Caught myself doing the googling compulsion trying to get rid of the guilt from intrusive thoughts and staring ocd and ocd telling me horrible things or intrusive opinions about my 11 year old niece. I’m stuck in my room for 10 days not only with Covid but this horrible guilt. I don’t know what to do

I have no motivation to even get up and play a video game because if feel so bad about it. It kept telling me things like she put of black leggings the other day and my mind kept telling me I thought her leggings looked “sexy” on her or her body type is “sexy” and I know for fact I know I would never think that. It’s ocd it has to be. I feel like I’m going crazy. Please if anyone reads this please help. I’m at a loss here I don’t know what to do. I just want to cry

Maybe crying COULD help? I think that since you know you’d never think of your niece like that it just solidifies the OCD? Like, you know you would never hurt her or any others. Your OCD is just trying to convince you of these things and you can’t control it. It’s not your fault. Remember to breathe and try to ground yourself. You have control over your body and actions. YOU are in control. Not your OCD.

Hi friend, I’m so sorry that your ocd is causing you so much pain. I want to remind you that thoughts literally don’t mean anything, and when we’re trying not to have intrusive thoughts about kids it will make us have more intrusive thoughts. For example, don’t think about a pink elephant. You probably just saw a pink elephant in your mind because you were trying not to think about it. Please know you’re not a bad person and that thought doesn’t mean anything.