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- Itswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Please help
Guys I literally feel trans. I literally feel like I have to come out and that I’m not a girl anymore 😭😭 I can’t believe my life has come to this.
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- confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Hey I’m trans and I had this exact thing but opposite!! I was scared that I was cis and lying to myself. (I was not) I felt the need to tell everyone “oh hey haha jk” even though I felt comfortable in my gender but my brain always had this icky “what if” and “this will go away and you will feel normal and be happy if you tell them ur actually cis.” Honestly just ignore it, mine lasted like a good month but it did go away and I’m more confident then ever that I’m trans, so it was for sure just intrusive thoughts. If you don’t want to be trans, then don’t and just ignore it. The more you look into it and look up things about it, the more you supply your brain with knowledge it can use to trick you❤️
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Ugh it’s the worst. I feel like a man in the inside and that my femininity is gone but I want it back. 😭 it feels so convincing that I’m trans
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- Declan Declan
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Is this the OCD, or do you actually feel you might be trans?
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Idek at this point
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
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- 2y ago
I hope it’s the ocd
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- Declan Declan
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Itswhatever Can I ask why you 'hope it's the OCD'? If you really don't want to be transgender, than you're probably not transgender.
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Declan Because I don’t want to be transgender. Like I’ve had this for a month. I feel like a man in the inside but I don’t want to feel like that 😭
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- Declan Declan
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Itswhatever As a trans male myself, I totally get that. And I would encourage you not to worry about 'what-ifs'. Take the time to listen to yourself, even experiment with styles or pronouns if that's something you're comfortable with right now. But if not, that's okay. You don't have to be anything right now. You're still you.
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Declan I’m sorry but you saying that u can relate to that is very triggering to me because I don’t want to be a male. But no offense to you at all. That’s just not something I want for myself.
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Itswhatever Hi love. I know you are in distress because even reading this chain brought back some of my OCD about this topic but @Declans experience should help you- him being a trans male himself has nothing to do with you’re situation whatsoever. If anything this is OCD because of how uncomfortable you feel when he says “you don’t have to be anything right now you are still you”. What he relates to is feeling like you are not comfortable with you’re own gender; because the OCD makes you FEEL like that even though it’s not true.
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 Ugh the thing that gets me is the “feeling” of male. Like I feel like a male. And I can’t stop having anxiety over it. I don’t wanna feel like a man. I wanna feel like a girl
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Itswhatever Did you read the Instagram post I Reccomended to you?
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 Yes
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- SDW453SDW453
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- 2y ago
@Itswhatever Did it help ?
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 It helps me because it reminds me that it is just OCD. But the only way to get over it is by accepting the things and not giving into compulsions.
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 Ugh it helped a little but it didn’t say anything about feeling like the opposite gender so it kind threw me off and made me anxious
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Itswhatever But that’s what OCD does… it makes you feel things you don’t wanna feel. Did rhis just come randomly out of the blue?
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 Yes I had hocd before this and then I was reading about someone’s intrusive thoughts about trans ocd on this app and then the thoughts just came flooding in.
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- SDW453SDW453
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- 2y ago
@Itswhatever See. Ans thing happened to me love. People who are trans don’t have ocd about being trans… don’t worry. I also have SOCD that randomly got intrsuive thoughts about this. It’s all OCD. i promise
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Itswhatever When you want to transition, you don’t feel like this RANDOMLY and after another theme. I’m don’t giving reassurance because that won’t help BUT i hope I can make you feel better
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 Thank you so much angel! U honestly did make me feel valid and heard unlike a lot of people so thank you so much. It’s just so hard to tell what’s real and what’s not all the time :( but thank you so much
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Itswhatever Of course I’m always here for you
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 Do you have insta ?
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Itswhatever yes I do! it’s @sofweissman
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
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- 2y ago
@SDW453 Followed ya:)
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- SDW453SDW453
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- 2y ago
@Itswhatever you’re gorgeous love! and comfortable in YOUR own skin. You can always DM me whenever you want💗
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 Thank you so much. I sure will. Did u say you’ve had this theme before.
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Itswhatever Well it’s fairly new I literally got a random intrsuive thought about it kinda the same way you did on Sunday morning. I saw a video of someone who is trans and all the sudden got all these intrsuive thiughts about it which scared the living hell out of me. It was completely out of the blue.
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 It feels shameful, unlike me, and very disturbing. I am starting ERP Thearpy to deal with my many other themes (if you click on my profile you will see them:) so I hope that will help. My thearpist told me whenvee I get a thought to say “I don’t need to figure this out right now” and countinue with my normal schduele. When I have done that and not talked about it constantly it has helped me. Try this… whenever you get a thought say “this is ocd, I don’t need to solve this right now”. It’s okay to be uncomfortable you are NOT in danger.
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- ItswhateverItswhatever
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@SDW453 Thank you honey. ❤️
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Hey love- this is probably you’re OCD. all the sudden out of the blue a few days ago I got intrusive thiughts about me being trans when I have NEVER questioned it and am a very feminine girl and always felt comfortable with my gender identity. I did some reading and with TOCD it usually happens when someone has a different form of OCD and happens out of the blue rather than someone who is actually transgender these feelings don’t just come “out of the blue” per say
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- MaryAlice235MaryAlice235
- Date posted
- 2y ago
If your trans then your trans it won’t change anything unless if you think ocd is making you feel this way
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- SDW453SDW453
- Date posted
- 2y ago
if you have Instagram, I reccomend going on the account @soocdsupport and reading their post on transgender OCD. ur not alone
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- Ocdsuxs
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- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Guys no no no I just searched something up on the trans subreddit and I saw a meme saying “it’s probably just ocd” and I’m panicking again. I’m not even sure it’s ocd. I’ve questioned my gender before and I’ve been a tomboy since I was like 11. I even once TOLD SOMEONE I wanted to be a boy. I’m freaking out because this HAS to be denial at this point. I knew I shouldn’t have looked on the subreddit. I’m so DUMB. I hate this I’m freaking out my stomach has turned over. I don’t know what this is anymore. I’m getting over it but it also feels like I’m “accepting” that I’m trans. I don’t know what to do because I wanna be a girl!! I don’t wanna come out and transition and everything. If I look back at my early days of my tocd I feel like it’s word for word symptoms of OCD but I also feel like when I found out it was ocd my symptoms became more like ocd. I dont wanna accept I’m trans! I was doing quite well until I went on the subreddit! I’m so scared because I think it’s not ocd at this point. I HAVE to stop going on that stupid website. The only time I had “dysphoria” is disliking my boobs, but I remember in the early stages of puberty I was so excited to wear a bra. I’m so confused help please. I sometimes feel like I’m forcing myself to do compulsions because I just want to think it’s ocd. I’m so stupid WHY DID I GO ON REDDITT
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- Rage against...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Can someone please help me? PLEASE. I NEED SOMEONE
I’m so fucking torn and so fucking lost. The last couple days, I feel like something in me has switched. I feel horrible about my body, especially my boobs and my vagina. I feel uncomfortable with anything female about myself and I feel like I need to GET OUT of my body. I feel so hyper aware of my breasts and I can’t ignore them. Looking at my body makes me anxious and feel nauseated. I can’t function, I’m dreading showering tomorrow. I always have a physical sensation of something in my lower region. My voice and face and name and pronouns trigger me and make me uncomfortable. The intrusive thoughts are either gone or are in the form of feelings. I’ll look at my face and suddenly I will feel like I don’t like it and it makes me uncomfortable. I DONT WANNA BE TRANS BUT I FEEL LIKE THIS IS DYSPHORIA. I feel like I finally understand WHY people transition. I feel like I need to change something because this feeling feels permanent. I’ve been wearing baggy masculine clothes every day because anything feminine makes me nauseous and feel horrible. I just wanna separate myself from anything female right now. Furthermore, I now usually “perceive” myself as a man. It’s like there is a man inside of me. Literally i sometimes feel like a male in a woman’s body. I keep imagining myself as this man character in my head, everything I do I feel like him. I’m so fucking tired. I’ve been having panic attacks and sobbing hysterically all day yesterday and today. The thought of ACTUALLY being trans is so fucking scary that it makes me cry and feel sick but the way I feel right now I feel like I need to be transgender and become male or else I will live in this horrible foggy misery forever. This has only been 2 days. Is it weird that I feel like I don’t even want my old self back, or that I don’t want it to be OCD???? It feels REAL. Can OCD do this because I genuinely hate my femaleness right now and I SEE myself as a male. Everything about my past feels so superficial and fake and like it was never me. I feel like this is me. And I cannot stress how fucking deep this feels. I feel like I genuinely want the surgery now. Everything feels so different. I need help. When I look at symptoms of TOCD, I feel like that’s ME! I did all of these in the very beginning. And I feel relieved but not convinced. But now, I relate more to dysphoria than actual TOCD. Is this something that can happen?
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