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- 4y ago
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- 4y ago
i relate to this. it’s the worst feeling in the world
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- 4y ago
I can relate, of course. OCD isn't like 'oh yeah I worry but I know that it's not true so ok))' OCD makes you feel like crap bc how realistic it is Try to educate your gf on Awaken Into Love, there are videos for partners. I know she may not feel good but all that crying shows that she doesn't fully understand where your hesitancy is coming from and she's taking it personally, when she shouldn't.
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- 4y ago
How do I convince myself it's OCD, I have such a hard time believing I have it
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- 4y ago
You'll never be convinced because OCD doubts everything. You expect to be like 'now I certainly know this is OCD so I will no longer worry'. But if only people were cured when they got to know their diagnosis.... Sadly no...
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- 4y ago
She doesn't make it easier for you two unfortunately so talk to her. It'll be a lot better if you try to live happily with her without focusing so much attention on OCD. It's hard but you have a lot more moments together which you'll truly enjoy.
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- 4y ago
i used to feel this exact same way, it was painful for the both of us. i felt extremely guilty and she kept trying to understand my situation and how this was all in my head but naturally me doubting my feelings for her and debating breaking up is gonna hurt her. i wpuld go on and on and ask mysel questions to figure out if i actually still loved her or not. i obsessed over it and whenever i thought something like “she’s not even that pretty” “i didn’t get butterflies in my stomach this time” “she called me beautiful and it didn’t feel good” the guilt got to me and was forced to tell her every single time. and i was just hurting her. in the end, i broke up with her bc as hesitant and painful as it was, i knew that truthfully i was clearly way too mentally unstable to be in a relationship. this can be called relationship ocd. do some research on it i’m sure you’ll relate to most of the stuff. i ended up just pushing myself away from her until i thought i was stable enough to really understand my feelings. but for a good while i completely avoided relationships in fear of gojng through that entire process again. it took me maybe a little more than half a year to really feel better about the situation. and it was hard to get over but i managed after taking time for myself and figuring stuff out with my therapist. just try and find what’s best for you. focus on yourself. as selfish as this might sohnd, unless u ignore her and work on yourself, everything might stay the same as it is right now.
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- 19w ago
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- 19w ago
I don't even know if I should put this here, but I have the greatest girlfriend in the whole world, and I love her very much, but my thoughts keep saying I'm going to hurt her, so I can hurt God and idk what to do, I feel so disgusted and idk what to do, and the worst part is why does some part of me just not even care idk what to do anymore, it's almost like I'm turning into this horrible person and idk what to do, I'm really not sure what to do. I have really been able to be happy I just feel like I don't deserve it and I want to care about people and God and I want to be a good person, but a part of me shuts off my caring nature and idk what to do, I'm really freaking out because it's like IDC and idk what to do I just feel so nasty and scared because why don't I feel like I care. Why does it feel like it's something I wanna do idk, what to do I'm really freaking worried. Also I don't want OCD but a part of me says I need it or I like these thoughts and idk what to do, as im writing this i just feel like laughing and idk what to do, i really judt want jesus to hug me and say everything will be alright, i am such a monster....
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