- Date posted
- 3y ago
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Going through the exact same...my every day life is focused on what ifs and all the time thinking that my husband is doing something bad behind my back. As a result I am afraid all the time and don't really live my life. I feel so low and depressed that I am not living the life I am supposed to and all the time I am thinking about the other person's behaviour. This is truly devastating...i feel like I can't go on sometimes. Today I felt really bad and cried a lot, like this will never be over... I can totally understand you
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Ooof this is so hard I know :( I get paranoid even if he tells me he is going to take a shower i first think about 'oh he' s taking a shower, why? Did he just fxcked another girl 'and I go on a panic mode and become needy and call him again. I really need to find a way to make it better this is hell
- Date posted
- 3y ago
this has been happening to me too :/ iโve just been feeling extremely insecure in myself to the point where i overthink when my bf tells me stories of his girl coworkers or just get scared heโll find other girls more attractive than me. i woke up this morning so drained and i just donโt know what to really feel
- Date posted
- 3y ago
We have to make it and shut the mouths of our monsters even tho it's so hard I'm sure we are strong enough to do so!!!
- Date posted
- 3y ago
It's like I have zero self esteem and believe everyone will betray me in a way. It's so hard for me to trust someone even if i feel loved. My mind is always suspicious and anxious like something bad must be happening. I can't live in an other way. I hate myself for having these thoughts and fears like I don't believe at all in my power and personality. It's so crazy when I think about it with clear mind but at the same time I can't stop these horrible thoughts...I wish this torture would go away... I can't deal with any more pain and insecurity. My life has become an endless fight against my own mind. I suffer so much as many people too and nobody that doesn't have it will ever understand the real issue and the torture we go through...
- Date posted
- 3y ago
You are strong enough because you know that it is ocd playing with you don't let it destroy your self esteem!!!!!! ๐๐๐
Related posts
- Date posted
- 13w ago
I'm struggling really hard with relationship obsessions. Do I really love my partner? How can I know? Am I really just faking it? That kind of thing. It's making my life and relationship a lot harder than they need to be. I could use a few helpful coping mechanisms, trying to move away from less helpful ones like chasing reassurance.
- Date posted
- 12w ago
When my boyfriend and I are apart, it honestly feels like I've lost all feelings for him. I start questioning everything, wondering if I even love him at all. Then, when we're finally together again, the memory of those earlier doubts creeps in and completely ruins the moment. I get so caught up in overthinking and analyzing my feelings that I can't even enjoy being with him. It's like I'm constantly second-guessing myself. The worst part is, sometimes later, when we're still together, I do feel the love. But then the anxiety kicks in again! I start worrying that I'm just faking it because I had those doubts earlier in the day. It's this endless cycle of questioning, doubting, and overthinking, and it's exhausting. I'm really struggling to stay present when we're together, and it feels like this constant cycle is preventing me from truly connecting with him. We have been together for three years and we love together, and I just started feeling this way about a month ago; itโs been almost every day since. One day, I randomly thought about breaking up with him. Our relationship is healthy, especially compared to my previous toxic one, where I was anxiously attached for two and a half years. My boyfriend is very supportive of me. I have talked to him about my doubts and everything Iโm experiencing, and he continues to support, care for, and help me through it all. I am very grateful for that. One aspect of my current relationship that I would like to improve is our communication, but we are both willing to work on it together. I often find that my overthinking leads me to question whether I really want to try to fix things or if Iโd rather just continue as we are. This creates a constant push and pull in our relationship. Has anyone else experienced something similar? Any advice on how to break this cycle and just be present in the moment? I'd love to hear from anyone who's been through something like this.
- Date posted
- 12w ago
I'm 18, and been in a relationship with my man for nearly 2 years. I started living with him around 2 months ago, and all I do is think about if he's cheating. We were long distance for a year and a half of our relationship, maybe seeing eachother once every month or two. I decided to move in with him, and ever since all I can think about is if he's cheating or watching porn. When he's in another room I think he's doing something wrong, I have to check on him every ten minutes to ease my anxiety. I didn't have this problem before moving in. Granted he has talked to some girls on his phone, even having his ex on his phone (didn't do anything bad) and he is porn addicted though he is getting better for me. It's gotten so bad I want to leave him. A couple days ago I broke up with him and it absolutely broke my heart, I couldn't bare it so I gave him a month to show me he can do better, and for me to work on myself. If I'm still unhappy with us I'm going to leave. I love this boy more than anything. I'm scared to be without him, this is my first real relationship. At this point I refuse to even sleep until he is sleeping. I don't want to start over, I don't want to leave him, but I really can't take this pain it's causing me. It's all I think about. I've convinced myself so many times that he's cheating, but I know he wouldn't. I question whether it's anxiety or intuition. Maybe I just know deep down he really is cheating and I just don't want to believe it. I don't know. I don't think he would do that, but at the same time he's really into women. I hate that he looks at other girls in a sexual way, it bothers me so much, and we talk about it often, but with it being an addiction it's difficult. He has gotten a lot better since we have talked about it. He understands I have an issue and is usually happy to talk about it over and over and promise me over and over that he's not cheating. He allows me to have his phone whenever I want and everything, I have no reason to think he's cheating, but I can't get over it. It's not fair to him either. How do I deal with this? How do I stop hurting so much?
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond