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- 3y
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 3y
Ok so if u are gay or trans( which I doubt u are) , whats next? Are u just gonna come on the app and ask for help? Or are u gonna accept it and start getting better? In my opinion if u are so distressed about these thoughts that u are gay and or trans, then you probably aren’t. And when u look things up to prove that you are, your ocd picks everything and anything to use agaisnt u. Idk if u understand that OCD is in ur brain and has as much disposal to information as you. Its a disorder of uncertainty, u are worried abour being gay because u aren’t sure. Humans love control and to be certain, but when given uncertainty it causes fear and anxeity beccause we arent in control and when that becomes an obsrssion it becomes OCD
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- 3y
What I said arent even tocd symptoms, what am I gonna do? Im freaking out man, I want to cry
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
This is how ocd attacks! I think exposure therapy with NOCD or any other therapist would help. This is how it feels. Don’t let ocd take over your world. I have so many types- I have just started . It brought over my previous phobia attacks but did not bother me as much.
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How is this ocd?
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- 3y
Well, I want to be a woman but I can't stand a thought of not passing. I don't want to be transgender. I want to be a woman. I feel like shaming embarrassment but largely because I know that I can never actually be a woman. I can just be a person with either transgenderism gender dysphoria, maybe t OCD and the the feeling of being women doesn't even last for me. Want to be a man sometime to flip back and forth depending on the day how I'm feeling so who the heck knows. No matter what I choose, I'm going to feel shame and embarrassed either because I neglected to transition when I would have passed more earlier in life and could have transitioned earlier
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Bro u have OCD. Like plain and simple. Every symptom you have is OCD and you looking it up is just reassurance. The first step to u getting better is accepting u have OCD, if u dont accept it u cant even begin to try and get bbetter
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- 3y
Bro, No, its not ocd, its literally not reassurance only works for people with ocd nothing has convinced me in months that I do have ocd, nothing! And I will go for a walk but Its not that what if im gay or trans, I think I am. Everything jn my head makes sense, and how ive been wrong about my sexuality and gender this whole time and through Hocd obsession I found my true self. This is just what my life is now, I dont know who to talk to or what to do.
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- 3y
@Imaan7 As someone who also has tocd, I can tell that you’re not trans. Reassurance does not actually convince people that they’re not trans. It only brings brief relief until the thoughts come back more distressing and frequently.
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- 3y
@Owen Roberts I dont think this is tocd man, I dont know what it is. I believe Im just trans and never understood what being an actual Man actually felt like up until this hit me and the thought that im a woman and doing things with men seems to arouse me, I cant see men as just men my brain is percieveing them as sexual and romantic beings and it feels like Im liking it. It also feels like If I wasnt part of a big family, was rich and lived in a completely new country Id be ok with wanting to be a woman. I was able to relate to that persons post on reddit who transitioned and some other few comments, that panic attack from last night is still lingering. This is literally not ocd man and like I know its not too.
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- 3y
@Imaan7 If you’re having panic attacks over this it seems like it is OCD man. I’ve had similar experiences where I “test” how I would feel being a woman and experiencing sex from a woman’s perspective, and it is certainly arousing. But that has nothing to do with my actual identity. And “liking it” I think is what they call a backward spike. I guess all I would say is if you’re actually trans you should come out to your family.
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- 3y
@Owen Roberts Thats so triggring to hear man and makes me want to Kms
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- 3y
@Imaan7 I would just relax bro. It’s obvious to me you have OCD.
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- 3y
@Owen Roberts How man, its really not man
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- 25w
I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
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- 19w
Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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- 6w
Finally slept well today! Which is nice. Regardless, I feel like it has destroyed who I am. Its been over a year and a half, and I keep overthinking and questioning my identity and I can’t let it go to the point where I feel that my future is certain, even though I’ve liked myself the entire time and had a pretty stable idea of who I was. My mind has gathered enough proof. I love being a woman, and I don’t want a different body. I wasn’t born in the wrong body. I am obsessing over my voice, which needs no changes, and my chest. After speaking to a friend of a friend, I’m afraid I’ll want a sex change when I finally have a partner. I’m terrified. I don’t know if anyone can relate. I don’t know how to get over this and my first ERP session is in about a week. How do I even go about this? I feel like a monster to my own family.
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