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Wow, thank you so much for sharing this with me! I’m new to NOCD and have never had a community that actually lives with this! This particular subtype (HOCD) has probably been the hardest I’ve ever dealt with because sexuality and fluidity and everything else! As a mother of two young kids and a wonderful husband, I’ve had everything from ROCD, POCD, Harm, the list goes on 😜. Just nice to know that someone can relate. I’m currently dealing with future thinking that this will happen to me and it’s really making me spiral.
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Don’t spiral! You chose to marry your husband and have kids with him because you genuinely love him! Don’t let this disease control your narrative!
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Yes I have. There was one I read last year and the woman had struggled with intimacy with men (something i struggle with) and that’s when she realized she was gay. We have to remember though that those stories aren’t our stories and just because we have smilair experiences, that doesn’t mean we will have similar outcomes
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This is a big trigger for me too! I am married with a little girl and an amazing husband too. I have noticed when themes like this come up it’s because I have an over active imagination (thanks OCD) in an extremely safe environment (safe relationship.) I still struggle with ROCD so much but this is one of my longer lasting HOCD triggers.
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I would just like to watch Euphoria without a trigger.. it’s a good show dang it!
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@Ope Me too!!! Keep watching it—good ERP!
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Euphoria is a huge trigger for me too! I was always very hesitant about sex just because I have a fear of rejection and performance anxiety after my ex said some things to me, but now I literally have like no libido. But I also worry about the masculine women. I was better for a while and now I’m having a bad back door spike but when I was better, it was so much better!
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Oddly, it’s nice to know my brain isn’t the only brain that can react to something like this.
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Thank you so much. ❤️
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Honestly it’s just nice to hear that someone else is in the same situation sometimes. You got this.
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Thank you for sharing! I still can’t get over how amazing everyone is! My OCD usually gets bad when there are environmental factors I can’t control. Do either of you experience that? My Dad was recently diagnosed with cancer, my husband has been dealing with depression and my son (10M) tested positive for COVID last week. I think it was the icing on a very large cake. Naturally, my OCD always says it’s not OCD. It doesn’t help that with kids, years of being married, low libido, etc., that my sex drive us low. I don’t always desire and that of course sends the intrusive thoughts into another spiral. I’m so proud of all of us for tackling this head on! WE GOT THIS!
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Yes Im a married female as well and this has cause low libido and I also worry if im attracted to masculine women? Do you worry with masculine women
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@Tan??? That’s not been my experience, but OCD twists every thing imaginable!
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Yep low libido and constantly questioning if I was ever sexually attracted to my husband. I feel you guys.
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I feel like I’ve found my people and that gives me strength to be strong and remember we got this! ❤️
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I watched the trailer for the movie “Am I Ok?” and got completely triggered. Basically a 32 yo woman discovers she’s a lesbian seemingly out of nowhere. I was triggers and did some research (bad idea) and apparently some people who are gay have never had romantic or sexual interest in people of the same sex until one spontaneous moment of discovery. Now I’m worried that this could be me!! I’ve never had a long term relationship, have had crushes and fantasies but back out when things get too close for me. I do prefer my little fantasy world guy but now I’m wondering if maybe I missed something and am in denial, even if I didn’t know it.
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As I’ve posted before, my friends has developed TOUGH hocd and has hit rock bottom :// She told me to ask y’all here if any of you have had a similar experience NOT reassurance (she doesn’t have NOCD). “Hi NOCD community. When I was like 5 I had this distant female cousin whom I played with and grew up. She had super short hair like a boy, but we low key had same interests in toys/tv series etc. and then at THAT age I got a very weird though which said: do you like her? And I remember getting a lot of anxiety and my stomach hurting cause why tf would I have that kind of thought about my female cousin? I remember ruminating about it the whole day, and the next day that thought disappeared and I never had that thought again. We grew up and obviously she’s my family like my sister. But now that I have HOCD, I keep thinking about that memory and I have so much anxiety about it and cry often about it. While growing up I’ve only had crushes on tons of boys at school etc. has anyone had a similar experience?” Thanks for reading if u did! We need support 😭🙏🏻
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As I’ve posted before, my friends has developed TOUGH hocd and has hit rock bottom :// She told me to ask y’all here if any of you have had a similar experience NOT reassurance (she doesn’t have NOCD). “Hi NOCD community. When I was like 5 I had this distant female cousin whom I played with and grew up. She had super short hair like a boy, but we low key had same interests in toys/tv series etc. and then at THAT age I got a very weird though which said: do you like her? And I remember getting a lot of anxiety and my stomach hurting cause why tf would I have that kind of thought about my female cousin? I remember ruminating about it the whole day, and the next day that thought disappeared and I never had that thought again. We grew up and obviously she’s my family like my sister. But now that I have HOCD, I keep thinking about that memory and I have so much anxiety about it and cry often about it. While growing up I’ve only had crushes on tons of boys at school etc. has anyone had a similar experience?” Thanks for reading if u did! We need support 😭🙏🏻
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