My OCD has me convinced that if someone and I, male or female, get along that we will fall in love and that will betray my husband. I overanalyze interactions with others. I believe my hocd and rocd stem from fear of losing my partner. I also have an anxious attachment style and anxiety runs in my family so it makes perfect sense that I would have OCD.

exactly how i feel 💔

It’s interesting you say this, because I am always super focused on my interactions with other people, whether it’s in person or texting!!! Am I saying something wrong, am I doing something wrong, we’re any past messages wrong? Everything is about the fear of if I ever cheated on my husband... Even is an interaction is innocent, my mind can doubt it and make it guilty..... I’m trying to use the methods from Dr.Michael Greenburg regarding rumination.... I have never had this issue before having OCD!

Wow just hearing this makes me realise a lot about myself and how I have been feeling!! Thank you for sharing 🤍

I can massively relate to this I have always had a fear of being abandoned due to parental abandonment as a child. And since the start of my relationship I had always been scared they may leave and as soon as I accepted they wouldn’t the OCD started

Interestingly enough when I look back at previous relationships I always left because I felt like they were getting to close and therefore may leave. Whereas this time I’ve made an active effort to stay and not get scared which I think has brought up this servere episode of OCD. Because my brain is trying to convince me that I’m in danger of being abandoned so I should therefore leave.

I’ve got to a point where I’ve gone through my past memories so much to find evidence of being gay. And obviously if anyone went that deep they could find “some” evidence. And my brain has just stuck to it and said I’ve got no choice but to be gay. Like I will have intercourse with my girlfriend and the moment I enjoy it the “what If” questions kick in and then it just makes the whole thing feel weird. Because surely I shouldn’t be thinking that? I don’t know how long I can go on like this because I feel like I’m leading her on even contemplating being gay?

I understand so much! I am even scared of looking good or to dress up a little more, because If someone happens to like me i would feel like it's my fault, for my behaviour and for my appearance, making me feel like a cheater. I always feel like it's my fault when i see someone having even the slightest interest in me, like i'm the one who is hitting on them.

I just don’t know how I can go back from this now? Does that make sense? Like how can I make myself content in my relationship like I was before hand. Because before this OCD episode I didn’t question any of this at all.