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- 3y
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For me, I’ve never been able to figure it out for sure but since going through treatment I’m like yea that probably didn’t happen it’s not very logical. So yes I would say it’s similar to other themes, for example I don’t know for sure that I don’t have some extremely rare horrible disease but I don’t worry about it now because it’s like I probably don’t and if I do I’ll deal with it later.
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- 3y
I think this is sooo hard with ROCD and false memory. Im really struggling because i dont want it to affect my relationship thats been actually going pretty well. Im not sure if you struggle with any other theme but did you also notice that when big things happen or good things it worsens the OCD? Like moving, getting a new place, new car, marriage, engagement …
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- 3y
hello hun! it’s very unlikely. the harshness of false memory is that you’re more likely to not remember if it truly happened or not. the doubting so much causes the actual event to be so foggy that your mind is so confused. false memory is my biggest theme and i’m going through an episode right now. to tackle this horrible theme, accepting the thoughts and trying to move on is the best way to get through this. you got this!
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- 3y
I only ask because a lot of my themes become easier for me to handle after ERP to a point where i can distinguish between what I really want and not. Just thought and was joking false memory may be the same for people after treatment
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- 3y
Oh yea big changes affect OCD for sure. I’ve struggled with almost every OCD theme, but overtime they all have gotten better, I’m sure the amount of time is different for everyone but with ERP my more recent ones have gotten better faster. I try not to think too much about the future and take everything day by day, that has also helped me a lot.
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- 3y
I agree with the logical part. You later realize it’s not really logical. But for me I’m going through a really hard one due to my medicine and doctor changes. I changed my antipsychotics 3 times and tried to change my antidepressants in the middle. In my mind, the frequent changes in medication, change in doctor, and my frustration and anger towards it all has made me believe I must have snapped and done the two memories that I feel sure about. It’s really hard for me right now and I feel suicidal daily. I feel really alone and I keep blaming myself. I know I changed doctors because I thought it would make me better, and I know I changed meds bc my doctor told me to and it was all to make me better, but the thought of all that making me snap and do the things and really believing them despite my mom being there with me on that walk and despite my boyfriend being there on that second walk, makes me feel so terrible and I am not sure how to even move past this. My mind is like “instead of 2 triggers that you usually had there were like 4 this time so you must have snapped.”
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- 23w
Does anyone else’s false memory intrusive thoughts of what could have happened feel very, very real?
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- 22w
So. I was in a traumatic relationship. for a long time. it was filled with gaslighting, manipulation, abuse, cheating ect. I would OBSESS over finding out where they were, what they were doing, who they were talking too. but I couldn’t leave. I tried so hard but I never could. they would call me names, physically hurt me, throw things, break things. because I would question them all the time. but I just couldn’t leave. no matter what I knew. they would manipulate me. I fell for their childhood trauma. it’s like I lost all logic. but I also feel like I have a pretty good memory with memories. not all the way, but remembering a lot of the traumatic things. especially now that I’m no longer with them. I keep remembering things that’s happened. even from my childhood. one time way before I even started dating this person, I had an intrusive thought about a friend of mine. that was with me. and I freaked out. I thought I had acted on the intrusive thought the next day. I asked my friend for confirmation but they said nothing happened. but the memories about it feel SO REAL. so VIVID. but they swore that nothing happened and they had no idea what I was talking about. I’ve struggled with intrusive thoughts for my whole life. so fast forward to now, that ‘false memory’ from my friend randomly popped up and I started obsessing about it, and my childhood ‘memories’ that have popped up. and then I was reading an article of someone doing something horrible, and then it sounded ‘familiar’ and so then I’ve created this whole memory of me doing something similar to the article involving my partner doing it also. the memory keeps adding new things and conversations around it. when it involves an actual real memory. but it’s like it’s been twisted from what I remembered before. I also suffer from bad anxiety. I’ve stalked pictures. my search history to figure out what I was doing that say when the real event happened. and I’ve found some things but I can’t look through my texts because I got a new phone. it has been hounding me for months. MONTHS. trying to figure out if this new ‘memory’ is real or not. if it’s been fabricated by an intrusive thought from reading the article and thinking ‘what if’ or if it actually happened and because I’m no longer in this relationship it’s a ‘repressed memory’ but the thing is I have horrible horrible anxiety and I don’t think I could have gone this long knowingly that that happened without remembering it until now. because I remember a lot of the horrible things that they did. this ‘memory’ is fuzzy, but it brings me horrible anxiety when I think of it, like I feel like it happened. but I also feel like it didn’t happen. because I know I would never do anything like that. but WHAT IF I DID, because I was manipulated. idk. is this a false memory. I really need help. because it’s been debilitating. that relationship was really traumatic. and I got manipulated into a lot of things. but I wouldn’t have just went forward knowing that that happened??? there’s no way I could have just forgotten it. because before when I would think about that night it was different, until now. but what if I just made myself forget what truly happened?? I’m a pretty self aware individual, but somehow that relationship really REALLY put me into a trance somehow where I allowed things that I have no idea how I would even allow because before I met that person I would have never allowed someone to cheat on my constantly or talk to me the way they did. or allow abuse. like I don’t understand it.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 20w
Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD
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