I haven't even had any intrusive thoughts, I'm just anxious I'm a bad person and am what I fear. I KNOW I should be confident, I know I should label the thoughts as ocd, but yet I still fear I don't truly have ocd or that I really am just truly a bad person who has manipulated their therapist into thinking they aren't or that I'm just some sort of bad person who on the spectrum isn't as bad as others or something? I just hate this. *possible trigger* I always pray that if I truly am a P that God will just kill me some how.

the fact that you are so scared and anxious shows that it’s OCD! do you think bad people get so worked up and scared about their own thoughts? Do you think they constantly question whether they are a good person or not? Do you even think they CARE about being good? NO. The fact that your thoughts scare you this much shows that you are not a bar person. Don’t let the OCD win. You can’t control your thoughts , it’s not you. We’re here for you

I feel the EXACT same way. I am so sorry you’re going through this I would not wish it upon anyone. I always think I’m a bad person and it really bothers me It literally drags me down and I think the part that confuses me is do people who commit awful acts have any guilt? Idk but I do know that we’re gonna be ok!! I promise.

T, I’m in the EXACT same place. I keep thinking that this is all some big charade I’ve pulled off, and I’m secretly bad and have been scanning my past for any evidence that I’m not a good person, secretly am this way. Growing up I always loved true crime stuff, SVU, all that, so naturally I’m telling myself it’s because it’s speaking to my “real nature.” Sometimes the simple feeling that what you fear is real is worse than any physical reaction.

I am glad to hear that you haven’t had many intrusive thoughts today. I understand your anxiety. OCD is extremely overwhelming. This is why it is properly called the “Doubting Disease.” I also have an intrusive though that states that I have manipulated my therapist into thinking that I have OCD. I know what that feels like. I hate it as well That is a solid prayer.

I feel the same way with my OCD. It sucks.

Ur not bad I promise it’s all in ur head stay strong ❤️

I wish I could take my own advice