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Thank you. Everyday though I feel like im arguing with my brain and all my brain tells me is that I want to do it and now whenever I ask myself I don’t even know anymore. All my brain thinks about is the sexual side of it. I could never hurt a baby but this is so convincing. I know if I really wanted to I would’ve by now, but I can’t cope with this uncertainty
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OCD will often target your root fear in the most depraved ways, because it's TRYING to get your get attention. If you ignore it usually but respond when it brings up images of assaulting children, naturally it's going to do it more. The thing to explore (with a therapist, ideally) is why this is such a big fear for you. If you did end up hurting a child, what would you believe about yourself? What are you afraid will happen? You probably engage in compulsions regarding that fear in lots of ways, but this is the only way your brain can get you to listen.
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I’ve had thoughts like this before. How I beat it is that I think “Oh, that random thought again, with that weird reaction. You do you body, I’ll do me.” Think of it as a guy having an erection for no reason. It happens to all of them, and it can even happen with us women. The body doesn’t mean to, it’s just OCD sending false signals.
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Hi, thank you for that. It’s just the thoughts that scare me the most. I guess cause I’m sexual and I’m insecure about myself in that way
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Yeah I have this problem with hocd and it kills me cause I've always wanted to have a wife. And now I have a beautiful girlfriend the love of my life but I still battle these thoughts daily. I'm on that same boat where my brain is sending me these thoughts of me doing gay stuff and it kills me and I hate it. What sucks more is that at times it's very convincing but in the bottom of my heart I know I'm only straight no matter how much OCD tries to convince me otherwise.
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I have a little sexican brain myself. I’ve used outlets for it before, with sex toys myself, but trust me, OCD is just confusing your body.
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Thanks guys. I feel like this may have rooted from when I was a child and I sexually explored by humping my baby doll. I know that I would never hurt a baby in reality for my pleasure cause that’s wrong, but I just feel like my mind tricks me :(
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We do crazy things as babies. I might have kissed my cousin when I was a tot, and my nephew has touched himself in front of the fam. Apparently it’s normal, which weirded me out.
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It is very normal as children we are curious. But they thiughts are so hard it really feels like I want to do it when in reality I know I wouldn’t want to
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I understand completely. I research stuff a lot and finding the right info helps.
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I just wish I could be hypnotised so I don’t have these thoughts anymore. I feel like such a fucked up person
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Same. Learning to let them flow is really hard, because OCD tortures you on the side
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Yep and I feel guilty for dismissing the thoughts because I feel like they’re so bad and apart of me now
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Agree with everything in this thread. Sooo much of this has happened to me. It’s the feeling of “do I want this?” That is the worst. For me, it comes in a quick flash, forcing me to ruminate even more
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Though it might be a compulsion in itself sometimes.
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As much as it is a compulsion me searching stuff like is it normal for a child to do this etc has reassured me so much
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Indeed.
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- 24w
Today has been really hard I feel like I can’t even breathe I feel like a pedo for real :( whenever i think during my alone time i try and coexist with it? but when i decided to think and think i panic and panic more and more i start feel more guilty guys I can’t take this anymore bc when I kinda feel certain it fades aways i think logically i know i probably am ok :( but it’s so scary for me what if i did actually act on the thought and I didn’t realize? And now reflecting it ???
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Worried about situation that happened with nephew new memory or not idk I'm scared Worried about situation that happened with nephew I'm so scared when I was holding my nephew I thought " I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him" ( not the exact words don't want to be extremely graphic) I began to bump him like how people bump babies on their hips he was on my stomach cuz that's how he was handed to me. Now I fear I remember also thinking if his diaper would stimulate his private part or something like that IDK LIKE I FEEL LIKE I REMEMBER THINKING THAT BUT ALSO DON'T??? LIKE O FEEL LIKE maybe I thought this at a different time for whatever weird reason but then I'm scared that it makes sense it would happen when I held him. Does it change the situation?????I feel extremely sick because I don't know why I would think that or if it was my brain or me. Idk if it was or wasn't cuz I felt his diaper against me? Was I curious if it would? It feels like I was curious but wth why???Was it just something weird I thought? Am I actually a monster? I had been having disturbing thoughts I'm pretty sure that were related to my POCD in general for a while before that. Ik my nephew didn't get hurt but I'm so scared why would I do something like that I feel so sick and disgusted. I know away from that situation I have no sexual interest or attraction towards him I'm just so freaked out and disgusted. I don't wanna be a bad person and I don't want my worst fear to be true.
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Hey guys today I just wanted to come here and share an experience I have and I generally don't know what to do I feel like a terrible person for having these thoughts and for thinking them I genuinely don't know what to do I don't know the signs behind it and why I think the way I do but it's honestly driving me crazy I don't know what to do I have a pornography addiction for a long time it's where it's like anytime I'm an intimate moment or am masturbating my head just thinks these weird things always the same repetitive thoughts to of family members your younger sibling or a young child I myself am a 17 year old and I feel so disgusted I feel like I can't live my life anymore I feel like I'm a criminal cuz like it feels like I chose this these thoughts like I actively think them I don't know the signs behind it and I just really need professional help if there's any like therapist here that could fill me in that would be nice I would also like to know if you guys had any similar experiences because for me I feel like I have to rewatch pornography and do it right without the thoughts cuz I feel like the thoughts are just like to prevalent anytime I do anything related to masturbation why do I think this way I'm also just trying to be as honest as I can with this I'm not trying to make myself I guess a victim I'm trying to hold myself accountable if I actually am like this because I also have doubts in my head that tells me that I enjoy these things I feel like I'm going crazy someone help because it feels so real like I acted on them or that I was pleasuring myself to the thoughts and not towards the video it's just how can I live with myself you know also during it it felt like I was thinking the thought for a long period of time like it was dominating my head so I couldn't focus it felt l
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