Hello! I’ve noticed since I tried to start reducing my meds (after a discussion w GP!) that I’ve become very obsessive about my emotions and feelings. I am absolutely focused on the fact that I feel that I must be happy all of the time (which I know is totally not sustainable at all, because hello, life). I find myself getting tearful and anxious and upset and then getting mad at myself because I’m not happy. I constantly check my emotions and if I’m feeling happy, it’s a good day. If I’m feeling sad/anxious/upset it’s a bad day and it’s ruined. I’ve been this way for a LONG long time and even used to keep diaries of my emotions so I could check back and see how often I was happy or sad. I know this is a compulsion and I know the mental checking is also a compulsion. I feel like when I am anxious or sad that there must be a reason for it and I get fixated on trying to figure out why I feel the way I do. I start thinking is it something in my life that is wrong, is it my job or my family or my relationship (which was probably how I ended up struggling with ROCD several years ago). I feel like I’m in this endless cycle of trying to correct things and figure out what is wrong in my life when I actually don’t think there is anything wrong! I have a wonderful supportive husband & family and a lovely home, and a good career (I’m a paramedic which has obviously been tough the last few years). I’m not sure what I was hoping to achieve with this post, but it’s nice to articulate what I’m feeling! Does anyone else struggle with emotion/feeling checking and how can I try and deal with this? Thanks :)