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- bruxinha
- Date posted
- 3y ago
For me, I’ve never been able to figure it out for sure but since going through treatment I’m like yea that probably didn’t happen it’s not very logical. So yes I would say it’s similar to other themes, for example I don’t know for sure that I don’t have some extremely rare horrible disease but I don’t worry about it now because it’s like I probably don’t and if I do I’ll deal with it later.
I think this is sooo hard with ROCD and false memory. Im really struggling because i dont want it to affect my relationship thats been actually going pretty well. Im not sure if you struggle with any other theme but did you also notice that when big things happen or good things it worsens the OCD? Like moving, getting a new place, new car, marriage, engagement …
hello hun! it’s very unlikely. the harshness of false memory is that you’re more likely to not remember if it truly happened or not. the doubting so much causes the actual event to be so foggy that your mind is so confused. false memory is my biggest theme and i’m going through an episode right now. to tackle this horrible theme, accepting the thoughts and trying to move on is the best way to get through this. you got this!
I only ask because a lot of my themes become easier for me to handle after ERP to a point where i can distinguish between what I really want and not. Just thought and was joking false memory may be the same for people after treatment
Oh yea big changes affect OCD for sure. I’ve struggled with almost every OCD theme, but overtime they all have gotten better, I’m sure the amount of time is different for everyone but with ERP my more recent ones have gotten better faster. I try not to think too much about the future and take everything day by day, that has also helped me a lot.
I agree with the logical part. You later realize it’s not really logical. But for me I’m going through a really hard one due to my medicine and doctor changes. I changed my antipsychotics 3 times and tried to change my antidepressants in the middle. In my mind, the frequent changes in medication, change in doctor, and my frustration and anger towards it all has made me believe I must have snapped and done the two memories that I feel sure about. It’s really hard for me right now and I feel suicidal daily. I feel really alone and I keep blaming myself. I know I changed doctors because I thought it would make me better, and I know I changed meds bc my doctor told me to and it was all to make me better, but the thought of all that making me snap and do the things and really believing them despite my mom being there with me on that walk and despite my boyfriend being there on that second walk, makes me feel so terrible and I am not sure how to even move past this. My mind is like “instead of 2 triggers that you usually had there were like 4 this time so you must have snapped.”
Question for you guys, Those of you who suffer from HOCD or POCD and have vivid memories that contradict who you feel you are, how do you manage those memories? I had an OCD/anxiety attack that clinged on to the memories around me being curious after being bullied in school. My OCD keeps telling me that I enjoyed those experiences more than I should have. Even though it ended in tears and me knowing that that's not who I am, my OCD keeps telling me that it's an indication of my being gay or bi. I realize that some of those memories may be fake, but in the scope of acceptance of uncertainty let's assume that everything is right. My therapist tried to calm me down by saying that this is really normal and expected in young children and that it has nothing to do with who we are, especially since I was interested in girls and always fantasized about chased after them from a very young age.
Anyone else struggle with real event type OCD (OCD latches on to a real life situation you’ve experienced)? How can we know the difference between what actually happened and if it’s just my OCD making me feel like a horrible person? Specifically with harm/pedophile OCD. Anyone ever experienced this before?
Can someone tell me if you can get used to depersonalization/derealization? I don't remember what normal feels like so I doubt Ill ever feel like that again.
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