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Do whatever makes you feel better just make sure that when you have a surge of energy that you are feeling better, NEVER say “I’m glad I got over this” because right there it comes back even worse.

Yeah same here

Extremely common but erp beats it

Been there. I can relate to your posts so much because I literally see me. While I am feeling better, I still get groinal responses when I see some guys and then my mind is like “see, you’re gay you are just in denial” I’m learning to just let the thoughts be there and laugh at them. Sometimes I’ll be like “hey who knows maybe I am gay” and while I get anxiety saying that, it slowly goes away. My honest advice is to distract your brain as much as possible. The thoughts will be there but they won’t be as overwhelming like when you’re just sitting in a room without doing anything. It does get better, I have good days and horrible days. It’s all part of your condition. I take pride in having this condition because when I do get it under control, I can help other people going through it and I love helping others. Much love as always, you can do this! Don’t give up!