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- Dre83
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- 2y ago
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- FinFinFinFin
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- 2y ago
I think I'm at the point now to where I don't tell my spouse my thoughts. She knows I have OCD, she knows I stuggle...but telling her my thoughts just felt like confessing, to ease my mind. I think it does no good for either of us...cause sometimes her reaction comes off as worried, and that's not good for her mental health, and then it makes me feel even worse. Even though we both know it's the OCD. It's justifiable if she seems scared, but then that just scares me...So I just keep my thoughts between my therapist and myself now.
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- Dre83Dre83
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- 2y ago
And you have harm theme as well I take it. I usually keep mine to myself too but last Thursday really scared me and I woke us both up at 2 am so I shared because i was going to leave the house to ease my mind
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- Warrior25Warrior25
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- 2y ago
Even when it wasn't harm OCD omething similar happened to me when I shared my thoughts with someone I loved. One thing you can try is show her a video about someone who has OCD or an expert in the matter. The rest is for you to be patient and understand that you don't need to share any specific thought with anyone except maybe a therapist. I think her reaction is normal and the pain you may be feeling from her reaction is too. You are not alone. Just gotta be patient with her and compassionate with yourself.
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- Dre83Dre83
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- 2y ago
Thank you! I had a bad episode last week and I shared with her so. Gosh ocd attacked when I was upset but I’ve been uoset in the past and it didn’t attack like this. Wtf!!!
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- Warrior25Warrior25
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- 2y ago
@Dre83 Does she know you have OCD?
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- Dre83Dre83
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- 2y ago
@herdel25 She deals with major depressive disorder so she understands mental health
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- Warrior25Warrior25
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- 2y ago
@Dre83 Man I feel for you and her. I know it's hard. Don't judge yourself. I would feel the same way. Just be kind and patient with yourself and her. This is just part of the battle.
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- Dre83Dre83
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- 2y ago
@herdel25 Thanks man. It’s been a long and sometimes hard year and a half of this freaking ocd
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- Dre83Dre83
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- 2y ago
Yeah I’ve shared websites with her and she knows I’m in therapy
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- sue thomassue thomas
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- 2y ago
I have harm ocd and been in a severe battle with it for over a month. It and depression come together. Its be awful worse one so far. Been in hospital over a month no relief. Hang in there best we can do. Out of the odds I feel this is the worst one. Right now every thing I look at is a trigger. Hate this
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- Dre83Dre83
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- 2y ago
Gosh so sorry to hear that. I hope you find some relief soon!
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- Try2023
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OCD Fighting Back - Harm OCD
I am fairly new to the site, but have already been able to connect with a few of y'all that are struggling with some of the same things as I am. I have had OCD for years, but I never attributed my struggles to OCD, until I started down the path of harm OCD and the intrusive thoughts. Back in the beginning of December, I had a couple of intrusive thoughts come in about "what if" I harmed my husband and then one towards my youngest daughter. I let it get me so overwhelmed that I ended up in urgent care after passing out at my in-laws due to dehydration and lack of sleep. I finally found a therapist who informed me that I had OCD and that I hadn't just suddenly become a psychopath. But, even knowing that it is OCD, there has always been that doubt, as I am sure all of you have experience with. I am working on accepting the thoughts as just thoughts and moving on with my day. I have been working on not ruminating and just telling the thoughts, "maybe, maybe not." The problem is, every day, it is like the OCD is trying to convince me why I might harm my family. Every little thing that irritates me, my brain says, "See..you're getting frustrated with your kids. It makes sense that you would hurt them." On and on it goes and then I get the thought, maybe this is what I want. Maybe I am just an angry person. Maybe I have just finally had enough. I hate the "I" statements because I have never wanted to harm anyone, let alone my babies or my hubby. But, OCD tells me that I do. Has anyone else struggled with this? I have never wanted to harm anyone. I have always tried to protect my babies and do everything I can to protect my marriage as well. I just hate that OCD seems to be trying to convince me that it's not just thoughts, but that I actually want these things.
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