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exactly how i feel š
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It's hard but we've got this! šŖ
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Itās interesting you say this, because I am always super focused on my interactions with other people, whether itās in person or texting!!! Am I saying something wrong, am I doing something wrong, weāre any past messages wrong? Everything is about the fear of if I ever cheated on my husband... Even is an interaction is innocent, my mind can doubt it and make it guilty..... Iām trying to use the methods from Dr.Michael Greenburg regarding rumination.... I have never had this issue before having OCD!
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Wow just hearing this makes me realise a lot about myself and how I have been feeling!! Thank you for sharing š¤
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I can massively relate to this I have always had a fear of being abandoned due to parental abandonment as a child. And since the start of my relationship I had always been scared they may leave and as soon as I accepted they wouldnāt the OCD started
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Glad to know I'm not alone! Thanks for sharing.
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Interestingly enough when I look back at previous relationships I always left because I felt like they were getting to close and therefore may leave. Whereas this time Iāve made an active effort to stay and not get scared which I think has brought up this servere episode of OCD. Because my brain is trying to convince me that Iām in danger of being abandoned so I should therefore leave.
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Exactly. It's our brain's way of trying to protect us from potential hurt.
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@Anonymous My problem is I feel almost scared by the amount of time Iāve spent in my head. I have looked back so deeply on my past that things have come up that I wish I hadnāt found but find it impossible to ignore.
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@allienease I was left by my ex boyfriend and after that I have had the worst rocd and hocd came back so bad when I found myself in a healthy relationship.
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@Anonymous exactly how i feel. itās just so scary cus iām afraid itās real sometimes, even though itās nott
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Iāve got to a point where Iāve gone through my past memories so much to find evidence of being gay. And obviously if anyone went that deep they could find āsomeā evidence. And my brain has just stuck to it and said Iāve got no choice but to be gay. Like I will have intercourse with my girlfriend and the moment I enjoy it the āwhat Ifā questions kick in and then it just makes the whole thing feel weird. Because surely I shouldnāt be thinking that? I donāt know how long I can go on like this because I feel like Iām leading her on even contemplating being gay?
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Thatās the problem for people with OCD! If we go and ruminate and look for evidence, yes we may find something that we end up taking and making it into a big deal but any other normal person would find no problem with it.... But for us, the more we go looking the more we overanalyze and just make stuff up and keep asking more and more questions over things that probabaly arenāt a big deal!!!
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I understand so much! I am even scared of looking good or to dress up a little more, because If someone happens to like me i would feel like it's my fault, for my behaviour and for my appearance, making me feel like a cheater. I always feel like it's my fault when i see someone having even the slightest interest in me, like i'm the one who is hitting on them.
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I just donāt know how I can go back from this now? Does that make sense? Like how can I make myself content in my relationship like I was before hand. Because before this OCD episode I didnāt question any of this at all.
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I understand what you mean! I have ROCD as well as many other themes... We have to try to practice stopping rumination! It sucks because things I use to do previously I never found a big deal, and now I consider it a big deal or cheating.... OCD is so stupid itās rediculous
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Currently I have several different OCD fears that pop up throughout the week depending on the situation. I've noticed a commonality between all of them are the fears relating to memory/false memory. Today is the ROCD struggle I've been dealing with. I know OCD has been trying this on me lately because of how much I love my spouse. They are my absolute best friend and she's my world. I value our marriage and friendship more than anything. OCD has latched onto one specific female coworker. And I don't even know why because even if I were single I wouldn't be into her. Even still, OCD makes me think I've cheated on my wife every time I'm alone with this coworker at work. Always starts as a what if, followed by imagery, followed by feelings that I must've actually done something and can't remember it. Usually fearing I've kissed her. It hurts because I know I'd never do that to my wife and I love her so much...the idea of losing her kills me, especially if it were the result of something I did. Just wanted to vent. Feel free to share your experiences or vents as well
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Hey guys so I have been suffering with sexual ocd due to the fact that I donāt feel that romantic spark with him anymore, I love him and I know I do but I get to much in my thoughts thinking about why canāt I feel that anymore what has changed what if I donāt wanna be with anymore Iāve been with him for 4 years and at first I think it was ROCD but now I started thinking what if Iām into girls now Iāve always been the type to say oh a girl is so pretty or I like this about her but now I feel like every time I see a girl Iām like do I see myself in a relationship with her oh sheās pretty oh I like her voice do I find it attractive and sometimes I do !!! Which is killing me I feel disgust thinking about because what if I secretly am no shame to people who are my sister herself is but I just feel wierd because I wanna be with my husband and feel happy there not with a girl and feel like a man because I see myself in the mirrior and Iām like do I myself being a man do I look lesbian? Do I act lesbian or bi? What if secretly I wanna be a man or I imagine myself being a man in a relationship with a pretty girl and idk what to think
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I have experienced every theme that can be added to post but Iām currently experiencing those. So I am on the spectrum and I happen to have a high sensory profile and it definitely gives the ocd more to latch unto. I would see a pretty female with makeup done and it eatssss and I would notice the facial symmetry + how her features compliment each other and my ocd would be like why did you notice she is pretty, BECAUSE I HAVE EYESš! I canāt be the only neurodivergent person that notices details and how attractive people are intensely? I do not even care about orientation but I know for sure if I was into women, it wonāt just start plaguing me one evening Im my head shouting āyou are gayā like man Im a female at least say you are a lesbian ššššš. How can I genuinely have no interest and get outrightly repulsed by females sexually and romantically. It feels like I am being forced to be something im not. I tried accepting i am lesbian but I experienced more anxiety and could not sleep till I accepted i am still straight and it is ocd playing with me(ocd leave me alone, I donāt even enjoy playing with you) I accepted i am a lesbian like ocd said I should but why do I still love my ex and hope I marry himš + I couldnāt bring myself to be interested in females. OCD leave me alone because I donāt enjoy this game again! Iām not homophobic at all but denouncing Im straight doesnāt feel like home and I still find myself yearning for only men
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