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Oh man, I’ve been here. But let me tell you that you’re worth more than you think. You deserve more and you are loved. I love you very much and I don’t know you because I can feel your pain. I know how that feeling of condemnation and depression can sink in and make you think you’re a monster. But you’re not, you’re beautiful, caring, magnificent and a great person. Please, please eat and remember that you don’t deserve to rot in bed. Truly, you don’t. Have mercy and love yourself. If you don’t love yourself, remember that I’m here and I love you. That’s good enough right? Consider me your virtual shoulder to cry on. I will be here for you and love you. God bless, stay strong ok? 💕
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Thank u so much 🥺❤
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I've bee. Right where you are with harm ocd directed toward my own children! I've had ocd all my life but ocd has a way of getting finding the one thing you are unable to accept. This to me is my kids....I love them so much that that is exactly what ocd latched on to. I still feel anxious and guilty for the thoughts and compultions associated. Erp is hard....very hard for me and has even made some new obsessions....but I know that the only way through ocd is through it. Staying in bed and not eating is so tempting and I've been there before....but it doesn't help on the journey through it. Make one small goal a day for 365 days and you will be surprised how far you can go.
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Of course you deserve to live. You deserve everything good in your life. Who gets to decide you don’t deserve these things? Isn’t this just opinion? I believe everyone deserves to live. We all cause harm to others. It doesn’t mean we are worthless pieces of shit.
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Please consider ERP. You need to speak to a professional who specializes in OCD. That will change everything. You have to be proactive or you won’t improve. So be brave and reach out for help if you haven’t yet.
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Ypu seriously need to stop seeking reassurance and making yourself so sick. You’re making it worse for yourself at this point.
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But I don't deserve anything, I don't know what to do
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Hey i dont even know if i belong here or not because i dont think so i have ocd i am just making an excuse for the past crimes i have committed i am 18 now and about to be 19 so just wanted to share something i know for sure i have done this crime when i was 13 or 14 because why would i think and feel guilty over an act i have never committed for 5 years so yeah i came to know about this thing OCD and now i am putting my crimes to it and false memory that kinda stuff but in my mind its always like that "you have done those acts i have proof" after asking my sister 3 times that do you even remember a glimpse of my inapproriate behaviour towards you but no she has answered "nope if i did i would tell you i never felt uncomfortable around you " well how may she remember when she was sleeping when i did those acts and yeah she was 12 too so she must be a deep sleeper well my mind have too much proof that i am a sexual abuser i dont know why i am still typing but just wanted to know do i deserve to live anymore because according to me i am done i cant tolerate these disgusting thoughts about my sister and i may be a threat to her and i dont deserve to live in this family i love them so much but i cant do it anymore i am such a monster they deserve so much better
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