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Wow, thank you so much for sharing this with me! I’m new to NOCD and have never had a community that actually lives with this! This particular subtype (HOCD) has probably been the hardest I’ve ever dealt with because sexuality and fluidity and everything else! As a mother of two young kids and a wonderful husband, I’ve had everything from ROCD, POCD, Harm, the list goes on 😜. Just nice to know that someone can relate. I’m currently dealing with future thinking that this will happen to me and it’s really making me spiral.
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Don’t spiral! You chose to marry your husband and have kids with him because you genuinely love him! Don’t let this disease control your narrative!
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Yes I have. There was one I read last year and the woman had struggled with intimacy with men (something i struggle with) and that’s when she realized she was gay. We have to remember though that those stories aren’t our stories and just because we have smilair experiences, that doesn’t mean we will have similar outcomes
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This is a big trigger for me too! I am married with a little girl and an amazing husband too. I have noticed when themes like this come up it’s because I have an over active imagination (thanks OCD) in an extremely safe environment (safe relationship.) I still struggle with ROCD so much but this is one of my longer lasting HOCD triggers.
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I would just like to watch Euphoria without a trigger.. it’s a good show dang it!
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@Ope Me too!!! Keep watching it—good ERP!
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Euphoria is a huge trigger for me too! I was always very hesitant about sex just because I have a fear of rejection and performance anxiety after my ex said some things to me, but now I literally have like no libido. But I also worry about the masculine women. I was better for a while and now I’m having a bad back door spike but when I was better, it was so much better!
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Oddly, it’s nice to know my brain isn’t the only brain that can react to something like this.
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Thank you so much. ❤️
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Honestly it’s just nice to hear that someone else is in the same situation sometimes. You got this.
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Thank you for sharing! I still can’t get over how amazing everyone is! My OCD usually gets bad when there are environmental factors I can’t control. Do either of you experience that? My Dad was recently diagnosed with cancer, my husband has been dealing with depression and my son (10M) tested positive for COVID last week. I think it was the icing on a very large cake. Naturally, my OCD always says it’s not OCD. It doesn’t help that with kids, years of being married, low libido, etc., that my sex drive us low. I don’t always desire and that of course sends the intrusive thoughts into another spiral. I’m so proud of all of us for tackling this head on! WE GOT THIS!
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Yes Im a married female as well and this has cause low libido and I also worry if im attracted to masculine women? Do you worry with masculine women
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@Tan??? That’s not been my experience, but OCD twists every thing imaginable!
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Yep low libido and constantly questioning if I was ever sexually attracted to my husband. I feel you guys.
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I feel like I’ve found my people and that gives me strength to be strong and remember we got this! ❤️
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i'm positive i was attracted to women before this got a thought when i was high thought really really deeply into and changed my life now im 24/7 scared im gay ive always been attracted to girls but early in my sexual life where im at ive always got with girls and seemed a little disapointed after would love help and to hear past experiences
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Have any other experienced mentally going through your past, and finding proof that you once looked at that masculine woman and thought she looked good or something, and now that is a total trigger for you. I mean, i have always been romantacally and saxual into men, and never have i ever wanted to be in a sexual relationship with a girl, that thought is really distressing to me, and actually makes me so sad. But these mentally reviewings has me finding episodes where i have looked at a masculine woman, and found her pretty, attractive or something. But they all looked like men .. and again, i could never see myself being sexual or haven a romantically relationsship with a woman, even thought she look like a man .. Have any other in here find themself in this endless tourturing loop, where you find proof of things … I mean, i have one thousands proofs that im into men, i have been in a relationship for 8 years new, but still these other pictures make me doubt everything about myself, and i am really sad .. Please tell me, that anyone else in here have experienced this, and know that it is normal for HOCD ..
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I feel that I’ve come on extremely well. I still can’t accept uncertainty. My attraction to the opposite gender (females) comes back but doesn’t last how it used to too. I feel that excitement, thoughts like “she’s well fit” then a horrible depressed feeling and those voices saying “but you don’t like females anymore…” The false attraction towards same gender (male) isn’t as bad as it was. It used to be every single male, old young, big, small, even voices, cartoons and so on. Now it’s a quick spike when I see a male followed by disgusted, I still pull a horrible face and I shake depending on how bad the thoughts/ feelings. This HOCD/SOOCD happened 14 years ago but not as severe as this time round. Then just went for 14 years. Has anyone been through the same and got through it??
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