Do I even deserve to live if I'm convinced I'm a pedophile? Do I deserve to eat? To have a home? I feel so extremely worthless. All I do is lay in bed. I don't deserve to do anything else. I should rot in my bed.

Oh man, I’ve been here. But let me tell you that you’re worth more than you think. You deserve more and you are loved. I love you very much and I don’t know you because I can feel your pain. I know how that feeling of condemnation and depression can sink in and make you think you’re a monster. But you’re not, you’re beautiful, caring, magnificent and a great person. Please, please eat and remember that you don’t deserve to rot in bed. Truly, you don’t. Have mercy and love yourself. If you don’t love yourself, remember that I’m here and I love you. That’s good enough right? Consider me your virtual shoulder to cry on. I will be here for you and love you. God bless, stay strong ok? 💕

Please consider ERP. You need to speak to a professional who specializes in OCD. That will change everything. You have to be proactive or you won’t improve. So be brave and reach out for help if you haven’t yet.

I've bee. Right where you are with harm ocd directed toward my own children! I've had ocd all my life but ocd has a way of getting finding the one thing you are unable to accept. This to me is my kids....I love them so much that that is exactly what ocd latched on to. I still feel anxious and guilty for the thoughts and compultions associated. Erp is hard....very hard for me and has even made some new obsessions....but I know that the only way through ocd is through it. Staying in bed and not eating is so tempting and I've been there before....but it doesn't help on the journey through it. Make one small goal a day for 365 days and you will be surprised how far you can go.

Of course you deserve to live. You deserve everything good in your life. Who gets to decide you don’t deserve these things? Isn’t this just opinion? I believe everyone deserves to live. We all cause harm to others. It doesn’t mean we are worthless pieces of shit.

Ypu seriously need to stop seeking reassurance and making yourself so sick. You’re making it worse for yourself at this point.