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- 6y ago
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- 6y ago
Of course it’s possible! OCD can make you doubt ANYTHING. It’s very creative. And it wants to attack what you value the most.
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- 6y ago
I worry in the exact same way and wanted you to know you are not alone. I started worrying my husband was gay, then worried about my dog and my husband. Now it takes the form of every single thing. Not just sexually but violent as well. Is he a serial killer, is he manipulative. I do believe this is a part of ocd. I believe that because I don't worry all the time. A lot of the time I think my husband is amazing. I do the same thing as you though. I check for proof. I don't have any answers for you but I wanted you to know you're not alone.
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- 6y ago
I have the same thoughts. What if in my case it's true. The one thing I've done that has really really helped is repeat this mantra "up until this moment my husband has been nothing but loving and kind," sometimes I repeat it to myself over and over and over. It really helps. It helps put into perspective the fact that I can't control what happens tomorrow but today I am happy. And today he is treating me well. I am so sorry you are suffering with this and I wish you weren't but it honestly makes me feel so relieved to know I'm not alone.
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- 6y ago
I try to do the same thing, and it works for a while, but sometimes I let it get to my head. And I wish you weren’t suffering with this either. It’s hell. And I’m also soooo relieved that I’m not alone in this. I’ve looked this stuff up online and freaked out Bc no results came up, so it just confirmed to me that he is a pedophile. Now I feel more hopeful that he’s not.
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- 6y ago
I did the same. I scoured the internet for anyone who felt the same as me. I couldn't find anything. It's such a relief to find someone who has the same thoughts although I feel awful because I know how terrible it is. If you think about it though it all comes down to control. When. You are worried about yourself being a pedophile it's a worry that you lose control of yourself. Worrying about your SO being one is even further out of your control. I guess that's why people with ocd say you need to get comfortable living in the uncertainty.
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- 6y ago
Well, maybe you should try talking to him! Make sure he understands that you can't control this emotional release! You should always feel like you can tell him everything. If you can't, is this relationship healthy for you? Remember that people care for you here, and around you. ??
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- 6y ago
What does he do or say that gives you the feeling that he could b this way.? Were u ever sexually abused in ur life?
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- 6y ago
Do you think this is an OCD thing, though? Because this fear only started a few months ago during my pregnancy. And I only knew my boyfriend a few months before that. So I don’t know if I developed this OCD due to the pregnancy or if it was intuition since I haven’t known my bf for long before that. I’m just a mess
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- 6y ago
it’s the same for me
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- 6y ago
it was like this a while ago with my dad and it was making me so so nervous
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- 6y ago
That makes me feel sooo much better. I’ve done the exact same thing!!! It started with worrying that he was cheating on me, then that he was gay, then about my dog and him as well, and now pedophilia and all the other stuff you mentioned!! That’s crazy that we’ve thought the same things. But I am still worried, like what if your thoughts are just OCD, but mine are true.
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- 6y ago
it’s awful seeing people you live in that light. it’s almost harder to disprove that than probing you’re not a pedophile yourself ?
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- 6y ago
It really is, because he can tell me he’s not, but I’m not him, so I can never know for sure. Whereas, with myself, I can say, I know I’m not a pedophile because I know myself.
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- 6y ago
I know NOCD is gonna tag me because I'm "Not supposed to reassure you because it will make it worse", but MY OCD won't let me leave this alone. I'mm so sorry your feeling this way. You don't deserve any of this. I'm so sorry your going through this, and I'm so sorry that you are having such a bad time. Nobody deserves this! You don't deserve this. You seem like an amazing person, and I really hope you'll get over this because your so fucking important to the world, and your needed in life. I'm so sorry everyone feels like this in life, and I would genuinely take the pain away if I could. I'm always here for you, no matter what, people love and support you. Again, I'm so so sorry your going through this ? stay strong because without you in the world, a lot of people would never know what a true friend is. I hope you feel better soon, and I'm sorry for anything misspelled ????
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- 6y ago
Thank you so much, I literally cried Bc of your message. Everyone on here is so sweet. ?
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- 6y ago
I'm always here for you, stay strong because your amazing in every way just by being yourself. ? I have a type of OCD that makes me want to correct things if they aren't right in general, in this case your hurting, and my OCD went off. I'm so sorry you are having such a terrible time, and I'm really happy you could cry, because you deserve any relief you can get, and crying is one way to do so. There's nothing wrong with you for crying. I know your going through a lot, and I can tell you need someone there for you. I'm here for you. The entire NOCD community is here for you. I love and care for you, as well as everyone else, and more people need to love and care for each other in the world. Here's a virtual hug, and a promise that everything will get better ???
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- 6y ago
I have talked to him about it, and he says he isn’t and whatnot, but I still get scared. I wonder if it’s OCD or not. And I haven’t told him everything because I’m not comfortable with it. I just feel really sick about it.
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- 6y ago
Like I read into everything he does and get so worried and sick. And no matter how many times he assures me he isn’t a pedophile, I still have my worries.
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- 6y ago
Like I will get this feeling, like “I know he’s not a pedophile, this is so stupid to think that”, but then he’ll do something that seems like proof to me. But idk. I feel like what if I’m right and then ignored it and my son ends up getting harmed? And then we have I restart our lives, like he’ll be scarred and so will I. I won’t trust any guy anymore, not that I do that much anyways, and I’ll probably end up alone and my son will be without his dad and whatnot. I hate it.
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- 6y ago
I don’t know, different things. And I always look to see if he’s hard, but I can’t tell. And when I ask him about if he’s a pedophile, sometimes he’ll be frustrated and other times he’ll just be like “no”, not defensive and I take both of those negatively. Like when he’s frustrated I think, oh so he is, because he’s getting defensive. And when he’s not defensive, I’m think the same thing. Like no matter what he does, I can take it either way. And no I haven’t been sexually abused, at least that I know of. I’ve wondered if I have been before, though and it’s just a repressed memory because for years, at times I’ll feel sexually uncomfortable around people, mostly men.
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- 6y ago
Yeah, I’m just currently freaking out bc I don’t know if I’m imagining these certain things about my bf or if it’s actually happening. And no one can even reassure me Bc they weren’t there or anything. You know? It’s driving me crazy anxious. And I feel sick Bc I think what if he’s lying to me and I was right all along and he ends up hurting our son or someone else? It’s making me sick. I’d be responsible and I just want to cry. Sometimes I wish I’d never gotten involved with him so I wouldn’t have to deal with this.
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- 19w ago
This might be asking for reassurance but I’m at a point I’m not sure if this is ocd and who better to ask than you guys. Also want to mention I have been to a psychologist who diagnosed me with ocd and I’ve tried to seek therapy through NOCD but had a bad experience so I’m just looking for an opinion I’ll take with a grain of salt. I’ve been through bouts of pocd that I got through but now it’s morphed into something that feels so different. It’s like harm ocd and pocd together and it revolves around my daughter. Before this happened I was a loving mother who valued my kid more than anything. Now this is happening and it feels so sinister. I’m getting urges to do something bad and I get these feelings like I want to do that and it’s like my brain gets foggy and my values slip away and I feel like I could do it. But then I get a moment of clarity and I’m like wait a minute I’ve never hurt anyone in my life nor have I ever thought about it and this is my child what is happening. But then I get that foggy brain again and it’s like I can’t see her as my child. I try to sit with it and it’s like I get this adrenaline rush and feel like I have to do it. But I know I don’t want to do that, but then it’s like trying to make me want to want to. I’m not sure if I’m just lacking insight and clarity because I’m overwhelmed with the groinals, urges, thoughts and feelings but I just keep obsessing over the fact that death is my only way out. I don’t understand what happened to me. It feels like this demonic oppression and I don’t know how to get through this one or if this is still something I can get through because it might not be ocd. I try to go with the thoughts and feelings and say yeah maybe, maybe not, or yeah I’m going to do that but it seems to fuel the feelings. I feel like I’m teetering between the person I was and this evil awful person who has no regard for others. I don’t want to be around my daughter and I’m just angry all the time. The fear and anxiety used to be something I relied on and I feel none of that now. I used to be able to say “well no matter what I feel or think I can control my actions” and now it feels like I cannot control my actions but I’ve never hurt anyone before. Someone please give it to me straight and tell me if you think this might not be ocd.
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- 13w ago
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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- 13w ago
Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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