Has anybody else became someone totally different after your ocd experience? I miss the old me but some parts of me have changed for the better

The “old you” is still you today. I had a relapse a few years ago, and when I was recovered, I didn’t even feel like I had ocd for the most part. I’m currently going through a relapse, and what’s giving me hope is that this is a blip and life will probably return back to normal again with ocd just being kind of an afterthought. You’ll still have intrusive throughts (even people without ocd do) but you won’t care that much about them—even when they’re annoying or scary. I hope this isn’t giving too much reassurance, but I just want you to know your core you hasn’t changed. You are still a human worthy of love, safety, and contentment.

I feel the same way I seen older pictures of my prior to my ocd getting worse this last time I was smileing and being crazy my hair was always washed and I just looked better I still struggled back them to but not like this I literally wish I was her again this invisible illness that’s literally just in my head makeing me believe and do these things I can’t just stop and not listen to it when it’s not even real I could just get dressed normal 1 day and not do my dressing ritual that I’ve been doing for 15 years nothings stopping me but I wouldn’t be able to do it out of fear I’ve done it for so long though there’s nothing there stopping me from doing it though except that I have ocd I hate it.

I agree I miss the old me and don’t know how to get her back

Me too