MRR7221
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- 3y ago
OCD_1day@aTime ✨OCD_1day@aTi...
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- 3y ago
I feel that…. Most people think OCD is just being organized or worry about something here and there. They don’t understand the complexity of it and how debilitating it is. I have heard family and friends throw “I am OCD about that” on certain things so easily. It really triggers me and I so badly want to say something but don’t want to come off as rude. That’s another reason I love this app, you can talk to people who truly understand you. ♥️
MRR7221MRR7221
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- 3y ago
Exactly because once we mention like POCD, HOCD, ROCD, etc, they truly believe we are exaggerating or bad people. I wish OCD would be talked about more and not just about the cleanliness/organization part of it. I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD yet, but after years of research, it all comes down to OCD. I hate to diagnose myself, but I have dealt with HOCD, ROCD, Cheating OCD, Harm OCD, and just now going through an extremely bad phase of False Memory OCD. I tried to explain this to the people I care most about it and just goes down to “I don’t know what to say” or “everyone has anxiety” it just sucks :( I am so thankful for this app no truly don’t even know how I stumbled upon it. God helped me out here ❤️
OCD_1day@aTime ✨OCD_1day@aTi...
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- 3y ago
Wanted to also comment that this isn’t anything against those with Contamination OCD/ Organization. Just an example my family/friends say that upsets me. Your sub-types are so valid & I just wanted to make that clear. 🙂
OCD_1day@aTime ✨OCD_1day@aTi...
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- 3y ago
@OCD_1day@aTime ✨ Me too! I just found this app while looking through the App Store, I am so thankful! I agree the OCD needs more education and should be normalized!
MRR7221MRR7221
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- 3y ago
@OCD_1day@aTime ✨ Yes! For sure!! I know Contamination OCD is real! I’ve personally never had thoughts about this, yet, but I know it can be debilitating! It’s just that it’s the most common and most talked about for OCD. So this is what everyone thinks OCD is all about.
OCDumb >:(OCDumb >:(
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- 3y ago
It was so hard for me. I have HOCD and I was absolutely terrified that my family would say I’m gay- especially because I live in a conservative Christian household. It’s so hard to say “well I’m thinking gay thoughts but I don’t think I’m gay.”
MRR7221MRR7221
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- 3y ago
Yes exactly! It is so hard to find the words to describe something that nobody else would understand other than they truly think you are what you are thinking :( I’m dealing with false memory ocd and it’s so hard to say “I have thoughts that I innapropriately touched babies 12 years ago at the daycare I was at” like how do you describe stuff like that /: I dealt with HOCD for like a whole year 1/2 or two maybe 3-4 years ago. I almost was going to come out to my whole family but then all of a sudden it just went away. I have no idea how to describe it to someone and I’m sure I’m not the only one :( I hope you can find the words to be able to talk to your family about it ❤️
OCDumb >:(OCDumb >:(
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- 3y ago
@MRR7221 Exactlyyy. I did come forward to my family about my HOCD and they’re all so so supportive. I hope yours is supportive too. 💛
MRR7221MRR7221
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- 3y ago
@OCDumb >:( That’s so awesome!! Glad to hear that :) my family is supportive but in a non understanding way /: if that makes any sense!
OCDumb >:(OCDumb >:(
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- 3y ago
@MRR7221 Oh, yeah. My dad is that way. Oh well.
bellagbellag
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- 3y ago
omg facts. also hey again! haha 😆 i went to an adult that i trusted when i was first showing signs of ocd.. my first obsession was schizophrenia ocd, then harm ocd… my step parent got scared of me (she thought i was going to hurt her) and caused so much drama.. then left. soooo i understand this. my dad also doesn’t believe that bad thoughts like this are “normal” and says i’m “too young to be this anxious” he’s gotten better about it now that i’m older but it’s so frustrating for sure! that’s why i pick and choose when it comes to telling people about my anxiety/ocd.
MRR7221MRR7221
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- 3y ago
Hi!! 😊 ugh I’m so sorry you have dealt with that :( and (lol I think posting on here became a compulsion for me)… I always tried to explain to my mom and she always told me “I have anxiety too” or “everyone has anxiety” I’m like but it’s not like that. I don’t really ever explain what I actually think or talk about because it’s so embarrassing for me. :(
bellagbellag
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- 3y ago
@MRR7221 honestly, coming onto this app might be a compulsion for me too but i’m not sure. sometimes i want to post, but then my mind gets the best of me and says “no one will respond to you” blah blah blah… so i only post sometimes. but i’ll spend so much time scrolling on here. but hey, i always find someone who’s experiencing the same things i am, and i’m like “ahhh my people” to a degree, it’s very comforting 😌. like i said earlier, i hope the NOCD therapist helps… you’ll find clarity soon! just know, you have a whole community who accepts and understands what you’re going through! so never feel alone or embarrassed to let it out on here! :)
MRR7221MRR7221
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- 3y ago
@bellag I actually just found this app yesterday! Not sure if I said that or not lol… but I am so glad I did!! I always was on the internet and on Reddit making sure my thoughts weren’t just going on in my head and if what I was thinking happened to others too! I hope I can get into therapy soon. It’s so expensive though /:
bellagbellag
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- 3y ago
@MRR7221 praying for you! and i LOVED finding this app. i’m so glad we both found it. 😌 for me it used to be random links on the internet and Quora…
MRR7221MRR7221
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@bellag Oh my gosh… Quora! 😂 lots and lots of research done on there lol
bellagbellag
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- 3y ago
@MRR7221 i can totally relate 💯
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- Date posted
- 20w ago
I'm fearing myself and I hate it
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
cows12465
- Date posted
- 16w ago
please advice please!!!!
I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
Gato0z
- Date posted
- 10w ago
Help
Told my close friend about how I think I have harm ocd and showed a video describing her experience with it so I wouldn’t have to share mine. Told him how when I see the number 22 I get paranoid that I’ll harm someone, and he gave me advice to go to a psychiatrist then left me on read after we were having a conversation prior. I’m so scared to open up to people about it and now I don’t think I will again.
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