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I’ve had ROCD pop up a lot through various relationships. I didn’t know what it was though for quite some time. Once I recognized it and got treatment, things got much better and I feel like I have a much healthier view of love, relationships, and partnership. I am able to trust more, be a better partner, and form closer bonds with less anxiety. Treatment is key. Ocd is ocd no matter what the theme. Once you learn to treat one theme, it will help you live your entire life with more awareness.
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Ps I’m in a long term relationship and just bought a house with my partner. Keep your head up. Put in the work and the work pays off. Promise.
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@pureolife thank you for all the encouragement and your words, i just genuinely feel so confused and at a loss but if i give up i feel like i’d really regret it. so i’m genuinely trying all i can
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- 3y ago
Yes hello. My rocd has just started about a month or two ago. It was so bad that I ended up at a emergency psychiatric hospital. I was so alone and I felt so down. i also found out about rocd a month ago. It was amazing. I ofc had compulsions that were watching videos on rocd and reading about it. I couldn't sleep, eat, even be alive at that point I started to become suicidal as well but that was because I didn't see a way out I thought I was crazy and loosing it. I had a lot of panic attacks as well with which my mom helped me a lot with. Im now at a point that I can sleep! Omg I can't explain how nice that is. I can be with my partner without having a panic attack or even throwing up. Its the little things that matter. And remember love is a choice not a feeling. Feelings and thoughts constantly change. Stay hopeful.
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i’m very glad to hear that you’re able to sleep now, it’s just hard because at the end of the day i want the best for them and i worry if all these doubts and worries in my head are for a genuine reason, but thank you so much for the hope and reminding me that feelings and thoughts do constantly change. i needed that reminder truly.
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It will get better again! I struggled a lot with it for years but now having a pretty good time,at least for my rocd...not really sure what made the difference,I still have to start therapy...but I think understanding it and then telling myself it's ok not to find my partner the best and sexiest etc. All the time,that being afraid I don't love him is OCDand maybe also not thinking about the big word and m animg of love too much but just that I enjoy being with him in the moment my OCD is quiet...so in the moment I can quite enjoy my time with him again without always checking my feelings constantly...it's great,fight for that and if you can get help wo it doesn't take so long to get better I would say! You can do this!
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thank you so much for your optimism, i feel very confused at the moment but i still don’t want to give up. it feels like a constant fight with my brain but i know deep down i still want this, wishing you all the best for you and your relationship
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- 25w ago
Hey guys, I hope you’re well! My names Matt, and OCD has struck me again 😂 When I was 10 years old I had to attend therapy as I was having excessive intrusive thoughts. P.s. I didn’t even know this was possible at the age of 10! I then completely forgot about it, until 2.5 years ago when I started experiencing ROCD. I really couldn’t understand why I was feeling/thinking this way however, I soon after remembered my struggles as a child and then realised my OCD had returned. Also, my mum has serious OCD so I guess that could be why too. I had a a really hard battle with my emotions and mood due to this however, the last 1.5 years had been really good and I managed it well. I got married and had the best day of my life. 3 months ago, a thought about having an affair in my head appeared, and BOOM, it’s back again. I’m struggling a lot right now however, I’ve accepted that this could be a re occurring theme throughout my life, and it’s time to learn to deal with it again. I’m back on medication and have started ERP therapy, so hopefully it’s on the up from here. I’m not here to list off my triggers and thoughts as this would be me seeking reassurance however, I’m here to show that recovery is certainly possible!
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- 12w ago
back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.
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- 8w ago
Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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