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Absolutely I do. I have gotten to the point that I start wondering if I felt something.
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Hey what are pocd and bocd?
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From the Mindfulness for OCD Workbook: “Mental checking is also very common with feelings and physical sensations. If you struggle with contamination OCD, you may check mentally to see if you feel clean enough. If you struggle with obsessions about violence, sexual thoughts, or morality, you might repeatedly check to see if the emotions you are having in response to an event are appropriate. Like physical checking, it’s typically a brief, but repeated, act of returning to a scene. Just as you might check your watch noncompulsively to see if you are on time, you might, from compulsion, mentally check an idea to make sure it’s where it belongs in your mind. Here are some common things that someone with OCD might mentally check: -Whether emotions are appropriate to an event -A mental image of a locked door or a shut light switch, and so on -A sensation in the groin in the presence of a sexual obsession -Whether a belief still seems valid”
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I believe I experienced the arousal non concordance/groinal response very heavily back in January, and my mind has been messed up ever since. I was hanging out with a coworker after work, we were chilling out, having a blunt, then my mind went stupid and said “I wonder if this is gay” because he also told me that he was bi but I didn’t pay it no mind. But after that thought, I immediately thought I was attracted to him. I was scared, because it never happened to me before. This hasn’t happened previously, and it set me in depression(still does with doubting here and there) that I was changing into one of my biggest fears. Then I found out about HOCD. I remember that the feeling I had did not feel the same physical response when I see my girlfriend. This feeling I had immediately made me shiver and have to pee really bad. I still do that. Since then I gave up weed for a bit.
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I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
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Every time I go to bed late and I’m falling asleep, I suddenly get an intrusive thought of a child’s face and my groinal area always responds to it. It’s such an uncomfortable experience. I am way too tired to try and freak out so I end up falling asleep. The next morning I’m always trying to figure out whether I had the groinal response first or after the thought. I start giving OCD power but it feels like If I let it go, then I’m in denial or whatever. I don’t want to ever do anything sexual with a child. I don’t even feel comfortable talking platonically with people who are 17, much less a child. My therapist says that I have a deep rooted fear that I’m this horrible person and that OCD loves to feed off of it. When you get a groinal response, it makes the thought that much more real. I never want these things to happen. I want to only be into adults. It’s so discomforting and stressful. Especially since I’m hyper checking how anxious I am, and if I find I didn’t really have much anxiety, then I’m like “well if I didn’t have anxiety, what does this mean?” And more questions occur til I end up in a rabbit hole
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I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
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