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Thank you. Everyday though I feel like im arguing with my brain and all my brain tells me is that I want to do it and now whenever I ask myself I don’t even know anymore. All my brain thinks about is the sexual side of it. I could never hurt a baby but this is so convincing. I know if I really wanted to I would’ve by now, but I can’t cope with this uncertainty
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OCD will often target your root fear in the most depraved ways, because it's TRYING to get your get attention. If you ignore it usually but respond when it brings up images of assaulting children, naturally it's going to do it more. The thing to explore (with a therapist, ideally) is why this is such a big fear for you. If you did end up hurting a child, what would you believe about yourself? What are you afraid will happen? You probably engage in compulsions regarding that fear in lots of ways, but this is the only way your brain can get you to listen.
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I’ve had thoughts like this before. How I beat it is that I think “Oh, that random thought again, with that weird reaction. You do you body, I’ll do me.” Think of it as a guy having an erection for no reason. It happens to all of them, and it can even happen with us women. The body doesn’t mean to, it’s just OCD sending false signals.
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Hi, thank you for that. It’s just the thoughts that scare me the most. I guess cause I’m sexual and I’m insecure about myself in that way
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Yeah I have this problem with hocd and it kills me cause I've always wanted to have a wife. And now I have a beautiful girlfriend the love of my life but I still battle these thoughts daily. I'm on that same boat where my brain is sending me these thoughts of me doing gay stuff and it kills me and I hate it. What sucks more is that at times it's very convincing but in the bottom of my heart I know I'm only straight no matter how much OCD tries to convince me otherwise.
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I have a little sexican brain myself. I’ve used outlets for it before, with sex toys myself, but trust me, OCD is just confusing your body.
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Thanks guys. I feel like this may have rooted from when I was a child and I sexually explored by humping my baby doll. I know that I would never hurt a baby in reality for my pleasure cause that’s wrong, but I just feel like my mind tricks me :(
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We do crazy things as babies. I might have kissed my cousin when I was a tot, and my nephew has touched himself in front of the fam. Apparently it’s normal, which weirded me out.
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It is very normal as children we are curious. But they thiughts are so hard it really feels like I want to do it when in reality I know I wouldn’t want to
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I understand completely. I research stuff a lot and finding the right info helps.
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I just wish I could be hypnotised so I don’t have these thoughts anymore. I feel like such a fucked up person
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Same. Learning to let them flow is really hard, because OCD tortures you on the side
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Yep and I feel guilty for dismissing the thoughts because I feel like they’re so bad and apart of me now
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Agree with everything in this thread. Sooo much of this has happened to me. It’s the feeling of “do I want this?” That is the worst. For me, it comes in a quick flash, forcing me to ruminate even more
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Though it might be a compulsion in itself sometimes.
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As much as it is a compulsion me searching stuff like is it normal for a child to do this etc has reassured me so much
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Indeed.
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I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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I want to go do something I enjoy so badly but I feel like I don’t deserve it. I’m full of guilt, shame, and anxiety. I wish I felt okay like I did a few days ago. I feel so awful right now. I hate OCD. I HATE pocd. I hate all of it. I wish this was easier. Sometimes I have the thought that I wish I was the things my OCD makes me afraid I am out of desperation to stop the anxiety, but then that thought makes me panic bc I don’t actually mean that or want that I just want the anxiety and urgency in the compulsions to stop. I’m so tired
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