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I’ve definitely been in your place. I’ve struggled with ROCD for years and have been with my partner for almost 6. I can’t count how many times Ive been in the cycle you’re in. It’s not easy but it’s doable. Don’t seek any answers. That’s what’s keeping you stuck. Just try and live moment by moment and tell yourself, “all I have is now. If now doesn’t feel perfect with my partner, it doesn’t have to. I don’t need perfection to be happy. I can control THIS MOMENT and that’s what I’ll do. Feelings are not facts.” I wish you well!
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Do you ever like have an urge to be like by yourself or make things go back to what they were? I get scared of that because I don't want to break up but I get very afraid that that's what I want.
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@Anonymous All. The. Time. My brain craves the idea of being alone and “resting.” I can tell ya, my partner and I broke up for a day and I swear those feelings of “I’ll be better off by myself” completely vanished. They ghosted me. I missed my partner dearly and granted it was only a day and I’m sure we would’ve healed, something in me said this isn’t how it’s supposed to be. I’m a serial introvert that loves to be alone and has always processed things by herself better. Being in a relationship has exposed the hell out of those tendencies and my choice to stay has aggravated those old habits. Unfortunately that makes for more anxiety but I’m still learning how to have my “alone moments” without actually going days or longer without talking to my partner and or breaking up. I’m always afraid of the notion “what if I secretly want this.” And the response to that is “maybe I do. Maybe I don’t.” Any ocd specialist will tell you that, that is the key to neutralizing the thoughts and fears and uncontrollable what if’s.
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I can relate to you, I'm also an introverted person, I remember little things about her like what her favorite food is, how she like certain foods, different things. I like to cuddle with her all the time and enjoy moments like watching things with her and showing her things. Idk if that counts as evidence or pointing towards me loving her but I hope it does. Does that mean anything? Sorry this is my last question I just ask a lot when I'm worried about things
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Please don’t apologize. You are here with a purpose to heal like the rest of us. None of us has the answer, but I truly hope you can trust yourself enough to keep trying with your partner. Your introverted side is telling you to run because it thinks you aren’t safe with your partner. But guess what? You’re TRYING something totally new for you. Stepping out of your comfort zone and being in a relationship that triggers your wounds and attachment style. It’s ok to be an introvert and be in a relationship. It’s natural and it’s healthy to want to have alone time. You got this. I will say it again. YOU. GOT. THIS.
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I see, and thank you so much for the advice, it actually kinda helped me, I don't feel as stressed and scared so thank you. I hope everything goes well for you to.
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Of course :) thank you so much!
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Oh my goodness I’ve been trying to find someone with the same problem for forever!!!!!!! I randomly get “uncomfortable” with my boyfriend sometimes even tho I shouldn’t be. Moral ocd is my biggest issue and I feel like I’m doing something immoral and whenever I get that thought I have to tell my bf or I feel anxious for days. It’s gotten so bad I cry a lot. I also get the random urge to break up even tho life is amazing with my boyfriend and he is the sweetest most amazing person I’ve ever met and really supports me through this. I never wanna break up but I get random urges to. Scary as heck but right now I’m not feeling anxious about it
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