I don’t know if I have anxiety or OCD but I’m sick of feeling so stressed and so guilty all the time. Like that’s all I feel these days. There was a girl that killed a biker by my school and 1 I was worried that I did it and forgot. 2 I was so stressed about thinking of her side and how she felt that I was sick the rest of the day. I don’t know how to control this either it sucks.

I think a big part of OCD is we are extremely empathetic, almost to a fault. We feel things much deeper than other people. You heard about something tragic and you immediately felt the need to soothe yourself and now you’re stuck in rumination

This sounds awful and I’m sorry you have to go through that. One of the most important lessons at the OCD Institute was the concept of “unhealthy guilt” and how to spot it. A rule of thumb is to ask yourself the question - is this issue out of my control? In this case, it is out of your control, so you know it’s unhealthy guilt. You may still feel terrible, but the best thing to do is to sit with that anxiety and try to focus on something else. Hopefully this helps

I think that actually shows a lot of quality about your character, having understanding for the perpetrator. It was probably and extremely traumatic and horrifying experience for her. Maybe you can pray for her if you are a spiritual person. And your control in this situation is to try to not figure it out. You won’t be able to figure it out, and if you stop trying you’ll be able to see it more logically in the future. But even if it was you that actually did it, you should give yourself the same compassion you have for that girl. People make mistakes. It doesn’t mean we are horrible human beings. Unfortunately our society tends to make us believe otherwise a lot of the times because people jump to conclusions and are harsh and judgemental.