- Username
- T.
- Date posted
- 5y ago
the fact that you are so scared and anxious shows that it’s OCD! do you think bad people get so worked up and scared about their own thoughts? Do you think they constantly question whether they are a good person or not? Do you even think they CARE about being good? NO. The fact that your thoughts scare you this much shows that you are not a bar person. Don’t let the OCD win. You can’t control your thoughts , it’s not you. We’re here for you
I feel the EXACT same way. I am so sorry you’re going through this I would not wish it upon anyone. I always think I’m a bad person and it really bothers me It literally drags me down and I think the part that confuses me is do people who commit awful acts have any guilt? Idk but I do know that we’re gonna be ok!! I promise.
T, I’m in the EXACT same place. I keep thinking that this is all some big charade I’ve pulled off, and I’m secretly bad and have been scanning my past for any evidence that I’m not a good person, secretly am this way. Growing up I always loved true crime stuff, SVU, all that, so naturally I’m telling myself it’s because it’s speaking to my “real nature.” Sometimes the simple feeling that what you fear is real is worse than any physical reaction.
I am glad to hear that you haven’t had many intrusive thoughts today. I understand your anxiety. OCD is extremely overwhelming. This is why it is properly called the “Doubting Disease.” I also have an intrusive though that states that I have manipulated my therapist into thinking that I have OCD. I know what that feels like. I hate it as well That is a solid prayer.
I feel the same way with my OCD. It sucks.
Ur not bad I promise it’s all in ur head stay strong ❤️
I wish I could take my own advice
I suffer from intrusive thoughts, I think I may have HARM OCD. My therapist diagnosed me with anxiety and depression but not OCD because I never told her about my thoughts. I’m afraid of being around vulnerable people, and I’m afraid for going insane. The thought of it makes me want to throw up, this all started about a week ago, and I haven’t been able to eat since then. I don’t even want to go out because I’m in constant fear. I tell myself “what if I snap?” or “what if I’m a sociopath?” I have told my parents about it and even my significant other and they tell me “you wouldn’t even hurt a fly” I kind of feel relieved after that but not for long. I’ve been trying to get closer to god, I’ve been praying, meditating, I even took magnesium because I want to stop having these thoughts. I did go to therapy right away but I wasn’t completely honest to her due to fear. I’ve been feeling numb. I love my family.. so why am I afraid I might hurt them?
I’m so scared that all these thoughts and obsessions with follow me into adult hood. I’ve already had these thoughts and worries for years now, and I’m only 14. I don’t want to live a life constantly worrying about being a good person, or having those most disgusting intrusive thoughts. I have been trying so hard to accept these thoughts, but I just feel like bad person. They come way too easily to me, and I feel like if I don’t get a wave of fear when I get those thoughts, it makes me a monster.
Today I realized I’m actually really scared of becoming a bad person. I’ve been dealing with symptoms of OCD for a few years now, or maybe they were always there and i never knew what it was. I’m scared that i’ll eventually become a bad person. I’m scared I’ll hurt someone one day, even though i have no violent urges or tendencies. I’m scared i’ll be a pedophile even though i have no attraction to kids. I’m scared that i’ve done something really bad to someone and i don’t remember. I’m just scared and I wish I could tell people my thoughts but i know it’s hard to understand intrusive thoughts when you don’t have them.
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