im so tired all the time ive lived a pretty rough life i struggled in school and had to leave for long periods of time sometimes i was in the hospital i never realy finished a year of high school i graduated each grade but never was there for the entire year ive never held a job my bf and ex husband were narcassist and abusive hard to leave those situations things in my life have been better and ive been able to just sit in my home in my bed and no have to be in my car and wonder wat and when i gonna eat and og out and steal food all day to make a meal everyday and go to the gas station to shower which i can barely shower at my own house cause of my ocd contamintion ocd and ritauls so at the gas station my spouse would help me more but i can see all these years ive had to worry bout other things to survive and wasnt able to get help now im tired i dont want to leave my house i get scared my ocd sucks i still need alot of help im up late my bf works 3rd shift so were on the same schedule im scared to get off my phone and sit here and try to go to bed i have alot of stress revolved round laying down sometimes im just laying there for awhile i get up alot and pee alot threwout the nite i never no if my upstairs and adjacent neighbors are gonna be loud and slamming doors its not the noise its the shakeing of the floors and walls and my bed that feel like im being shook awake everytime i have anything to do the next day even just going to the store im worried and dont get any rest i wake up exhausted and to tired to go and end up not going anywere i just dont like to lay here alone i dont like th feelings i feel i dont want to wake up to face tomorow cause of my ocd so i miss out on calling places and even when i call its never positive they dont accept my insurance they dont accept insurance at all there to expensive and i get let down and have a shitty rest of the day i even tried to just go to the mental health place here and they werent helpful dont understand ocd at all ive done been threw 15 years of these doctors not ever realy being able to tlk to them and now that i no theres ocd doctors and therpaist out there thats wat i want to go to and be treated by and also learning regualr doctors and therapist dont even understand ocd and cant do exposrure and response therapy.

Everyday just gets worse and worse and there’s no way to escape the cycle. This constant feeling of dread and guilt I can’t stand it. I have no one to talk to about any of this because I have a fear of them thinking of me different and I don’t like putting my problems on people it just makes me feel like I want attention or something like even when I’m writing this paragraph. I’m stuck in a constant loop. Constant aggressive thoughts and compulsions. I’m 18 and I don’t know about any of my insurance or anything so I can’t get a therapist on here and I really don’t wanna talk to my mom about any of this. I dread having to wake up everyone morning and continue with this shit all day every day. I hate complaining but I just can’t stand this. I don’t know what to do. I’m slowly losing every inch of my mind.

Hi I kept seeing this app on repeat on TikTok over and over and I thought I give it a shot. I have never been diagnosed with OCD but I know that I have it. I’m a young adult and I found out the first time I had OCD was watching lelelons truth video? I was 14 at the time She had to resist sitting back down in a chair after her having sat down she started having a mental break down when she was told to resist. That’s when I knew. It started with myself going up and down a staircase twice buckling unbuckling my seat belt everytime I’m in the car ect I have always been super anti social but trying my best I can socialize but my mind wants to make it sexual with family and friends ughhhh I hate it because that’s not me when I graduated thoughts of hurting my loved ones corrupted my mind I broke down outside of church one time asking if this was really me or not i question if I’m a good enough friend or person in this world to begin with thinking everyone is judging me so so close how can I make this situation better did I do something wrong I struggle with depression as well not to bad but it’s there I come from a loving family but broken as well i believe in god and my OCD makes me go often he’s not real that stuff isn’t real no one is there to save you the list goes on. Anyway I struggle a lot and I really hope that this will help me because I feel extremely hopeless. Lucky for me I do have the ability to seek therapy and I am excited. The only person I ever tell my thoughts to is God no other human has heard so I’m really really hoping this helps me out if your reading this thank you it means a lot because this is my first time ever admitting all this it’s a lot to take in I know and I hope you are ok and that you have a great night and know that we got this

I’m feeling kind of sad cause today was not a really good day in terms of my ocd. I was feeling kind of foggy/numb and that send me to spiraling. I’m 21 years old currently studying but my family has been having trouble with money for the last couple years(we’re just me and my mom) and I kinda want to get a job but everything is far from my home and I wouldn’t be able to return back at night, also it’s either way more expensive to move or the schedule wouldn’t let me take my classes. The point is that because of that every time my mom is stress tends to treat me bad, she speaks to me like I’m stupid or she just screams to nothing cursing all life and everything and that actually makes me feel soo bad and guilty for not doing anything, I know it’s hard for me to get a job that actually helps us without quitting school but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like I’m a burden. I want to help, I want to maybe hug her or something but I know she will be angrier and probably will reject it. So that’s it, I just feel like she punishes me for the stress she’s carrying and I get it but one day is happy and it feels like all love and the next is treating me like that, Idk it’s hard (also I feel like I shouldn’t be saying this cause it’s all my fault) 🫤