2022Recovery
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- 3y ago
cf05cf05
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Yes please. I am struggling with feeling like I’ve lost attraction to men because I’ve spent so much time ruminating on HOCD thoughts.
cf05cf05
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- 3y ago
@msbaeyawnce Have you experienced any relief since? It’s making me lose my mind
2022Recovery2022Recovery
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- 3y ago
I felt that and still feel that sometimes with girls , it’s hard but I’m feeling a lil bit better , a lot because of my medication , trust me , Zoloft can be really helpful
cf05cf05
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- 3y ago
@2022Recovery How did you initiate getting prescribed medication? I have always been against it but cannot take these intrusive thoughts anymore. Also, did your thoughts ever make you feel like a completely different and unrecognizable person than you felt before?
2022Recovery2022Recovery
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- 3y ago
@cf05 I went to my psychiatrist and she prescribed Zoloft for me , it takes a few weeks but the symptoms get reduced a lot , some of the false attractions are still there , but at least I’ve recovered some of the energy and I’m functioning since last Wednesday, and yes , my OCD did made feel and sometimes still makes me feel like I’m a totally different person from who I thought I was
cf05cf05
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- 3y ago
@2022Recovery How do you deal with this? I would literally give anything to go back to two months ago when I felt completely normal.
2022Recovery2022Recovery
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- 3y ago
@cf05 I don’t know what happened but the effects of the medicine started hitting on me and I got better , I still struggle with a considerable amount of situations and it’s still a concern of mine but it is on second plane and I’m functioning, like I’m able to do more stuff than just lay in bed , but I still have some issues and I spent a major part of the day with thoughts related to sexual orientation but they aren’t as serious or as distressing
cf05cf05
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- 3y ago
@2022Recovery I appreciate you speaking with me about this. I have dealt with OCD in the past but nothing like this and this is by far the hardest subtype for me because of the significant level of shame behind it. I just hope I can start feeling like normal again and go back to having the desires for men that I have always had.
Sparker1289Sparker1289
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- 3y ago
I have never found myself attracted to men before...sure, I can look but it never crossed my mind to be attracted to them or even want to do anythjng with them (gym, beach, wherever). But now that I've been dealing with this "I'm gay" obsession, I find myself looking at men much more than women. Feeling like I could easily take it to the next level with them when I find it almost impossible to think about going the next level with a woman. Even though I get aroused when I kiss my girlfriend. It doesn't make me snap out of it. I feel like I'm continually lying to my girlfriend and it's just a matter of time before I have to confess my homosexuality to her. Thing is also, I don't get groinal responses to men but it doesn't make my mind feel any better. It's like I have such low self confidence in myself and my ability to maintain this relationship that I need to be gay in order to be happy. I am back and forth with feeling like I need to act on these thoughts/urges and I'm currently feeling like it wouldn't be anything enjoyable to do something with a man
2022Recovery2022Recovery
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I felt exactly like that for a long time and still have some issues with it and I know how bad it is , hope you get better
JaxijuJaxiju
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- 3y ago
@2022Recovery I would like to open up if you don‘t mind :/ So due to qurantine (3 weeks which were over now) I felt so alone and it made me missing my family and familiar surrounding so much like never before (moved together with my boyfriend last year). I was so overwhelmed on Saturday that I bursted out tears in front of my boyfriend. I was about to breaking up with him. I already started the breaking up conversation and told him that I‘ve been lately feeling bad and that I missing my family and then he took me in his arms and calmed me. So I didn‘t continue the conversation. We both fell asleep after a while and I felt better in the morning. I still want to stay with him. But since I started this conversation, I feel miserable. My guilt feeling is eating me up like never before. I feel at rock bottom 24/7. I feel like I need to confess, but I would destroy his security in our relationship. He would leave me I guess. I did such a huge mistake and I don‘t know how to recover from that :(
Bookworm91Bookworm91
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Yeah I just posted something max 1 minute ago. I compulsively obsess about body parts I hate it! I want guys and I keep saying big muscular but I’ve never like them I like lean guys like big ass and tall but I like lean dorky guys you know not big muscular guys but I’m obsessing about boobs and I need help and I hate this because like the only guilt I feel is that I might be triggering somebody
2022Recovery2022Recovery
- Date posted
- 3y ago
There is no need to be worried about triggering somebody , you need to let everything out , if you never liked muscular guys that doesn’t mean anything , I actually had a lot of crushes when I was young in pretty ugly girls and that doesn’t mean that I like women less
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