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- 3y ago
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Oh man, I’ve been here. But let me tell you that you’re worth more than you think. You deserve more and you are loved. I love you very much and I don’t know you because I can feel your pain. I know how that feeling of condemnation and depression can sink in and make you think you’re a monster. But you’re not, you’re beautiful, caring, magnificent and a great person. Please, please eat and remember that you don’t deserve to rot in bed. Truly, you don’t. Have mercy and love yourself. If you don’t love yourself, remember that I’m here and I love you. That’s good enough right? Consider me your virtual shoulder to cry on. I will be here for you and love you. God bless, stay strong ok? 💕
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- 3y ago
Thank u so much 🥺❤
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- 3y ago
I've bee. Right where you are with harm ocd directed toward my own children! I've had ocd all my life but ocd has a way of getting finding the one thing you are unable to accept. This to me is my kids....I love them so much that that is exactly what ocd latched on to. I still feel anxious and guilty for the thoughts and compultions associated. Erp is hard....very hard for me and has even made some new obsessions....but I know that the only way through ocd is through it. Staying in bed and not eating is so tempting and I've been there before....but it doesn't help on the journey through it. Make one small goal a day for 365 days and you will be surprised how far you can go.
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- 3y ago
Of course you deserve to live. You deserve everything good in your life. Who gets to decide you don’t deserve these things? Isn’t this just opinion? I believe everyone deserves to live. We all cause harm to others. It doesn’t mean we are worthless pieces of shit.
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- 3y ago
Please consider ERP. You need to speak to a professional who specializes in OCD. That will change everything. You have to be proactive or you won’t improve. So be brave and reach out for help if you haven’t yet.
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- 3y ago
Ypu seriously need to stop seeking reassurance and making yourself so sick. You’re making it worse for yourself at this point.
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- 3y ago
But I don't deserve anything, I don't know what to do
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- 15w ago
Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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I’m really down and don’t have anyone i feel i can turn to. I’m just so tired of living as myself. I hate who i love with including myself. I feel so worthless. Having ocd on top of it makes me feel like im just a waste of space. I dont know how to stop feeling this way. Or if i deserve to. That’s all :(
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- 12w ago
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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