Does anybody wants to talk about something ? I’m open to

Yes please. I am struggling with feeling like I’ve lost attraction to men because I’ve spent so much time ruminating on HOCD thoughts.

I have never found myself attracted to men before...sure, I can look but it never crossed my mind to be attracted to them or even want to do anythjng with them (gym, beach, wherever). But now that I've been dealing with this "I'm gay" obsession, I find myself looking at men much more than women. Feeling like I could easily take it to the next level with them when I find it almost impossible to think about going the next level with a woman. Even though I get aroused when I kiss my girlfriend. It doesn't make me snap out of it. I feel like I'm continually lying to my girlfriend and it's just a matter of time before I have to confess my homosexuality to her. Thing is also, I don't get groinal responses to men but it doesn't make my mind feel any better. It's like I have such low self confidence in myself and my ability to maintain this relationship that I need to be gay in order to be happy. I am back and forth with feeling like I need to act on these thoughts/urges and I'm currently feeling like it wouldn't be anything enjoyable to do something with a man

@2022Recovery I would like to open up if you don‘t mind :/ So due to qurantine (3 weeks which were over now) I felt so alone and it made me missing my family and familiar surrounding so much like never before (moved together with my boyfriend last year). I was so overwhelmed on Saturday that I bursted out tears in front of my boyfriend. I was about to breaking up with him. I already started the breaking up conversation and told him that I‘ve been lately feeling bad and that I missing my family and then he took me in his arms and calmed me. So I didn‘t continue the conversation. We both fell asleep after a while and I felt better in the morning. I still want to stay with him. But since I started this conversation, I feel miserable. My guilt feeling is eating me up like never before. I feel at rock bottom 24/7. I feel like I need to confess, but I would destroy his security in our relationship. He would leave me I guess. I did such a huge mistake and I don‘t know how to recover from that :(

Yeah I just posted something max 1 minute ago. I compulsively obsess about body parts I hate it! I want guys and I keep saying big muscular but I’ve never like them I like lean guys like big ass and tall but I like lean dorky guys you know not big muscular guys but I’m obsessing about boobs and I need help and I hate this because like the only guilt I feel is that I might be triggering somebody