- Username
- T.
- Date posted
- 5y ago
the fact that you are so scared and anxious shows that it’s OCD! do you think bad people get so worked up and scared about their own thoughts? Do you think they constantly question whether they are a good person or not? Do you even think they CARE about being good? NO. The fact that your thoughts scare you this much shows that you are not a bar person. Don’t let the OCD win. You can’t control your thoughts , it’s not you. We’re here for you
I feel the EXACT same way. I am so sorry you’re going through this I would not wish it upon anyone. I always think I’m a bad person and it really bothers me It literally drags me down and I think the part that confuses me is do people who commit awful acts have any guilt? Idk but I do know that we’re gonna be ok!! I promise.
T, I’m in the EXACT same place. I keep thinking that this is all some big charade I’ve pulled off, and I’m secretly bad and have been scanning my past for any evidence that I’m not a good person, secretly am this way. Growing up I always loved true crime stuff, SVU, all that, so naturally I’m telling myself it’s because it’s speaking to my “real nature.” Sometimes the simple feeling that what you fear is real is worse than any physical reaction.
I am glad to hear that you haven’t had many intrusive thoughts today. I understand your anxiety. OCD is extremely overwhelming. This is why it is properly called the “Doubting Disease.” I also have an intrusive though that states that I have manipulated my therapist into thinking that I have OCD. I know what that feels like. I hate it as well That is a solid prayer.
I feel the same way with my OCD. It sucks.
Ur not bad I promise it’s all in ur head stay strong ❤️
I wish I could take my own advice
I've struggled with anxiety, depression, and insomnia since I was a young teen and am currently struggling with what seems like scrupulosity (for the past few months I've been fighting with thoughts and feelings that I'm not saved or not good enough to be a Christian and it keeps me up all night half the time). I desperately want help but I'm afraid that I'm just seeking a diagnosis to blame my shortcomings on something other than myself or that going to a therapist would prove that I can't trust in God and go to him first. And the truth is I truly haven't been a good christian and there are many sins I still haven't totally faced and overcome yet and I'm not sure if I ever will be able to. I just don't know how I KNOW if I'm really the problem or if it is OCD. And I'm not looking for reassurance but maybe I am? I just don't know... if it is OCD it also feels like my "obsessions" are constantly morphing and changing and I can't keep up with them. Like I'll go from having existential thoughts to questioning my belief in God to feeling like I'm gonna turn into a creep or lose my mind or turn evil in some way. I'm just so exhausted and need help. I want to be able to turn to Jesus for help but I don't always know how to... I have faith that things will eventually turn out OK but then as soon as a feel secure in that the anxiety and doubt comes back. And even as I'm typing this I'm having thoughts like "its not that bad you just need to toughen up and be patient" and I know that's true but I just feel so alone and like I can't talk to anyone about this and if I do it'll all prove to be true. And as I write this I wonder if I made up all of these thoughts and feelings because I read online and on here about OCD and I'm trying to fit myself into it as an excuse to avoid my real problems... which might just be perfectly true but even if it is I don't know how to fix those problems??? I just want to get out of this loop and be a better person. I don't know if posting this will help. Maybe its even a compulsion in itself. I just want to understand... how do I know if its OCD or if I'm being convicted? Or both?
I’m so scared that all these thoughts and obsessions with follow me into adult hood. I’ve already had these thoughts and worries for years now, and I’m only 14. I don’t want to live a life constantly worrying about being a good person, or having those most disgusting intrusive thoughts. I have been trying so hard to accept these thoughts, but I just feel like bad person. They come way too easily to me, and I feel like if I don’t get a wave of fear when I get those thoughts, it makes me a monster.
Today I realized I’m actually really scared of becoming a bad person. I’ve been dealing with symptoms of OCD for a few years now, or maybe they were always there and i never knew what it was. I’m scared that i’ll eventually become a bad person. I’m scared I’ll hurt someone one day, even though i have no violent urges or tendencies. I’m scared i’ll be a pedophile even though i have no attraction to kids. I’m scared that i’ve done something really bad to someone and i don’t remember. I’m just scared and I wish I could tell people my thoughts but i know it’s hard to understand intrusive thoughts when you don’t have them.
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