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- 3y
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 3y
Ok so if u are gay or trans( which I doubt u are) , whats next? Are u just gonna come on the app and ask for help? Or are u gonna accept it and start getting better? In my opinion if u are so distressed about these thoughts that u are gay and or trans, then you probably aren’t. And when u look things up to prove that you are, your ocd picks everything and anything to use agaisnt u. Idk if u understand that OCD is in ur brain and has as much disposal to information as you. Its a disorder of uncertainty, u are worried abour being gay because u aren’t sure. Humans love control and to be certain, but when given uncertainty it causes fear and anxeity beccause we arent in control and when that becomes an obsrssion it becomes OCD
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- 3y
What I said arent even tocd symptoms, what am I gonna do? Im freaking out man, I want to cry
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
This is how ocd attacks! I think exposure therapy with NOCD or any other therapist would help. This is how it feels. Don’t let ocd take over your world. I have so many types- I have just started . It brought over my previous phobia attacks but did not bother me as much.
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How is this ocd?
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- 3y
Well, I want to be a woman but I can't stand a thought of not passing. I don't want to be transgender. I want to be a woman. I feel like shaming embarrassment but largely because I know that I can never actually be a woman. I can just be a person with either transgenderism gender dysphoria, maybe t OCD and the the feeling of being women doesn't even last for me. Want to be a man sometime to flip back and forth depending on the day how I'm feeling so who the heck knows. No matter what I choose, I'm going to feel shame and embarrassed either because I neglected to transition when I would have passed more earlier in life and could have transitioned earlier
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Bro u have OCD. Like plain and simple. Every symptom you have is OCD and you looking it up is just reassurance. The first step to u getting better is accepting u have OCD, if u dont accept it u cant even begin to try and get bbetter
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Bro, No, its not ocd, its literally not reassurance only works for people with ocd nothing has convinced me in months that I do have ocd, nothing! And I will go for a walk but Its not that what if im gay or trans, I think I am. Everything jn my head makes sense, and how ive been wrong about my sexuality and gender this whole time and through Hocd obsession I found my true self. This is just what my life is now, I dont know who to talk to or what to do.
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- 3y
@Imaan7 As someone who also has tocd, I can tell that you’re not trans. Reassurance does not actually convince people that they’re not trans. It only brings brief relief until the thoughts come back more distressing and frequently.
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@Owen Roberts I dont think this is tocd man, I dont know what it is. I believe Im just trans and never understood what being an actual Man actually felt like up until this hit me and the thought that im a woman and doing things with men seems to arouse me, I cant see men as just men my brain is percieveing them as sexual and romantic beings and it feels like Im liking it. It also feels like If I wasnt part of a big family, was rich and lived in a completely new country Id be ok with wanting to be a woman. I was able to relate to that persons post on reddit who transitioned and some other few comments, that panic attack from last night is still lingering. This is literally not ocd man and like I know its not too.
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- 3y
@Imaan7 If you’re having panic attacks over this it seems like it is OCD man. I’ve had similar experiences where I “test” how I would feel being a woman and experiencing sex from a woman’s perspective, and it is certainly arousing. But that has nothing to do with my actual identity. And “liking it” I think is what they call a backward spike. I guess all I would say is if you’re actually trans you should come out to your family.
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@Owen Roberts Thats so triggring to hear man and makes me want to Kms
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- 3y
@Imaan7 I would just relax bro. It’s obvious to me you have OCD.
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- 3y
@Owen Roberts How man, its really not man
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- 21w
This is so extremely difficult, i’ve never experienced having thoughts of being a different gender. i’ve always been comfortable being a girl. i’ve always been a girly girl. this all started a couple months ago and it’s increasingly getting worse. i’ve had times where i didn’t like my body but i always thought i could just go to the gym and fix it, never did i think i wanted to be a man. ever since these thoughts started i hate looking at myself in the mirror, i hate looking at my body, i’m aware of my breasts all day everyday, i can’t look at pictures/ videos of myself. from the moment i wake up to the second i go to sleep i have these thoughts. i’m in a panic EVERYDAY. i don’t want to be trans but my thoughts are convincing me i do. i’ve never bat an eye when someone calls me a girl but now it’s like i’m aware of it which i hate. i hate that i’m having these thoughts & it’s convincing me that i want them & that i have to just come out and change. i want to be able to go back to being comfortable as a girl. this has left me feeling so hopeless and depressed, i can’t help but cry every day. has anyone else felt like their whole world was turned upside down?
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- 20w
Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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- 16w
I cant do anything anymore without my brain dregdging up proof from my past that I was actually trans and didn't know it, and it all seems so plausible. like I said in my last post its unearthing memories that I didn't even know I have. ik this is just ocd tricking me but I feel like I need to review every moment thoroughly bc I have questioned my gender in the past but always concluded that'd I'd happier as a girl (which is true). everything feels so real and it feels like I am just super in denial. also, how do I tell people about this? I made the mistake of confessing to a teacher on a note and only a couple friends of mine understand the thoughts I get, but I don't tell them everything. however its very hard for me to do basic responsibilities like school work and I always end up overwhelmed, so I'm thinking I may need accomdations. I need to get in touch with my counselor but i'm unsure how to explain all of this to her, being that I don't have a diagnosis....also I feel like I can't talk about this with the majority of my friends because gender ocd is rare to have (increasing my doubts) and, at least school-wise, i'm in very accepting environment for lgbtq and I'm afraid they're just gonna tell me to accept myself. I'm scared of doing erp for this because what if I like it (also cant afford therapy). ive also felt very apprehensive around some of my trans friends and classmates because my brain is going crazy asking "what if you're like them?" and I feel so bad and transphobic for these thoughts. i'm genuinely so tired. one of my closest friends died last year, but my father pointed out that my recent mood has been even worse than it was during that time. i tend to bottle up my emotions a lot, so everyone's just telling me to "let it go" and tell people, but if I do that I feel like i'll end up confessing. i'm so tired and lost.
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