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Thank you. Everyday though I feel like im arguing with my brain and all my brain tells me is that I want to do it and now whenever I ask myself I don’t even know anymore. All my brain thinks about is the sexual side of it. I could never hurt a baby but this is so convincing. I know if I really wanted to I would’ve by now, but I can’t cope with this uncertainty
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OCD will often target your root fear in the most depraved ways, because it's TRYING to get your get attention. If you ignore it usually but respond when it brings up images of assaulting children, naturally it's going to do it more. The thing to explore (with a therapist, ideally) is why this is such a big fear for you. If you did end up hurting a child, what would you believe about yourself? What are you afraid will happen? You probably engage in compulsions regarding that fear in lots of ways, but this is the only way your brain can get you to listen.
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I’ve had thoughts like this before. How I beat it is that I think “Oh, that random thought again, with that weird reaction. You do you body, I’ll do me.” Think of it as a guy having an erection for no reason. It happens to all of them, and it can even happen with us women. The body doesn’t mean to, it’s just OCD sending false signals.
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Hi, thank you for that. It’s just the thoughts that scare me the most. I guess cause I’m sexual and I’m insecure about myself in that way
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Yeah I have this problem with hocd and it kills me cause I've always wanted to have a wife. And now I have a beautiful girlfriend the love of my life but I still battle these thoughts daily. I'm on that same boat where my brain is sending me these thoughts of me doing gay stuff and it kills me and I hate it. What sucks more is that at times it's very convincing but in the bottom of my heart I know I'm only straight no matter how much OCD tries to convince me otherwise.
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I have a little sexican brain myself. I’ve used outlets for it before, with sex toys myself, but trust me, OCD is just confusing your body.
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Thanks guys. I feel like this may have rooted from when I was a child and I sexually explored by humping my baby doll. I know that I would never hurt a baby in reality for my pleasure cause that’s wrong, but I just feel like my mind tricks me :(
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We do crazy things as babies. I might have kissed my cousin when I was a tot, and my nephew has touched himself in front of the fam. Apparently it’s normal, which weirded me out.
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It is very normal as children we are curious. But they thiughts are so hard it really feels like I want to do it when in reality I know I wouldn’t want to
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I understand completely. I research stuff a lot and finding the right info helps.
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I just wish I could be hypnotised so I don’t have these thoughts anymore. I feel like such a fucked up person
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Same. Learning to let them flow is really hard, because OCD tortures you on the side
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Yep and I feel guilty for dismissing the thoughts because I feel like they’re so bad and apart of me now
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Agree with everything in this thread. Sooo much of this has happened to me. It’s the feeling of “do I want this?” That is the worst. For me, it comes in a quick flash, forcing me to ruminate even more
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Though it might be a compulsion in itself sometimes.
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As much as it is a compulsion me searching stuff like is it normal for a child to do this etc has reassured me so much
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Indeed.
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I’m struggling so bad. I actually started getting better but now my thoughts are back. I feel like I can’t do anything, watch a movie “oh you’re turned on by that”, go out shopping “oh you’re trying to look pretty for her”. Like what???? My brain just won’t stop!!!!!! It’s making me so depressed, I just feel like I’m about to lose it. I’m happily married, and absolutely in love with my husband. But my brain keeps saying “you’re gay! You’re bi” whatever. I’m so tired guys, I feel so alone, and this has been going on for months…
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Hey yall, having a tough time. I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts while I self pleasure and it GENUIENLY feels like I enjoy them for whatever reason. And then now about half an hour later it’s like okay it’s a sexual thought but I might not actually like it. Idk I just really hate myself, because I basically genuinely liked it in the moment
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TW! please someone comment When I was 12 or 13 I used to babysit a little girl, she had a habit of keeping her hand in her diaper and was always touching herself, there was one point I was changing her diaper and noticed she was really red. I had separated her private parts and checked the inner area for signs of infection. She was okay, just some really really bad diaper rash. I know this is what happened yet my brain is trying to convince me that I hurt her, and that I wanted to do it, I know I would never hurt a child but with all the anxiety I feel when I think about it I'm starting to wonder if I did do it because I wanted to hurt her, I don't wanna be a p, I don't wanna hurt innocent children, I used to never have these thoughts but now I do and I'm so scared to tell my therapist as she hasn't diagnosed me with ocd yet. I don't want her to think I'm a p nor do I wanna hurt kids, but my brain keeps telling me that I do and that I'm just lying to myself and everyone around me, ik I would never do something that could harm a child but I keep getting these thoughts and their inappropriate and I just want them to stop, does anyone have any tips on how to help myself? I keep turning to my boyfriend for reassurance but ik that that's just a quick fix and that ill be spiraling about it again.Please help
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