- Username
- BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I'm with you 100 percent, ocd flipped my life upside down. I will say that I am not completely healed, far from it, but I have made some progress, and it didn't happen until I began erp and committed to trying it consistently for at least a week or so. Erp is freaking terrifying, it still scares me, but I found that once I had done it for several days consistently, I noticed how when you do the scary thing, nothing bad actually happens except for a feeling of discomfort within you, which goes away eventually. It takes practice and I think a big part of it is a leaped faith, be willing to take the risk with erp, cause if you go into it unwilling, it won't work as well.
I just don't understand ERP for real event because these things really happened. I get false memories too. I just don't know how to do it and when I do it'll be terrifying.
@BigGip09 The point of erp is really to expose you to fears, whether it's real event or any other theme. Even though it may be real event ocd, the fact remains that it gives you fear and anxiety, so by exposing yourself to that thing or the thought of it, you're desensitized your nervous system to the fear you normally associate it. The point of erp is not to disprove the fear, it's to live with the fear without that fear controlling us with the obsessive compulsive cycle. Hope that makes sense a little better
@Whatabtme This!!! I'm also dealing with false memory and real event. It's so tough just letting things be you know? I needed to read this. Thank you for the words of encouragement.
@Whatabtme What if after all of that work it actually comes true though?
The last paragraph struck me hard. This is so hard :( I'm sorry were going through this, but there's a way through. I'm not quite there yet, but I believe in both of us!
I feel you. Its so hard to give ourselves grace. Its not our faults that we have these thoughts. Its a brain issue but we can live life despite it given the right tools. I know it may seem hopeless but having OCD isnt hopeless. You will find your way and you will find freedom from porn as well. Im trying to free myself from that too. Its a topic im trying to focus on with my therapist soon. Best of luck to you
What I have noticed is that when I try to use positive thinking and challenge my thoughts I feel better but then I end up avoiding intense bad thoughts. Those thoughts bubble up and then I cannot calm down unless I use ERP. Then I feel sad because thats all I can think about. How can I balance this?
I am having a really hard time figuring out how to address my obsessions and compulsions using ERP. It's actually turned into a main OCD theme of mine and it's terrifying. No reassurance please. I've never had an OCD theme so severe and last so long. This "theme" has been going on for 5 years now & has been the hardest to manage out of any OCD themes in the past and I've had many: Harm, Sexual, Just Right, Symmetry, False Memories, Scrupulosity, etc. I just wanted to put this out there because it's hard to function with these distressing, intrusive thoughts around therapy and how to do it racing inside me.
So last night I tried some ERP and tried as hard as I could not to give into the compulsions of my thought, I didnt do well, but I was able to do it for at least a little bit until I fell asleep. Guess what was on my mind as soon as I woke up?! That same obsessive thought. I obviously dont expect things to change overnight, but I feel like I'm never going to catch a break. As much as I try not to give my OCD attention, it always prevails. Has anyone experienced this? Like any "unfinished" thought or obsession always creeps back in? They just seem to always resurface whether I have tried for ten minutes or a day to not give into them. I'd love to hear anyone's thoughts. Thank you!
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