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- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
exactly how i feel đź’”
It's hard but we've got this! đź’Ş
It’s interesting you say this, because I am always super focused on my interactions with other people, whether it’s in person or texting!!! Am I saying something wrong, am I doing something wrong, we’re any past messages wrong? Everything is about the fear of if I ever cheated on my husband... Even is an interaction is innocent, my mind can doubt it and make it guilty..... I’m trying to use the methods from Dr.Michael Greenburg regarding rumination.... I have never had this issue before having OCD!
Wow just hearing this makes me realise a lot about myself and how I have been feeling!! Thank you for sharing 🤍
I can massively relate to this I have always had a fear of being abandoned due to parental abandonment as a child. And since the start of my relationship I had always been scared they may leave and as soon as I accepted they wouldn’t the OCD started
Glad to know I'm not alone! Thanks for sharing.
Interestingly enough when I look back at previous relationships I always left because I felt like they were getting to close and therefore may leave. Whereas this time I’ve made an active effort to stay and not get scared which I think has brought up this servere episode of OCD. Because my brain is trying to convince me that I’m in danger of being abandoned so I should therefore leave.
Exactly. It's our brain's way of trying to protect us from potential hurt.
@Anonymous My problem is I feel almost scared by the amount of time I’ve spent in my head. I have looked back so deeply on my past that things have come up that I wish I hadn’t found but find it impossible to ignore.
@allienease I was left by my ex boyfriend and after that I have had the worst rocd and hocd came back so bad when I found myself in a healthy relationship.
@Anonymous exactly how i feel. it’s just so scary cus i’m afraid it’s real sometimes, even though it’s nott
I’ve got to a point where I’ve gone through my past memories so much to find evidence of being gay. And obviously if anyone went that deep they could find “some” evidence. And my brain has just stuck to it and said I’ve got no choice but to be gay. Like I will have intercourse with my girlfriend and the moment I enjoy it the “what If” questions kick in and then it just makes the whole thing feel weird. Because surely I shouldn’t be thinking that? I don’t know how long I can go on like this because I feel like I’m leading her on even contemplating being gay?
That’s the problem for people with OCD! If we go and ruminate and look for evidence, yes we may find something that we end up taking and making it into a big deal but any other normal person would find no problem with it.... But for us, the more we go looking the more we overanalyze and just make stuff up and keep asking more and more questions over things that probabaly aren’t a big deal!!!
I understand so much! I am even scared of looking good or to dress up a little more, because If someone happens to like me i would feel like it's my fault, for my behaviour and for my appearance, making me feel like a cheater. I always feel like it's my fault when i see someone having even the slightest interest in me, like i'm the one who is hitting on them.
I just don’t know how I can go back from this now? Does that make sense? Like how can I make myself content in my relationship like I was before hand. Because before this OCD episode I didn’t question any of this at all.
I understand what you mean! I have ROCD as well as many other themes... We have to try to practice stopping rumination! It sucks because things I use to do previously I never found a big deal, and now I consider it a big deal or cheating.... OCD is so stupid it’s rediculous
Does anyone with ROCD, POCD and Sexual Orientation OCD (HOCD) ever fear they will never be in a stable marriage or a relationship in general due to their fears or because their OCD may ruin it? My biggest fear is that I will never be in a stable, committed or a normal relationship due to this horrible disorder.
struggling with this theme currently. i am worried that i am secretly a lesbian and i am just leading my boyfriend on because i like his attention. i don't think this is actually true as i do truly love my boyfriend, but i'm worried anyways. my ocd is making me question if my love for him is romantic or just platonic.
Hi guys! I believe I have an OCD since I was around 12. I remember then I had a lot of intrusive thoughts about religious things and I had a counting compulsion (I thought that If I don't count to 8 in specific moments, someone gets hurt) During later years it was really changing - I stopped being religious, so the OCD theme also stopped. Then I had I reckon SOCD, harm OCD and many others. But for know my main topic is ROCD. But because of the fact that this is my main intrusive thoughts topic I start to have this awful thoughts that this is not OCD, I'm just with the wrong person and I need to accept this fact. This is really struggling for me, because i really love my bf and Im in the healthy realtionship but Im so tired of having this kind of thoughts, sometimes I cannot sleep because of them. Also the fact that I've never been diagnosed (I cannot go on theraphy right now unfortunately) is another trigger because I have thoughts that I dont really have OCD, I just making this up, because I cannot accept the truth. Is there someone with similar experiance? Or maybe someone who can have advice for me?
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