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- 6y
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- 6y
the fact that you are so scared and anxious shows that it’s OCD! do you think bad people get so worked up and scared about their own thoughts? Do you think they constantly question whether they are a good person or not? Do you even think they CARE about being good? NO. The fact that your thoughts scare you this much shows that you are not a bar person. Don’t let the OCD win. You can’t control your thoughts , it’s not you. We’re here for you
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- 6y
I feel the EXACT same way. I am so sorry you’re going through this I would not wish it upon anyone. I always think I’m a bad person and it really bothers me It literally drags me down and I think the part that confuses me is do people who commit awful acts have any guilt? Idk but I do know that we’re gonna be ok!! I promise.
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- 6y
T, I’m in the EXACT same place. I keep thinking that this is all some big charade I’ve pulled off, and I’m secretly bad and have been scanning my past for any evidence that I’m not a good person, secretly am this way. Growing up I always loved true crime stuff, SVU, all that, so naturally I’m telling myself it’s because it’s speaking to my “real nature.” Sometimes the simple feeling that what you fear is real is worse than any physical reaction.
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- 6y
I am glad to hear that you haven’t had many intrusive thoughts today. I understand your anxiety. OCD is extremely overwhelming. This is why it is properly called the “Doubting Disease.” I also have an intrusive though that states that I have manipulated my therapist into thinking that I have OCD. I know what that feels like. I hate it as well That is a solid prayer.
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- 6y
I feel the same way with my OCD. It sucks.
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- 6y
Ur not bad I promise it’s all in ur head stay strong ❤️
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- 6y
I wish I could take my own advice
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- Date posted
- 23w
How do you deal with so many bad things that OCD makes you think about? Because ever since my therapist said it might not be OCD, even though that she believe it is, I think a lot that if it isn't, So I created such bad thoughts in my head. And my god, what a horrible thing. I never wanted this. My parents don't deserve such a bad daughter.
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- 21w
I kind of doubt this is intrusive thoughts. I hope it is, but I somewhat doubt it. I have a prayer obsession that has been driving me CRAZY. I have spent like 10+ hours a day thinking about this, and there seems like no end in sight. I believe I’ve prayed for some bad things and meant it, partly as a result of this, so I’m stuck in this cycle and can’t accept uncertainty with it. When I was incredibly desperate during one of my classes and suicidal, the one thing stopping me from doing it, was that my parents would be devastated. I almost, I believe had the genuine urge to pray that they would die in a way that wasn’t my fault. I’m not even talking about intrusive thoughts. Unfortunately, the ocd did play one factor. It somewhat neutralized it, to say that in the conditions of the prayer, I could not be morally responsible at all for praying for it or the outcome. So this was something at that moment I somewhat wanted. I resisted, but came very close, which is disturbing. At the moment it happened and had that urge, I was so bad off that I felt like there was no hope (I wanted to do it when I got back from class, although I didn’t cause it’s scary), and I needed an escape. Unfortunately, this was the escape my mind presented. It also presented another escape that I believe has actually become something that I now view as an escape. I was worried about making a racist prayer in the beginning of the prayer obsession. My mind presented to me the scenario: “if all people of color suddenly died, you would feel so guilty, you would attempt suicide.” My mind also neutralized it to say if it happened, it could happen in a way that I wouldn’t be morally responsible at all for, including the prayer (which makes no sense). I believe I have thought of this so much, that not only has it become something I’ve started to see as an escape, but the worry about praying for it has actually made that particular situation something that stands out as an escape. The more I worry about it, the more guilty I’d feel if something like that happened (which obviously never will), so when thinking of escapes, that and the thing about my parents are in the forefront of my mind. I believe possibly my mind has driven me crazy to the point where I am actually capable of praying for these things. I have also had the urge to pray for things like world war 3 as an escape. I know it wouldn’t normally happen beyond ocd driving me crazy, but that doesn’t mean I don’t mean it.
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- 16w
I need help everyone. My thoughts have been getting worse… I haven’t used my ERP because it feels too scary and too real and so I am caught in this spiral of doing compulsions with every other thought that I have. I have thoughts about that bad guy that are so horrible and then I think that the bad guy is talking to me so I do compulsions and desperately want GOD to believe me when I say I don’t mean the thoughts, but then it creates doubt about whether or not I actually do mean the thoughts. And now I am afraid of my own thoughts This makes me want to fix ALL of the thoughts and feelings that I have to prove even more to myself and to GOD that I don’t mean these thoughts. On top of all of this, I am trying to convince myself that it’s OCD and not me at all. Does anyone have this and can anyone help? I am so tired and scared and burnt out…
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