6756
- Date posted
- 3y
CluckyClucky
- Date posted
- 3y
Same subtype and thoughts as you š I think because the thoughts have a sort of philosophical bent and canāt be proven, we cling onto āwill I ever get over this?ā and āam I crazy?ā But rest assured, itās just a fear cycle like every other OCD subtype. Iād try to resist the urge to post about it or read up anything about it (this is my one off today š) set your phone aside for some time. I think when we search for answers or a solution to what weāre going through, weāre essentially just allowing the repetitive pattern to persist of confirming thereās danger and we need relief. And then we do it over and over with no result. Gotta start to break that cycle!
pamela97pamela97
- Date posted
- 3y
in my experience, i think that OCD can definitely feed into paranoia and make you feel crazy. but psychosis is a separate disorder, that involves hallucinations and delusions. existential anxiety can make you feel like you're losing touch with reality, but it is not the same thing as psychosis. when you feel you're in "crisis mode" i would suggest trying to get in contact with a therapist who can help you ASAP or even go to the hospital if that would give you peace of mind. i don't say this because you're in danger, but because it would help you feel better and get the help you need. it's also important to maintain a support system with people close to you, who can reliably help you through these periods.
67566756
- Date posted
- 3y
I sort of thought this but wasn't sure? Googling things aint the best either... yeh thats how I feel and not sure how to get rid of it? :(
pamela97pamela97
- Date posted
- 3y
@6756 google has a lot of conflicting information, and sometimes articles take things out of context in a way that would alarm someone who isn't familiar with the topic. i do google things as a compulsion as well, but try to keep this in mind any time i'm searching something. it is difficult to overcome existential anxiety, especially with OCD kind of perpetrating this cycle of "what if" questions. ironically, the best thing you can do is give yourself a break. i sometimes catch myself in a vicious cycle and think "eventually i have to stop and just live my life." the hard part of existential anxiety (and other types of OCD as well) is that there are no satisfactory answers. even if one question gets answered, you will find yourself asking another and/or doubting the answer you now have. understanding this is half the battle. that's why the only real way to beat OCD is to slowly learn to accept uncertainty.
67566756
- Date posted
- 3y
@pamela97 Yeh I see what u meen .... have you suffered with this yourself? Have you thought things "what if every single thing u can see, feel, hear and touch isn't real" "what makes it real" "how do I know that even the councillor/therapist isn't a figament of my imagination" etc etc? Is this existenal ocd? Thank u so much for talking and helping
pamela97pamela97
- Date posted
- 3y
@6756 yes i have struggled with those exact same thoughts before. i struggle with dissociation as well because i have PTSD, which makes it even worse. the best thing that helped me was realizing that i was stuck in this same thought pattern, driving myself crazy asking the same questions over and over, and realizing that i would never be satisfied by any answer. i just know if someone literally told me "yes this is real" it wouldn't make me feel any better, and i would probably just doubt it even more. and even if none of this is real, then all i can really do is continue to go along with it until something changes. driving myself crazy over it won't help anything.
67566756
- Date posted
- 3y
Yeh I know what u meen... has yours got alot better now then? Its sounds like you think exactly the same.. and I do try to think like that.. just the panic is sometimes overwhelming and then I even question that...like sometimes I even think "what if this is God doing this" etc... then really start to question if I'm going mad?
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