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You already know I’m in this boat! I just called two different psychiatrists to talk to a professional about this and hopefully put it to bed once and for all.
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Can’t relate to those delusions. Was that when you were 25 and then got diagnosed? Are you stable in recent years? Have a lot of doom thinking that if I had bipolar I’d ruin my life - but I know a lot of people with bipolar can lead very normal productive lives when treated
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I usually think I have bipolar because sometimes my mood fluctuates slightly. Or I can go a couple weeks without obsessing and then it’ll come back in a cyclical manner. Plus my anxiety really affects my sleep and energy, in both directions (too much too little)
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I am bipolar 2, and OCD, both diagnosed by a professional. I can share my experience if wanted.
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Rachel I want you to but I cannot decide if I want it as a compulsion or for real insight. I guess how old were you at diagnosis? And how do the two differ/how do you differentiate?
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OCD in 1992 at the age of 12 inpatient. Bipolar, 2005, 25, inpatient as well. The symptoms for me are very different with the exception that they share depression as a symptom. Bipolar are big big swings in moods with manic highs which are an entity in itself. Being bipolar can be very destructive on your life affecting major aspects of life. Some people lose all their money while on a manic high, cheat, lose their spouse, go off on some dream of doing something outlandish but is really just a delusion. OCD does not produce delusions like bipolar can that I know of. Both can wreck your life in very different ways.
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OCD for me at its worst produces severe anxiety and I wont leave the house type thing. I do the rituals, the excessive checking, counting, scared of germs.
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I’ve got mostly mental obsessions and checking/reassurance compulsions. Rachel, almost all the things you mentioned re:mania are exactly what I obsess about and fear in relation to bipolar.
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Im sorry, i cannot relate but you definitely made me feel a lot better with how I am currently feeling. I don't think Im having delusions. :) i just tend to have really negative thoughts and obsess about them for days and sometimes weeks. Eventually they pass. I would just love to break the cycle.
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Im very productive. But i fear i have bipolar and if i get diagnosed it will ruin my life also..
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I like to use the mayo clinics info on bipolar or the national institute of health. Those are reputable for reading.
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Im on the fence about getting diagnosed. I feel like i dont have it and itll be a waste of time and part of me wants to go for shits and giggles to see if i do have it..
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I could imagine anxiety,OCD and Bipolar is a horrible cocktail to have..
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Uncontrolled bipolar makes you want to take huge risks, make big changes with little time to think on it. Then your also happy like on drugs happy, euphoric.
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My fear is I have it already and the anxious energy has actually been hypomanic and it’ll just escalate until it’s full blown mania and I ruin my life and relationships. I’m scared to visit the psychiatrist because of confirmation bias and over diagnosis issues. Hopefully a psych will alleviate those vs exacerbate them.
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Well those experiences I had are because I was not on meds at the time, it is manageable with medication. Glad I could help . Your better off going for testing to rule it out.
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Im thinking about doing the same! Hopefully it isn't too expensive.
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Jay Bird you just said all I wanted to say lol
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Can you experience delusions with OCD? I want to say that I have because I think I have obsessed over a delusion at one point but the thought or delusion eventually went away by distracting myself/keeping busy.
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Germs don't bother me, a messy silverware drawer, unmade beds, stuff like that does not bother me. I do count and repeat things and thoughts though which i feel brings the anxiety and obsessing part.
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Yes same here jay bird
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Delusions from OCD only? Not that I know of. I spent 3 months on a manic high, lost thousands of dollars due to just shopping because I thought soon I was to be a super model. Lost 70 pounds, not that it was meant to lose. I had no concept of time, when to eat or sleep. Literally. None of that. I thought traffic lights were signaling me to a higher calling and were leading me to somewhere so I basically drove all over the state. I was always super giddy happy but not in my right mind. I stole a car then abandoned it on the highway because I was convinced there was a bomb in there. From there, I hitch hiked down state because I thought eminem was my bf. Can anyone relate to those delusions?
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I tried to buy a hummer as well and almost got away with it.
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Same here jay bird.
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Well I am 39 now, and have been stable for 3 years. Before that I went through a severe depression of a year which was the worst I ever experienced. That was the bipolar not OCD. In 2005, I was diagnosed after all that happened. I have gone years with no problems. The key is the right meds, therapy , and basically taking care of your physical health as well. You can lead very productive lives despite the diagnosis. You will want to be diagnosed before it rears its ugly head because the initial onset is the worst you will experience.
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I associate my stuff separately, because the symptoms have been distinctly different for me. You can have anxiety with both. So there is some comorbidity.
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My psychiatrist says I have a highly complex chemistry to delicately iron out. Lol
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I've made huge risks before and big changes with little time to think on it. Irrational thinking. Impulsive decisions? But i dont know about the happy on drugs euphoria feeling. I dont think ive experienced that.
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I totally understand. After reading rachels comments i feel a lot better and have a sense of relief.
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Can someone please tell me if there are any other similar diagnosis to OCD I am convinced that I was misdiagnosed or that I miss spoke to the extent that I have made the provider who did my psych evaluation misdiagnose me with OCD. I have intrusive thoughts of suicide constantly. I have intrusive thoughts that cause me intense distress and disgust. I am constantly ruminating for hours on different situations and even crying as I type this because I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I feel like I’m not aligned in a prescriptive way with what OCD is. I am extremely frustrated. I just want to know what is wrong with me And there are so many things that I see within the OCD community that align with my experiences, but I feel like from conversations I’m having maybe I’m just anxious or a flawed person and I’m not saying that for reassurance I really feel that way I don’t know what else to do. This is a recent diagnosis so anyone who has felt this way or has similar diagnosis to OCD it would be great to hear from you. Thanks.
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Hello all, I don’t have insurance at the moment (lost eligibility due to me making more money, but not enough to afford medication and visits) and have been struggling a LOT. When I was going to therapy, I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 Disorder. I never got to expand on other mental health concerns I had and it bothers me that I can’t receive the proper advice that I need. If this is not allowed, I completely understand (and you may delete) but I figured I’d give this app a shot to get some clarification and knowledge on the topic. I experience MANY intrusive thoughts that destabilize my relationships and daily mood. I always pitched it to be my B2D symptoms, but the more I read into OCD or rather, Relationship OCD, I feel connected to others’ experiences. My boyfriend has been cheated on in the past—to such a bad degree, that it can be hard for him to trust me. I have never been cheated on nor have I ever thought cheating was okay, but I experience nearly daily intrusive thoughts that I am a horrible partner. Even worse yet, the intrusive thoughts often include overanalyzing my body language and making myself believe that I am somehow presenting myself in a way that would make men “like” me and therefore convincing my boyfriend that I am or will cheat on him if given the chance. It gets so bad that when my boyfriend questions an interaction I have with a dude, I freeze and become so panicked that I feel as though I am “giving away” that I did something wrong—even though I didn’t do anything at all. I am fiercely loyal to people in my life and could never imagine hurting anyone, so the very thought that I could “potentially” do this gnaws away at my social comfortability and self-confidence. I always feel as though I’m a horrible person and I am constantly trying to “make up” for something I didn’t even do. I’ll cry myself to sleep ruminating on every detail of the moment I had these thoughts or when I spoke to my boyfriend about it. It just haunts my thoughts honestly and makes socializing impossible nearly all the time. Eye contact has been a huge problem for me lately even—as if eye contact seals the deal on me being an “unfaithful” partner. Or laughing! Because if I show any sort of interest in the conversation—no matter how respectful and short it is—I believe it’ll spiral into my boyfriend leaving me (which is completely ridiculous and not true!) It’s almost like imposter syndrome in a way—because I feel as though no amount of reassurance or truth that I am a kind, loyal girlfriend, I will eventually ruin it anyway so I don’t deserve respect or affirmations. And it’s not even just with my boyfriend. Friends I have lost in the past clutter my mind as well. I have constant guilt and regret over potentially being a horrible friend despite how hard I fought/fight to keep that person in my life. Honestly, it gets to a point now where I’m convinced I will mess up any form of relationship I have eventually so I suppress my feelings or thoughts that could potentially upset people or make them question if I am really valuable in their life (often I can feel detached from people while being physically present with them because I get so lost in my head about what-ifs or where to look or if I’m causing someone to feel uncomfortable or that what they are or I’m saying isn’t satisfying the “ideal” friendship) . I let people walk all over me, deal with uncomfortable settings to avoid conflict and struggle to assert myself or have any sense of who I truly am with other people. It has put such a strain on me and my relationships, especially my best friend and my boyfriend and I’s relationships—which hold highest priority in my life at the moment. It can be hard to “let go” of people because it’s just another person who I have failed—including my own family members whom have definitely given reason for me to be not close with them. I also struggle with perfectionism and order during “stressful” situations, to the point where I will put myself into an anxiety episode over the simplest changes, unexpected accidents or things not going to plan. Again, this could very well be a symptom of Bipolar, but it truly causes me to blow situations WAY out of proportion and convince myself that I will never resolve it or make things better unless I can set it exactly how it was supposed to be in my head. The executive dysfunction is real on that one…To some, it could be procrastination. Or even just my cycles rapidly changing. But it affects my outlook on most things—financial matters, relationships, responsibilities, hygiene, cleaning. I can go from having complete confidence in doing something, to being doubtful that I could even get myself to get out of bed because I know I won’t do what I need/want to do. Sometimes I’ll even elaborately plan a course of action the day before and then when the time comes to do it, I lose control of my will to do it due to my intrusive thoughts. I do NOT expect anyone to “diagnose” me and I’m not sway the audience into agreeing with me in any way. I truly only want to hear your experiences, and if you also struggle to differentiate if you’ve been properly diagnosed or have overlapping symptoms that you can relate in some way. I want to better understand OCD and possibly connect with people who have had the same experiences. I appreciate any feedback—as long as it’s beneficial to this discussion and helping anyone else who struggle with the same thoughts—or even struggling to identify yourself or afford treatment! I just am curious, and honestly needed to have a platform to express some deep stuff I haven’t really discussed with anyone else besides my boyfriend. Thank yall for reading/listening regardless!
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Hey, so idk if I have ocd, I would like to think I’m a very self aware person but I don’t wanna self diagnose at all, lmk what you guys think. So pretty much my whole life since I was young I remember having irrational fears im sure it was all trauma induced but when I was a kid I thought my father was poisoning me until I asked him, he started crying and was so shocked that I could ever even think that, my parents broke up when I was legit fresh out the womb, mom worked two jobs and disciplined me, dad let me do whatever on the weekends and got me snacks so I was obsessed with him so obsessed that it was mandatory for me to kiss his picture 20x everyday before school. Growing up I always felt followed by cameras or like someone out there was recording me waiting for me to do something embarrassing to expose me in front of the whole world and my life was over 🤣🤣 I thought my abusive ex bf was stalking me through my I phone camera after we broke up and it would truly stress me out, it made me believe that it was the reason he never reached out again bc I probably looked ugly in the camera he was stalking me through. If I fall out with a friend Ill over analyze everything to see if I did anything wrong and god forbid while I’m self reflecting I realize I did something wrong I feel like an evil person, verbatim the people I fall out with is bc they’ve done me wrong in some way and it has to b something hurtful or repeated mistakes for me to really stay away for good, so I’ll beat myself up for making mistakes with another person who’s made the same amount of mistakes if not more and in most cases I always fall short, and this when I question if it’s ocd or I’m just to self aware and see the ugly in me bc I’m not perfect and it’s just makes me feel so unsettled but again that’s a normal feeling and the next step is to forgive yourself and do better moving forward, not obsess over it like your trying to convince yourself you’re a good person. I’m also hot tempered and will say hurtful things when I’m mad I’m definitely a crash out in the way, you push my bottoms way too many times and I will shred you, and I’ll say things ik will hurt you and that’s just so low, then the anger goes away and I have to face the guilt, which makes my “ocd” 100x worse, it almost feels like I have to do everything right to not trigger it yet again I don’t have the self control to do it all right, I actually have a lot bpd tendencies again not diagnosing but I’m just trying to understand my brain. I worry about dying, getting a terminal illness. uti turning into kidney infection then into cancer kind of thing, knowing that life in general can b tragic is so scary to me, like what will be my story? What will be my life experience?. I believe that people see right through me and discuss it amongst each other, I always tell myself I am not that important but I can’t seem to shake it off sometimes. When I would break up with my ex I would have pre written paragraphs ready to b send if he ever decided to reach back and I would do this to make sure I didn’t forget a single thought, that every point i felt I need to prove was there, and that bothers me bc do I want win an argument or fix the issue. All of these feelings make me feel so pathetic and embarrassed people move on with their lives and I’m still stuck on something that happened 3 yrs ago. Then I’ll get manic get a tattoo, change my hair, go out clubbing do what I can to b the sexy young girl that I am and it helps in the moment but it worsens my mental after the euphoria is gone. I’m currently staying home, not going out, have only 1 friend so I feel like ocd progressively got worse now, I don’t remember it getting this bad in a while. lmk what you guys think don’t judge or think I’m embarrassing I’m actually so cool and if have to convince you I’m cool I will LMFAOO no but fr help
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