My parents randomly just got super Christian like two years ago, used to be anti but they’re extremely religious particularly bc of the pandemic, they think like it’s gonna be uprising of Christ or something...(they are anti mask, vax) I am not Christian, and I personally disagree with their beliefs about the pandemic, at first I thought we just had differing opinions, but now I’m actually getting slightly worried. They’ve started calling ME Jesus and that “I’m the chosen one” and it honestly makes me really uncomfortable. Idk what to do, I’m getting a little worried, is that normal??? I feel like it’s not. (This is not meant to bash Christianity btw)

I keep randomly getting scary evil/ demonic images or thoughts in my head. I can’t specifically describe how or what they are but I just feel scared & unsettled I feel like I’m possessed or that a devil is controlling my mind or something! I’m catholic I haven’t really been that religious but I’ve been so scared that I started praying to feel better and I feel like I need to pray to make whatever this is go away. I never believed in possession I’m more of a scientific based person however I’ve reached the point where my beliefs aren’t firm anymore I feel scared I don’t know what to believe it’s like I’m slowly believing my mind is being controlled I’m scared :( is something severely wrong with me? Is possession / devils real? Do I have a severe mental illness am I going crazy / developing psychosis or becoming delusional?? :(

I have a talent for singing and it’s been what my life has been about since forever. My religious mother once told me “you should only use it for God since he gave it to you, if you don’t you’ll be punished.” and “one day you’ll wake up and your voice will be gone, and you’ll be like everyone else.” For the next 9 years I went on to be scared of everything I did, wondering if that would be the reason I would lose my voice and my talent and then I’d have nothing and BE nothing. In my little 7 year old mind, I interpreted that as “you’re nothing without it and God can choose to make you nothing if you mess up.” So now, I live in constant fear that one day God will punish me by taking away the one thing that makes me ‘something’. Today, my little brother started singing and I could hear that it was good. For some reason I began to get so scared that I had a panic attack, thinking I was going to be replaced. I have severe abandonment issues so I always thought I had to preform or do something amazing to deserve love, and singing was that thing. I was so scared that this fear I felt made me narcissistic I began to shove my own feelings down in a way to deny it and prove that thought wrong. I’m not sure what I should do, I don’t know if it’s normal to feel like this, but I feel like an absolute monster for feeling this way about it. Now my OCD won’t let me rest and keeps telling me that I’m such a narcissist for being “jealous” even though I’m just terrified that I’m going to be forgotten. Has anyone else ever been in a situation like this?? Can anyone help me? I’m just at a loss right now.

I keep seeing things about end times. I have always suffered with OCD about religion. Like solar storm/solar eclipse knocking out cell phone service and the solar eclipse happening. Does anyone relate??? I feel so alone I keep talking to my boyfriend about it but i don’t think he understands what I am going through mentally from it.