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Wow, thank you so much for sharing this with me! I’m new to NOCD and have never had a community that actually lives with this! This particular subtype (HOCD) has probably been the hardest I’ve ever dealt with because sexuality and fluidity and everything else! As a mother of two young kids and a wonderful husband, I’ve had everything from ROCD, POCD, Harm, the list goes on 😜. Just nice to know that someone can relate. I’m currently dealing with future thinking that this will happen to me and it’s really making me spiral.
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Don’t spiral! You chose to marry your husband and have kids with him because you genuinely love him! Don’t let this disease control your narrative!
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Yes I have. There was one I read last year and the woman had struggled with intimacy with men (something i struggle with) and that’s when she realized she was gay. We have to remember though that those stories aren’t our stories and just because we have smilair experiences, that doesn’t mean we will have similar outcomes
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I would just like to watch Euphoria without a trigger.. it’s a good show dang it!
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@Ope Me too!!! Keep watching it—good ERP!
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Euphoria is a huge trigger for me too! I was always very hesitant about sex just because I have a fear of rejection and performance anxiety after my ex said some things to me, but now I literally have like no libido. But I also worry about the masculine women. I was better for a while and now I’m having a bad back door spike but when I was better, it was so much better!
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Oddly, it’s nice to know my brain isn’t the only brain that can react to something like this.
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Thank you so much. ❤️
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This is a big trigger for me too! I am married with a little girl and an amazing husband too. I have noticed when themes like this come up it’s because I have an over active imagination (thanks OCD) in an extremely safe environment (safe relationship.) I still struggle with ROCD so much but this is one of my longer lasting HOCD triggers.
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Honestly it’s just nice to hear that someone else is in the same situation sometimes. You got this.
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Thank you for sharing! I still can’t get over how amazing everyone is! My OCD usually gets bad when there are environmental factors I can’t control. Do either of you experience that? My Dad was recently diagnosed with cancer, my husband has been dealing with depression and my son (10M) tested positive for COVID last week. I think it was the icing on a very large cake. Naturally, my OCD always says it’s not OCD. It doesn’t help that with kids, years of being married, low libido, etc., that my sex drive us low. I don’t always desire and that of course sends the intrusive thoughts into another spiral. I’m so proud of all of us for tackling this head on! WE GOT THIS!
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Yes Im a married female as well and this has cause low libido and I also worry if im attracted to masculine women? Do you worry with masculine women
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@Tan??? That’s not been my experience, but OCD twists every thing imaginable!
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Yep low libido and constantly questioning if I was ever sexually attracted to my husband. I feel you guys.
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I feel like I’ve found my people and that gives me strength to be strong and remember we got this! ❤️
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I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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So I’ve talked to a couple of gay people and they all told me the same thing. They ALWAYS knew they liked guys and they have ever gotten aroused by a woman in their life. In fact they told me that they always found a woman’s body disgusting. Looking back in my life I’ve been attracted to girls for as long as I can remember even before puberty. All my fantasies were about girls and I can’t remember a time where I felt the same for a guy (because it never happened). At the end I can still get aroused by women and you can clearly see how much stupid this obsession about being gay is. Gay people can’t get instinctively aroused by a woman and like it. Groinal responses and sensations don’t mean anything because they simply do not bring joy or a feeling of desire. Instead they bring panic. I once got a groinal when “testing my reactions” and I was sitting there crying like my life is over. That’s not how genuine attraction works and no one has woken up one day feeling different and no one has been secretly gay and never noticed it and spent his whole life into women instead.
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