate or that it's OCD, can someone please help me?

i relate to this. it’s the worst feeling in the world

I can relate, of course. OCD isn't like 'oh yeah I worry but I know that it's not true so ok))' OCD makes you feel like crap bc how realistic it is Try to educate your gf on Awaken Into Love, there are videos for partners. I know she may not feel good but all that crying shows that she doesn't fully understand where your hesitancy is coming from and she's taking it personally, when she shouldn't.

How do I convince myself it's OCD, I have such a hard time believing I have it

She doesn't make it easier for you two unfortunately so talk to her. It'll be a lot better if you try to live happily with her without focusing so much attention on OCD. It's hard but you have a lot more moments together which you'll truly enjoy.

i used to feel this exact same way, it was painful for the both of us. i felt extremely guilty and she kept trying to understand my situation and how this was all in my head but naturally me doubting my feelings for her and debating breaking up is gonna hurt her. i wpuld go on and on and ask mysel questions to figure out if i actually still loved her or not. i obsessed over it and whenever i thought something like “she’s not even that pretty” “i didn’t get butterflies in my stomach this time” “she called me beautiful and it didn’t feel good” the guilt got to me and was forced to tell her every single time. and i was just hurting her. in the end, i broke up with her bc as hesitant and painful as it was, i knew that truthfully i was clearly way too mentally unstable to be in a relationship. this can be called relationship ocd. do some research on it i’m sure you’ll relate to most of the stuff. i ended up just pushing myself away from her until i thought i was stable enough to really understand my feelings. but for a good while i completely avoided relationships in fear of gojng through that entire process again. it took me maybe a little more than half a year to really feel better about the situation. and it was hard to get over but i managed after taking time for myself and figuring stuff out with my therapist. just try and find what’s best for you. focus on yourself. as selfish as this might sohnd, unless u ignore her and work on yourself, everything might stay the same as it is right now.