Please forgive me for posting so much but I feel like Im going to explode, I just dont see a way out of the mess I put myself in. I ruminated and paid attention to my thoughts so much in the last 5 months and now im deeply confused, like im losing brain cells here wtf. I dont see a point in ocd therapy bc I think Im just gay and always have been just never noticed it before ocd, theres so much little proof for it and when I add it up it all makes sense. But I cant sit still for 5 minutes with these anxious and delressive feelings they are overwhelming me. What do I do guys : (