Anger

I'm sorry you're going through this, I'm struggling too

I think that it's natural to feel angry and miserable when you're confronted by something as big as OCD. It's maddening. It feels awful. Of course you're not feeling great. You're a normal human being with normal human being reactions. You're not a robot, and you're not supposed to be a robot. But you're here looking for support, that's an excellent place to start. Talking to your therapist can help lighten this burden