✋ I’m a serial Job quitter. I have my consult call tomorrow. I don’t know why but I go through spells where I work about 3 months and then I call off , anxiety sets in, & I quit. I’m so sick of this cycle. The anxiety is through the roof! It’s no wonder my blood pressure is so high. I hate this. Everyone I love leaves me and I’m lonely. I know GOD is with me but I’m not going to lie. It’s hard to believe at this moment because of what my brain tells me to be true. My mom used to get mad at me when I was young she’d say… “we shoulda got a check for yo ass” It even became a joke when I got older cuz my parents claimed they were worried about me but was proud I was maintaining. Unbeknownst to them… depression was fully onset and my place was atrocious. Lived in a boarding house with the bed on the floor and mice in the ceilings. Room was always dirty. Shared a bathroom and that was never clean and my neighbors were on heroin. Met my wife and she saved me by moving me in with her but my symptoms kept getting worse and now I’m alone trying to figure this out. The only reason I won’t KILL MYSELF is because I want to prove everyone wrong about me but most days I feel they are right. I don’t know why I’m sharing this cuz I usually just help everyone else with their problems and give advice, but I DON’T WANT TO DIE, so this seems to be the right thing to do.

Take a deep deep breath friend, one hand on your heart repeat after me OUT LOUD please, “this is extremely difficult for me right now, I am struggling very hard to meet my own expectations and resist doing a compulsion. I deserve to be kind to myself, and I am allowed to make mistakes” repeat that until your blood pressure lowers. I’m so sorry, what a painful time this is. It helped me to feel less alone when I learned that everybody is experiencing a weight of devastation on their shoulders that they’re not sure how to shake, you’re going through a very human experience right now and we are right here with you. I hear that you feel very alone right now and are struggling to cope on your own, that’s so hard. I repeat psalm 56:3 when I am at my lowest “when I am afraid I will put my trust in you”. Trust in your greater power and trust in yourself, I promise every ounce of strength that you need is right there in your body just be kind and PATIENT with yourself 🙏🏻 ❤️

Please give yourself some grace. We are all flawed and broken. It seems that those of us with OCD have such a distortion of thoughts that it can cause us to become paralyzed (leading to depression and quitting of jobs,etc.) Can you make some small measurable goals for yourself? For example, (& I really think this will help…it did wonders for me) can you listen to videos on YouTube by Mark DeJesus? Start with his video titled, “OCD and the danger of checking yourself.” Another goal may be to set an appt with a counselor who specializes in OCD (maybe here on the app.) Or maybe to walk a mile or two a day. We have to put our hand to the plow and not look back despite our feelings. I know it’s so much easier said than done. Please listen to the video that I suggested, I really think it will help. Please know that God loves you unconditionally. Search for Him and you will find Him. Please put one foot in front of the other and don’t look back. Try it for 2 weeks with small measurable goals. I am praying for you now.

Hey! I also quit all my jobs and I’m a full grown adult. I just got a new job that I’m trying so hard to get through. It’s tough but just know you are not alone!